voice test; reserved at exsilium

[mgann]

Look, I... I know I'm not the same as I was when we were last partnered up, but that doesn't mean I'm a completely new person. I'm still me, just older and more experienced.

You're cautious, and that's natural. If things don't work out, then we can deal with it. Things don't always work out, no matter how much you want them to. We both know that. Let's just try and see what happens, okay?

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[mgann]

If it doesn't work out, we just won't do much together. That's all.

[SOBBING]

[genomorph]

That's it?

[ There's a suspecting dip in his brows as he watches her. ]

[mgann]

[She looks at him, and her own brows are brought together.]

What do you expect me to say?

[genomorph]

You're going to let her walk away with everything intact?

[ He's not talking about about physically either. ]

[mgann]

She's not a bad guy, Conner. She's done nothing wrong.

[M'gann gazes at him sternly. A little more and it would be a glare.]

[genomorph]

That's not the point, M'gann.

[ Babe, he can match that hard pointed look without a problem. ]

[mgann]

Then I don't see the problem.

[:|]

[genomorph]

Of course you wouldn't.

[ >:| ]

[mgann]

Because there isn't one.

[>:(]

[genomorph]

I wasn't a bad guy, M'gann.

[mgann]

[Okay, that one smarts. A lot. She looks away, avoiding his gaze.]

Conner...

[genomorph]

[ His jaw sets as he watches her look away. How many times does he have to say it for her to understand?

A moment passes. Conner closes his eyes and his shoulders slump on a heavy exhale. He rubs at the bridge of his nose. What does he say now? Sorry? Hey M'gann, sorry about the low blow-- I'm still kind of not over what you did to me.

Sure. That could work.............not ]

It doesn't matter. You did... what you felt was the right thing to do. You always do.

[ Bitter? NAH. ]

[mgann]

I thought it would make things easier, to not having you fighting with me all the time.

[She hugs herself a little, still not willing to meet his eyes. Her voice is quiet and almost... remorseful? Maybe.]

[genomorph]

Sometimes there is no easy way out.

[ Then he adds: ] It would have blown over - [ Their argument. ] - if you had just let things run their own course.

[mgann]

Am I honestly supposed to believe that, Conner? You wouldn't have just let it go. You still won't.

[genomorph]

I should have been enough, M'gann! [ Conner bursts out. GOD WHY ARE THEY HAVING THIS ARGUMENT AGAIN WHY WON'T IT EVER STOP ] But you showed us both that I was no different from the rest. My head, my mind was just another for you to use.

[mgann]

[M'gann physically recoils a bit at the outburst, obviously taken aback, before she retaliates herself. Why did it have to come to this?]

You were-- are more than that, but I thought it would solve things!

[genomorph]

I bet you did. And I bet it would have been better for you if I had turned out catatonic in the end, too!

[ He doesn't know whether to punch a wall or grab her and kiss her or AUGH ]

OH YOU DID NOT

[mgann]

[She now looks like she's been slapped. Hard.]

How dare you, Conner. How dare you say that!

YEAH. HE WENT THERE.

[genomorph]

How dare you think I wouldn't know. How dare you treat me like one of them!

BOYYYYYY

[mgann]

There's a difference! You're not like one of them, and that's why I--

[She cuts herself off, letting her shoulders droop.]

Forget it. Yelling isn't going to change anything.

BBBOOOOYYYY IKR

[genomorph]

--and yet that still didn't stop you.

[ the hurt tone returns. It's the same every time they have this conversation. ]

M'gann...

[ he almost doesn't want to look at her. He doesn't know how they're going to make anything work-- it doesn't matter, she's with La'gaan. ]

[deadcat]

[mgann]

[She mumbles something that normal ears wouldn't be able to pick up. Superboy's, however...]

It should have.

Re: [deadcat]

[genomorph]

Then why?

[ his head lifts and he looks across at her, his expression pained. ]

Why, M'gann?

[mgann]

I told you, I wanted to stop the fighting. I thought that was the way to do it, but...

[She still can't let herself meet his eyes. It'd hurt both of them too much.]