[ A mission. A purpose. He can't survive without one, it's ingrained too deeply. If not the Red Room, then someone. Captains can decide their own fate, but soldiers need orders.
For a moment there is doubt in his eyes, and he knows the very second it shines through. He knows he cannot hide it from her, and his hold on her tightens. ]
You.
[ Because there's nothing else in the world he's let himself want for selfish reasons. He isn't particularly interested in freedom, in a normal life or another line of work. He doesn't regret or feel guilt. So what else is there? ]
no subject
For a moment there is doubt in his eyes, and he knows the very second it shines through. He knows he cannot hide it from her, and his hold on her tightens. ]
You.
[ Because there's nothing else in the world he's let himself want for selfish reasons. He isn't particularly interested in freedom, in a normal life or another line of work. He doesn't regret or feel guilt. So what else is there? ]