re: mun putting him in sabraather despite his wishes

[hisguardianangel]

Miss Mun,

to answer your question: no.  I don't think so. And stop it. You don't understand anything. You never have. But I know you, and I know what you're thinking. Maybe you'd deserve my scorn just from that, if I were to...

And you don't understand. And what's this about memories? Why would you take them? I want----

I need to remember. Because it's crucial that I do.

Now, leave me alone, Mun, if you're not going to do anything good. Are you punishing me for something? I don't have to listen to you, Mun.

Katan

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[confined_to_briah]

We are used against our wishes. Freedom cannot be found in these "games".

[hisguardianangel]

Alexiel. Are you used against your wishes by a mun, as well?

[confined_to_briah]

I am, but I'm in favorable company.

[hisguardianangel]

I can imagine your favorable company, Lady Alexiel, so I think I should be glad I'm not in that place.

[confined_to_briah]

( She watches him for a moment before answering. )

You did his bidding out of love.

[hisguardianangel]

I think everybody knows that, so let's not speak of this.

I've wanted to ask you many times, but my Lord was always scared for me if I tried to approach you, so...

Why do you hate Lord Rosiel so, if you indeed hate him? And if it's not hate, then why... is it so painful?

[confined_to_briah]

It is...complicated. ( She won't leave it at that, though it seems like she will for a moment. ) We are twins and yet we were never meant to meet.

We were never meant to care for one another.

He ( meaning god ) dictated our lives and filled our hearts with falsehoods. Rosiel clings to those falsehoods. I do not.

[hisguardianangel]

Then what is the truth? When I was young, I've prayed many nights, to God, that you two would be allowed to meet... without such suffering. But God never listens to my prayers.

So I ask you, Lady Alexiel, what is the truth of your heart? Because I know the truth of Lord Rosiel's.

[confined_to_briah]

Through you, Rosiel would hear the truth. That would put him in peril beyond your comprehension. ( She has come too far to allow that to happen. ) I will tell him the truth when we meet again, face to face.

[hisguardianangel]

[no, really. in peril?. what do you even---]

Lord Rosiel already is in peril!

[confined_to_briah]

He would be in far more if I told you the truth.

[hisguardianangel]

How can you even say that?! Have you seen him lately, or don't you care... about your own...?! You didn't even try to save him!

[confined_to_briah]

There is only one way to save him. ( Her expression falters ever so slightly. ) He must hear the truth first and then he will be saved.

[hisguardianangel]

[turns away for a moment. and then looks at her again] So why didn't you tell him whatever truth there is, back then? You had an opportunity.

[confined_to_briah]

He would have been exterminated if I had.

[hisguardianangel]

[!] By God?

So are you saying that trying to do anything is futile?

[confined_to_briah]

No, Katan. I can save him and I will.

[hisguardianangel]

You will? Truly?

[confined_to_briah]

I have wanted to do so since I learned of our fate.

[hisguardianangel]

Then why... you couldn't do anything, back then?

Because of God? Alexiel... what is God? His presence felt... I couldn't stand it.

[confined_to_briah]

He is the one who causes us pain. Because of him, we cannot love or do what we wish freely.

( Her voice rises in volume, gaining strength. )

I will take his life and avenge those who have suffered under his rule.

[hisguardianangel]

If that is indeed true, how can I help you?

[confined_to_briah]

Stand aside. Rosiel is my first priority. Once god falls, he will be free.

[hisguardianangel]

Even so, since Rosiel's determined to come to God's side... I need to reach Lord Rosiel before God breaks him.

[confined_to_briah]

He is already broken, Katan.