Winter Soldier.. I accidentally Leo

[novokov_cocktail]

She's mine.

In time, it will be the same as it was with him. She will love me, just the same.

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Excuse me while I quietly squeal over here in the corner.

[bucky_barnes]

If you think you can ever own Natalia you don't know jack shit about her, Novokov.

Yessssssss~

[novokov_cocktail]

[He looks mildly amused.]

Maybe. Or maybe, this is exactly what she wants. We could ask her...

[Because that isn't going to go so well for you~]

I shoulda have tagged with my 616 Bucky but he doesn't have as many pissed off face icons. XDD

[bucky_barnes]

Or maybe I'll blow you brains out right here and now and ask her myself. [Bucky definitely didn't look amused. But that's what happens when you're stuck playing two moves behind a madman.]

I'll say this, I will enjoy watching Nat tear you to pieces when she regains her senses.

I'm still working on his. Eventually, they will all be there.

[novokov_cocktail]

I don't think it works that way.

[A smile, a flash of teeth really. ]

Tell me, what happens if she doesn't? You seem so sure she will. But my machinery was..functional, but no where near the quality as back home. There is a possibility that she won't be coming back.

You need smarmy smirking, obnoxious icons.

[bucky_barnes]

Because I'd say all three of us are prime examples of just how shoddy the Red Room's workmanship truly is.

[His eyes narrowed dangerously but that was the only indication he gave.] Because unlike you, I know better than to underestimate Natalia. You don't know her, Leonid and I promise you, that will bite you in the ass one day soon. I just hope I'm there to see it.

[a_survivor]

Actually... you don't have it in you.

I'll enjoy watching her strangle you with your own innards. When the time comes.

I really do.

[novokov_cocktail]

The workmanship wasn't the issue. Nor the training. Nor the work we did. The issue was... they left us. They left us, and left no record or plan to care for us. The issue was that you were free, while three of your comrades are left to rot underground. The issue, priyatelʹ, is being traded and sold like furniture. Not men...No, not any more.

Though, I don't think you know much about that, they were careful with you, their little pet. Do you know what it's like? To be ripped from slumber? It's a pain you can't begin to imagine.

I have never underestimated her, far from it actually. I know that she is free. Free of your captivity and free to be who she has always been meant to be. You should know better than to try and cage something as beautiful as her... restricted and suffocating her. She needs to be able to fly. I thought you knew that.

[novokov_cocktail]

I assure you I do.

[Laughs.]

At this point, you should be concerned about yourself. When the time comes, what will you do? If it's your life or hers, knowing she will be mine as the outcome? Would you kill her to save yourself, or would you sacrifice yourself so she might live. Even if you don't agree with her...choices?

[a_survivor]

If you need to ask this question, Leo... you are proving my point.

Should you put me up against that choice, you've already lost. She has shown she can tell right from wrong again and again over decades. You couldn't possibly comprehend what that does to somebody. And how little your attempts to change her can succeed.

*and if Natalia regains control of herself... the price of his life is nothing, for Bucky. He knows it would damage her further, in the long run, so he'd try to avoid getting killed, but if that is the choice? He doesn't even have to consider it.*

[novokov_cocktail]

AND I AM NOT DESERVING OF THAT? I DON'T DESERVE TO HAVE WHAT YOU HAVE? A LIFE? LOVE? THOSE THINGS ARE TOO GOOD FOR ME?

What makes you so much better? You were the first, a broken toy that your friend didn't even bother to go look for.

It is a question, you think I don't know the answer? I think in all of this, I am the one being underestimated. You should know better.

[a_survivor]

You will deserve a life, and love, when you understand their value. Because you don't. After what you did, you will deserve her love... never.

My friend was frozen more inescapably than I was. He did what he could when it became possible for him to do so. But can you even understand what that means? Have you ever had a fried you've tried to look for? To help?

You do not know the answer.

[novokov_cocktail]

We will just have to see about that.

How would I? Tell me that? Locked up and frozen. You...given the freedom you were, their favorite. We were used and put away, only as important as our usefulness. You don't talk to me about helping. About...understanding. Did you even think to look for us, until the tubes started moving?

[You weren't his friend, but all things considered, you were probably as close as he can remember to what one should be.]

[bucky_barnes]

I didn't remember! [God, why was he justifying himself to this bastard? Self-recrimination flashed across the brunette's face.] You don't get to lecture to me about pain. [Not when he lived with pain every day, day in and day out. The pain of his missing arm, the pain of living and of surviving all of the terrible things done to him.]

This is all self-serving bullshit, Leonid. Bad men did terrible things to you then abandoned you so now you will take your abandonment issues out on the whole world?

You say freedom yet you had to brainwash her first to get her to see your point of view. That doesn't sound like freedom to me, asshole.

[novokov_cocktail]

You believe yours worse than anyone's. How tiny of you. [Pain is part of all of their lives. His, Natalia's, yours. They were build into these things, and left to suffer. He can't forgive anyone for that.]

No, not the entire world. Just you. A few 'innocent' lives get caught in the fight? So be it. The more you'll suffer in the end, regardless of the outcome, your conscience will do the most damage.

[Because didn't you know? This is your fault. Yours for being... better than him. Yours for not being... completely fucked in the head. Yours for having a life that isn't... shattered and with out purpose.]

I gave her back what she lost. I gave her back her freedom.

[Yes, he really believes that.]

[a_survivor]

You won't know you have them, otherwise. I know I barely had an inkling, when I was working for the Red Room. *and Natalia was most of that inkling. Which is why he didn't turn her away the way Novokov is.*

How about before that? Anyone?

You three were programmed to be forgotten by me. I started trying to get to you as soon as I remembered. Which was brought about by somebody digging through my brain to get those coordinates and that got the things stirred up. But I would have, if I'd known sooner.

[widows]

Hold your breath.

[novokov_cocktail]

I believe, that is for me to find out, and not for you to tell me.

Would it matter? [He doesn't think it would. And he wouldn't remember anyway.]

I don't believe you. You would have buried us, to keep from having to face who you truly are.

[novokov_cocktail]

Not what you're saying now. In time, it will be the same.

[widows]

As love? If you believe that, you don't know anything about it.

[novokov_cocktail]

Nothing I can't be shown. Nothing that you can't teach me.

[Ugh.. he's so skeevy.]

[bucky_barnes]

I'm not the one whining about how he got a crappy lot in life he got. Yeah, you got screwed over and got handed a shitty deal. That's what the Red Room did to everyone, they used and discarded them like they were trash. But all you're doing is perpetuating their bullshit. You could have had a life, Novokov. You were completely under the radar but instead of trying to make something of yourself, of trying to find something that makes you happy you're still dancing to their tune like a dancing monkey.

[Bucky's jaw bunched as he ground his teeth together.] You want to take me out, come at me like a man and take me out. This shit, trying to take Nat from me is showing you're just as bad as the people who fucked you over.

[The scoffing sound that escaped the other man was full of disbelief.] You really believe that line of bullshit? You really are insane. That's not freedom, you idiot.

[widows]

[ srsly. she'd rather play tonsil hockey with loki. ]

I don't waste time on lost causes.

[novokov_cocktail]

Net, I am no one's monkey, Dzheyms. How can you be so sure that this life, you think is so much better, isn't part of their plan? Long term contingency.

[That reaction brings a smile to Leo's lips.]

I don't want to take you out. I want to watch you break. There is a difference.

[His brows twitch, but his expression doesn't shift.]

Ask her, I'm sure she'll tell you otherwise.

[novokov_cocktail]

[Less chance of... Actually, that probably is a safer bet. :|

You wound him, he raises a hand to brush the backs of his fingers over your cheek.]

I'm not so far gone you wouldn't try.

I HOPE THIS IS OKAY I SORT OF WENT WITH A COMBINATION

[deadlieststing]

You mention her a lot.

[ 'her' still doesn't have a name that she knows, but he mentions her often enough - often in correlation with him - that she knows who he is to him. ]