dear_mun | (no subject)

... You're too forgiving. Especially to people who don't deserve it.

And I'm not mad at myself.

There's nothing wrong with being forgiving, and anyways, there's nothing to forgive in this case! You didn't do anything wrong.

Then - don't blame yourself, because I don't blame you. Is that better?

Of course I--

... I don't think I can do that.

If you blame yourself... Then I should blame myself too. I mean, you left that place, but I left home. So both of us went against the promise.

That's not the same, idiot. I made the promise to you, you never needed to do the same thing for me.

But the point is that you shouldn't blame yourself for something neither of us had any control over! A-Anyways, it's better if you're back home. I know when you were there before, you really hated it.

[ not going to stop beating himself up over that, but fine let's drop it 8| ]

If I hated it that much, I must've had a good reason for it. Besides all the monsters.

Well, Mytho wasn't there for most of the time you were. I know not having him with you was probably really hard, and I guess - not being able to leave. Not having a choice.

It would be, yeah. But as for leaving, couldn't I have written a story to get you out? Get the both of us out?

No... Whatever brought us there stops powers from doing anything that could bring us back.

Whatever brought you there... it couldn't be Drosselmeyer, right?

N-No, he's not there at all. I made sure. It's this thing they call the Core, but nobody really knows exactly what it is.

Maybe they haven't been doing enough research.

They haven't. Nobody's allowed to go near it.

That shouldn't stop people from trying. I would.

But it's radio - um, radio - I forget what the word for it is, but it makes you really sick if you go near it!

Then you get sick trying. What's the problem?

It can get bad enough to kill people or put them in the hospital! Besides, there are guards there and stuff. And - just trust me on this one.

You know more about the place than I do. I trust you.

But I still don't like the thought of you being stuck there.

I don't really love it there, but I don't hate it most of the time, either. I know I'll be okay for as long as it takes to figure out how to go home.

I hope you don't get sent anywhere, though.

You can hope, but it seems like I'll probably be going to a game sooner or later. It might as well be one where I can try to protect you.

B-But like I said, it's not dangerous for me there! So - you should try to get them to send you somewhere without any monsters or stuff like that.

I can handle monsters, moron. I've fought demon ravens before, they can't be much worse than those.

That doesn't mean you should have to! It doesn't mean I want you to have to, either.

... If my pen wouldn't work, I'd have to rely on the sword. There's no way around it.