dear_mun | she woke up.

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she woke up.

You didn't think I was gone forever, did you? Yeah, as if I'm going to miss out on all the fun! Besides, how many times has this happened with you and me? I always find my way back.

So, what's the plan? Maybe take me back to Exsilium? I know a lot of people went home, but Raven's still there, right? If she is, maybe we can finally work on fixing things. I mean, I know she said she forgave me and all, but... I'm still not cool with the canon point you want to keep me at, but hey, you're being pretty awesome right now so--

...okay, majorly taking that back. You're not being awesome at all. You being amused at that other Terra you saw while browsing our tag? Yeah, totally not cool. It's bad enough remembering that I was stupid enough to be like that, okay?

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Mun cherry picking your canon point. That sounds familiar.

Mine loves to pick me up right between when I start to reconsider my life, and before I start dating Kid Flash so that I am full of internal conflict and junk. Nice huh?

Don't know, I think I'd take that over triggering a volcano and deciding to stop it. All the internal conflict, and wondering if you even succeed in saving the friends you stabbed in the back.

Sounds about right for muns.

So what's that place you mentioned like? I'm at a kind of small game that moves pretty slow but that's been suiting me fine.

Short version is that a bunch of people from a ton of universes are brought in by this 'Initiative,' and we have to fight for their cause. I'm really not cool with being kidnapped and forced to fight [especially since, you know, that whole thing with Slade and the suit] but the last time I was there, I found out that I ended up being forgiven in the long run. I mean, I don't deserve it, but...

[It was really nice. It made her happy.]

But if I went back, my mun's probably going to expect me to continue my game of "hide and seek" with Red X or something.

That sounds...painfully familiar. I wonder how many more times I'm going to get drafted into a war I didn't start before this is all over.

[Pats her on the head]

No offense pebbles but you're hardly the best judge of what you do and don't deserve. And that's coming from a professional thief.

[Smirk]

Ooo hide and seek~?

Knowing muns, probably more than you can count.

Pebbles? [Makes a face. But she does appreciate your words, Jinx.]

Yeah, hide and seek. He thought he could find me, I decided to make it difficult for him. If I go back, I might just be nice and let him win. [Actually, she has her suspicions that he already knew who she was anyway. But hey, the game was fun.]

Pebbles. Because of the obvious reasons.

[Because not only her powers, but Jinx just couldn't help teasing Terra about her chest]

I guess whatever it takes to pass the time. Or was this one of those hiding in plain sight things?

My mun says you're still welcome at Thoughtformed. He thinks we'll confuse each other by not being the same versions of ourselves that he's used to. Personally, I think he's underestimating us.

I was about to say that was a different look for you, Rob'. Guess being from a different universe explains it!

I think he's underestimating us, too. [Or at least you.]

Not as different a look as this one!

Definitely underestimating both of us.

Heh....you sound alot nicer than the you from the game I'm in.

Then... maybe that me's the one I'm talking about here.

[Doesn't she just sound happy about that? Her canon point allows for her to be an excellent atoner.]

[Eric puts a friendly hand on Terra's shoulder.]

Well hey, you're clearly not the same as her, at least not anymore, so don't worry about it, OK? I was made into a bad guy myself recently, but I'm learning I have to move past that and forgive myself.

Oh great. It's the super-hopeful-and-cheerful me.

Guess again.

[Way to sour her mood in less than two seconds, other her.]

Just because I know way more than you do [about Slade's real nature, about how she'll regret everything, about how she never should have doubted Beast Boy, how she's so sorry--] doesn't mean I'm hopeful at all. It just means I've already made your mistakes.

Mistakes? This is the best choice I ever made!

[Yeah you keep telling yourself that.]

For now. Until they come back, until everything falls apart--like everything seems to with us.

[Meeting her other directly in the eye.]

Do you really think he cares a single bit about you? [She may have already lived through this, but she remembers to how to hit where it hurts. And with someone who is her, where else to target but the constant loneliness they've felt? The heavy want to be loved and cared about?]

Of course he cares about me! He wouldn't have done all this for me otherwise.

[...Right?]

You sound like that Wally kid. You're just trying to get under my skin, and it's not going to work.

You should know I don't have to get under your skin! I'm you, and I've already found out what Slade is really like.

It's our powers he cares about. It's the only thing he's ever cared about. But, y'know what? You'll have to experience what I mean for yourself--when he takes the control he gave us away. [Ugh, talking to her is pissing her off. ...and making her hate herself again. Well then.]

Let me just say that he said our suit was more than a fashion statement? Yeah, he wasn't kidding. It's more, way more than we originally thought.

...what are you talking about? What's wrong with the suit?

It'll allow Slade to control us. Completely control us. That's what's wrong with it.

[Does she need to go further? Because she will. This is a very weird way of sorting with all the issues she has with herself, even it's just making her angry.]

It's kinda funny, because if it weren't for the very friends we betrayed, we'd be stuck like that. Or dead. [Not that they won't turn into a statue shortly after anyway, but you know.]

[Well, shit. She can't really dismiss the testimony of her future self. Not in the same way she can dismiss Wally.]

But...that can't be true. The Titans wouldn't--

They wouldn't come back for me.

But Beastboy showed up. They all did. And... and I would have kept believing I couldn't do anything to stop Slade if it weren't for Beastboy. I would have killed him for real.

[...]

And the others would have destroyed me. [Like she wanted Beastboy to, when he first found her after following her.]

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Why? Why would they still care, after everything I did to them?

...I don't know why, either.

But they do.

[She contemplates this, and then laughs hollowly.]

Too bad I won't remember any of this in my game, right?

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i need to renew this paid >.>;; not enough good icons for this thread

lmao I know that feel

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