dear_mun | (no subject)

[she's really happy to see mark out and about, but for now she's just going to give him a little smile]

About what?

[. . . Oh man, this is awkward on a few levels, since he was talking about the fact that his mun has on a few occasions gotten his hopes up about sending him to a sex island. Seems sort of... shallow right at this moment.]

Ah...actually, about finding you. Mun, said she was going to look.

[Okay, so that works... better than the original option.]

Really?

[she's just amused now. though she would be more amused to hear about the sex island.]

So are you glad you found me?

[The sex island is pretty interesting....]

Actually, I think you found me, but either way... I think it depends.. on whether you're glad you found me.

Why wouldn't I be? I mean sure, there's always the confusion and the 'do I want to talk to him? do I not?' and everything, but...over all, yes. Yes happy to see you. Though...I think my mun might be more excited than me.

I mean, no matter what else, we're friends, right?

[because here in her mun's world, the finale NEVER HAPPENED. achem.]

[Hell, in his mun's world, they've just barely gotten passed Callie and the car accident, so.. She would really work on that...]

Of course, we are. Mun's are usually more excited than they should be.. I'm glad, I'm happy to see you too, and mun here? She's probably just as excited as yours.

I'm glad you're happy to see me. What have you been getting into around here? It's weird. It's weird, right? To be some puppet they're pulling strings on?

It is weird. She thinks she knows everything there is to know about me. And she doesn't. [He's pretty sure of that.] I haven't been doing anything, she keeps saying she's going to do something and then doesn't.

They all think they know all of us and...they just don't. We don't even know all of us! How can they? They're controlling, that's what they are. I haven't been doing much of anything either. It sucks.

I never have done well with controlling. [He considers that for a moment, before he continues.] This does suck... Does yours have any ideas? I think mine is partially brain dead.

Maybe you should work on that?

No, not really. Well...there is one about sending me to a game, but she's not sure where she'd send me and she doesn't have time for a game. Other than that she just wants me to be alive. Which I'm totally okay with.

Maybe.

Damn, I was kind of hoping she might. Mine's thought about a game, but...she refuses to write my app.

Why does yours refuse? I mean, mine just hates to write apps at all.

Her only idea is to throw me around in memes and hope we get a bite. I used to have verses, but now I don't so...I'm just here. Being useless.

General principle and lack of initiative. [He thinks I'm lazy, and he's right.]

That... isn't a terrible idea. [At least it is an idea. He's looking at me now isn't he?]

You have never been useless.

Tell your mun to shape up! Don't put up with it.

I'm kind of useless sometimes. The only time people usually need me is for my Lexiepedia brain.

I have told her, she just...I'm trapped in here.. and she doesn't seem to care.

That's not true, you are so much more than just your brain.

At least she lets you out for me. I think that's something.

[a laugh] What? My nakedness too?

I'm glad she does that too.

[Well, nakedness is one reason. Ahem... but he's going to try to be a bigger man for once.]

Lexie... You know better than that. You're a talented surgeon and an amazing doctor.

You really think so?

[because...she is still so very unsure of herself]

Of course, I do. I even told Jackson's mother all about how amazing you are.

You did? Why would you do that?

My mun started watching season 8 on netflix, and she's getting near the end of the season. Neither of us are taking it well.

Because, she was giving him a hard time, since he sent you to visit your sister instead of meeting her.

mun has been avoiding it, but started watching it the other day. Not sure how we feel about that.

Oh....right. Well...that didn't work out for me anyway, did it?

It's bad. Very bad. Frustration everywhere.

Well, I didn't know that at the time. I was trying?

I appreciate the trying. I'm glad you stuck up for me.

You're welcome. You deserve someone willing to speak up for you. You deserve someone who...believes in you.

That's great for all the good it does me right now.

[because hey, she professed her love for mark in that terribly big awkward speech and...he's with someone else. excluding of course what happened after that. it still didn't happen.]

But I'm speaking up for me more. I'm....trying to believe in me.