dear_mun | On the body count in an email game suddenly tripling over night.

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On the body count in an email game suddenly tripling over night.

Ah miss,

Yes, it is completely logical and expected that despite the odd circumstances in which all of us brought into that place that not everyone would think a ceasefire would be needed. Completely understandable if disheartening that the fact most of us are from universes still at war that it would bleed into this setting, yet was such a gruesome sight truly necessary? The poor medical staff are likely still identifying everyone and I feel a great deal of worry for the neutrals that may have been caught in that massacre.

I also must ask about what you are planning for myself in regards to being new and thus not fully prepared to know who is actually following the ceasefire and who is not, when it comes to dealing with those who were my allies back home. Cliffjumper did not go into specifics, but he did give a great deal of general knowledge when it comes to what I should expect in regards to these reverse polarity universes.

Oh! I am grateful you do recall such and are thus going to act accordingly in regards to my actions with the rest of the Decepticons within that place...what do you mean by plan b? Miss?

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Guess you really aren't perfect after all.

I'm terribly sorry for whatever I did to cause such a misconception before. It was far from my intention to do such or even be perceived in such a manner.

Yeah, yeah, I know.

[grudgingly adds] Sorry to hear you're having a tough time.

I'm grateful for that, it would be best to remain agreeable then to remain hostile. We could learn quite a bit from one another.

[Yeah, he's likely to ignore that grudgingly part.] I thank you for your concern. It's appreciated greatly and it is certainly a nice change to be able to speak in a civil manner with another Starscream, even if in such a setting as this.

Most Starscreams are too immature to do civil, ever. I like to flatter myself that I'm learning.

Work in progress.

[pause]

I have to believe in self improvement. I can understand if it's not a priority for you.

That's wonderful to hear and I hope your endeavors in this regard go as smoothly and swiftly as you hope.

[Well that certainly bring a bit of confusion to his smile.]

I think it should always be a priority with everyone. I hardly have any excuse not to always try and do better. I have a lot of qualities that are far from ideal and would need improvement to make me worthy and truly as qualified as my position entails. To believe otherwise is completely unfair to those who I am trying to help.

Yeah, yeah.

[deep vented sigh. He wishes it was easier to dismiss this guy out of hand but he's just too decent.]

Who got hurt?

[That is certainly a way to wipe the pleasant smile off.]

...Far too many were lost in that ambush. I did not know many of them personally or had the fortune to learn their designations before their deactivation. I was unable to even help in saving one of those lives lost to keep our current base from being destroyed.

They didn't offline in vain. That's what counts.

[and his own smile is dark and thin.]

Optimus is a hard 'bot to demolish, isn't he.

It is still painful and shows just how much these wars are costing us each day when the embers of comrades are snuffed out. I wish I had known them better so that I could mourn them better and be more helpful to those who did know them.

[Excuse him as that name invokes a bit of fear and wariness. He hasn't been around good Primes long enough yet to not equate death and destruction with that name.]

It is a great blessing in my current place. Even though I am not used to such, it is uplifting to know that such leaders are there to help and keep our spirits going during such dark times. Lord Megatron would find like minded individuals among them I'm certain.

[quietly] Yeah, you lose people, you keep going. I don't think remembering them would make a fat lot of difference, to me.

[He smiles a little at that fear. Fear is healthy.]

Our Optimus is self-righteous and deluded. And those are his good qualities.

But in remembering them you make certain they and what they have done are not forgotten and you thus can honor them with your own acts and deeds.

[It may be healthy but the subject of that fear is far from it.]

I do not mean to be spiteful or to sound rude in my observation, but I would greatly prefer an Optimus Prime with such qualities then the ones displayed by the Optimus Prime that I am familiar with.

[a long pause.] ...okay. Fair point.

[and that part makes him chuckle, a little bitter--but mostly just rueful.]

It doesn't take some caricature madman to start a war that wipes out hundreds of millions of sentient beings - mechs and organics alike. It just takes one idiot in defense of corruption.

That is a sad truth, especially so when such a being is then corrupted and twisted even more so with each act of aggression that they commit. Though defense of something is far better reasoning for a war then starting one because one should be started by looking at the patterns in history.

In defense of cruelty, and inequity, and suffering, and in defense of the primal terror that someone else is going to be in charge of their own destiny?

I don't care how pure and full of light your ember is, my Optimus is beyond reasoning.

I beg your pardon if it seems as if I was downplaying your own plights, I did not know it was as such. I only have what I know from Cliffjumper in regards to how others are like in terms of personality and disposition and he never mentioned such. He painted a far kinder picture of Optimus, especially compared to the one I am familiar with; that I have done you a grievous disservice it seems.

[a long and completely confused silence, before he manages, hella flustered] I, uh. That was really... defensive of me. Wasn't it.

Look, I'm sorry.

No it really is my fault in this matter. I was not thinking at all in regards to variances in universes and thus spoke in such an uncouth and callous manner. I am deeply sorry for such an oversight.

If it would help to not allow such to happen again, and if it is not something that you do not wish to speak of I would gladly listen to your explanation of how things are in your universe, so as not to cause such a misunderstanding again.

[If robots could give puppy eyes he would be giving them now, because he really is earnest and fretting over what he said. He didn't mean to upset you other Starscream.]

[taken aback] I... don't...

It's okay. Really. You're just so far away from what I'm used to, it's hard for me to--you know.

I don't really understand you at all, is what I'm trying to say.

[supportive shoulder pat. And some strange lingering traces of what could possibly be construed as guilt by optimistic parties] Don't worry.

Oh, yes that is logical as well. I do apologize over all this confusion and not thinking. If there is anyway I can help clear up any lingering confusion I would be happy to help in regards to all of this.

I think you need to change model types. You look too much like I used to.

Like a combo between Jetfire and myself ---

... oh Primus make the thoughts go away.

I'm sorry, I was not aware my frame type would cause distress or anger.

...The reasoning of what you just said has eluded me. What does this Jetfire and yourself have to do with my frametype?

That was almost my exact frame back in Cybertron!

And then you are all white and red and talk weird like Jetfire.

Why is this happening?!

Ah, the frame types being similar may just have been answered with that statement. I have not exactly had the fortunate time or resources to gain a proper alternative mode upon earth. So I am still using a purely Cybertronian frametype without any added or modified structures to help aid in disguising myself amidst the jets of earth.

However the accusations of my similarities to this Jetfire are unknown to me. I'm sorry, but I do not know how to explain such or why it is so.

You're still talking just like him.

Do you blab about science all day and make up all sorts of techno-babble too?

I have not had the time to pursue any experiments or theorizing outside of a few weapon creation and modifications for the war effort, but yes when I am not performing my duties I do prefer following scientific avenues of research that are of a more peaceful nature then weapons. I am unaware if I make up this techno-babble. Though there have been times when I seem to lose those I am trying to explain a fascinating discovery with.

This is like staring into a twisted reflection.

Or a nightmare.

Or both.

I'm going to go with really horrible hallucination.

Are you all right? Is there anything I could do to help? I truly was unaware of any sort of distress I may cause and it was not my intention at all.

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