Homeless; Canon: Tenshi ni Narumon

[kaeru_jyanai]

Is there a reason you keep doing this? We both know very well you won't put the effort into actually putting me in a game again, or even actively playing me. I have long ago come to terms with it, and just because you noticed an ad and a place where Raphael is doesn't mean you should be pulling me out of the dust.

After all... there's a lot of work to do. A review is required and you keep saying you want to make new icons....

I'm not being a pessimists! I'm simply being realistic. See how you feel in a month, and then we can talk.

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[wingectomy]

Aw, and I was hoping to show you off to my friends, Mikael.

[kaeru_jyanai]

Which is all the more reason not to bring up false hope. I'm only trying to be reasonable. Hasty decisions only cause problems in the end.

[And in the end that was exactly what he learned!]

I... I'm not going to let the same mistakes happen twice.

[wingectomy]

Mistake? [ There's no mistake HE knows about ... yet. ]

[kaeru_jyanai]

That....

[How should he even put it, looking back it was a huge embarrassment and failing.]

How I let myself act. It was unacceptable. I will not lose my patience again. It.... So much could have gone wrong, and almost did.

[wingectomy]

Hmmm, it sounds like you're learning a lot more than you think, after all.

[kaeru_jyanai]

Am I? It doesn't really feel like I am.

[wingectomy]

You're starting to look before you leap, now, aren't you? And not because someone's telling you to... you're judging for yourself. That sounds like learning to me.

[kaeru_jyanai]

After all that, isn't that the only sensible thing?

[wingectomy]

Is it sensible? That's for you to decide.

[kaeru_jyanai]

I....

Of course it is. The sensible approach is to be hesitant and weigh all possibilities. To see the pros and cons of an action and make sure you're properly prepared.

[wingectomy]

So do you find any merit with going with your gut? Your heart?

[kaeru_jyanai]

I-I.... It's not that.... There's more room for error doing that....

[wingectomy]

You know, there's lessons in mistakes, too.

[kaeru_jyanai]

Of course I know that!

But.... I still want to have as few as possible.

[wingectomy]

Don't worry so much about them... you'll have more fun if you relax a little.

[kaeru_jyanai]

Relax... relax....

[That was like asking a tomato to be an orange.]

I can try....

[wingectomy]

Trying is all I ask.