when awful utterance of eldriitch abomiinatiion kiilliing one constiitutes iimprovement iin siituatiion iis hard to iimagiine worse but dyiing twiice iin subjectiive iinstant -miight- qualiify
2houldn't ii be a2kiing you the 2ame thiing? you're copyiing my quiirk but you haven't even got iit riight. fuckiing faiil.
2o uh. thii2 ii2 a long 2hot but do you know the empre22? ii mean of cour2e you know the empre22 you have two be a 2peciial kiind of retarded not two know who 2he ii2. but do you know her per2onally. becau2e 2he wa2 around a liittle whiile ago and wouldn't 2hut up about my text color and how iit matched her freaky cyborg 2hiip troll or 2omethiing.
that wa2 faiirly decent for a fiir2t try ii almo2t beliieved iit for a moment.
and maybe becau2e ii am not en2laved? iit ii2 al2o kiind of hard two be en2laved when there ii2 nobody left two en2lave you. well a2iide from the empre22 but 2he'2 gone now.
alterniia was left to iits own deviices of course forget these thiings sometiimes
gone?? how??
[The reaction this prompts, the closest thing to an emotion he has felt in sweeps, though still distant, as if observed instead of felt, is puzzling: exactly half jubilant relief, and half sadness.]
well ii thought 2he diied when everyone el2e diid. but 2he turned up on the 2hiip ii wa2 on and cau2ed a bunch of 2hiit. but 2he ii2 gone now. apparently 2he went off wiith that douche2car guy or whatever.
liike ii 2aiid ii ju2t know what ii have been told. the 2iignle22 guy yeah and hii2 mate2priit, dii2ciiple ii think? ii mean iit ha2 two be the 2ame guy riight? iif you know who they are, that ii2. becau2e ii doubt there are any other troll2 iin paradox 2pace that have the unbeliieveable amount of bad luck that the two of u2 do.
what make2 my liife 2hiitty? maybe iit'2 the fact that ii have a horriible mutant thiinkpan. or that ii am no good at anythiing. or that ii helped de2troy our entiire race. cau2ed the death2 of friiend2. and ruiin the liive2 of everyone around me?
yeah you can 2ay that agaiin. ii am pretty much pa22iing tiime whiile ii waiit for 2omethiing terriible two happen agaiin.
thii2 ii2 depre22iing, fuck. let'2 ju2t 2kiip the remaiinder of thii2 conver2atiion, agree that ii am a terriible per2on who had a hand iin 2ome of the death2 of my friiend2 and that you miight have been better two fly iintwo a 2tar. then we can move ontwo 2omethiing el2e becau2e ii pretty much know how tho2e conver2atiion2 go 2eeiing a2 ii tend two have them wiith my2elf on a daiily ba2ii2.
2iignle22 and dii 2aiid that you were a really good friiend of your2. and they wii2hed they knew what happened two you. they began two put piiece2 twogether after the empre22 2howed up and attempted two capture me iin order two "replace her helm2man" but nobody knew for 2ure.
and uh.. they 2eemd two reckon that you were my ance2tor. whiich ii2 really weiird two talk about ii 2tiill thiink that whole ance2tor thiing ii2 2omethiing hiighblood2 make up two feel better about them2elve2.
don't apologiize. becau2e that would mean ii have two apologiize for beiing a crap de2cendant.
ii would tell them for you, but once ii go back there ii wont remember any of thii2 conver2atiion, unfortunately. that guy ii2 2o weiird, though. he ii2 nothiing liike kk at all he ha2n't even yelled once.
apology retracted then though does not necessiitate correspondiing one from you would not miind meetiing you iin some corner of paradox space where iit would count
well iit ii2 not iimpo22iible. ii mean iit could happen 2ometiime con2iideriing other adult troll2 keep croppiing up iin place2. there ii2 nothiing fun about beiing on that giiant 2hiip though iit ii2 a paiin. but iit mean2 that dead friiend2 can come back and not be dead whiich ha2 two count for 2omethiing.
and lol. kk ii2 hii2 de2cendant but he doe2 nothiing but yell and fliip hii2 2hiit at everythiing.
suspect sufferer has much repressed shiit fliippiing perhaps descendent iis makiing up for lost tiime
would liike to see friiends agaiin human typiist iis consiideriing sendiing to place wiith sufferer dolorosa and dii but would fliip own shiit iif dropped iinto new uniiverse suddenly
iit would be better two fiind 2omewhere where your friiend2 are pre2ent, though. from experiience ii can tell you that iit doe2 make thiing2 at lea2t 2liightly better. by a liittle.
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Especially when death remains imminent, and you aware of it.
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questiion mundane humans judgment
suspect she wants to revel iin brokenness before fiixiing
iinsultiingly
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[He is certainly not mentioning very specific terrible things done unto his person, no he is not.]
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iis hard to iimagiine worse
but dyiing twiice iin subjectiive iinstant -miight- qualiify
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wow.
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because obviiously volunteered to have thiinkpan fucked wiith
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what'2 wiith the cpu 2tuff anyway?
aww, that icon!
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-was- shiip
wetjacked iin
iis even less pleasant than iit sounds
whats wiith the quiirk??
it is cute X)
you're copyiing my quiirk but you haven't even got iit riight. fuckiing faiil.
2o uh.
thii2 ii2 a long 2hot but do you know the empre22?
ii mean of cour2e you know the empre22 you have two be a 2peciial kiind of retarded not two know who 2he ii2.
but do you know her per2onally.
becau2e 2he wa2 around a liittle whiile ago and wouldn't 2hut up about my text color and how iit matched her freaky cyborg 2hiip troll or 2omethiing.
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more or less
would say pleased to meet you
but am not especiially
am not anythiing
especiially
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well thii2 2ure got awkward.
not that the conver2atiion wa2n't already camped riight iin the miiddle of awkwardviille iin the fiir2t place.
[SIGNLESS WAS TELLING HIM BEDTIME STORIES ABOUT YOU SOB]
what are you doiing now that you aren't a cyborg 2hiip troll then?
a2iide from be liife of the party whiich ii2 pretty obviiou2 two everyone.
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that was humor
human typiist iis consiideriing further unpleasantness
untiil then am iin liimbo
you share caste
presumably
but do not speak liike one enslaved
why??
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and maybe becau2e ii am not en2laved?
iit ii2 al2o kiind of hard two be en2laved when there ii2 nobody left two en2lave you.
well a2iide from the empre22 but 2he'2 gone now.
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of course
forget these thiings sometiimes
gone?? how??
[The reaction this prompts, the closest thing to an emotion he has felt in sweeps, though still distant, as if observed instead of felt, is puzzling: exactly half jubilant relief, and half sadness.]
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but 2he turned up on the 2hiip ii wa2 on and cau2ed a bunch of 2hiit.
but 2he ii2 gone now.
apparently 2he went off wiith that douche2car guy or whatever.
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am aware of hiim
vast glub would not have kiilled the condesce
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he'2 a total douchebag two ii don't know what iit ii2 about purpleblood2 but they are all liike that.
and yeah we diidn't know that untiil 2he turned up at thii2 place ii am at riight now, that iit diidn't kiill her.
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what iis your locatiion now??
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2ome of my friiend2 are there and 2o are your2.
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friiends such as
sufferer?
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the 2iignle22 guy yeah and hii2 mate2priit, dii2ciiple ii think?
ii mean iit ha2 two be the 2ame guy riight?
iif you know who they are, that ii2.
becau2e ii doubt there are any other troll2 iin paradox 2pace that have the unbeliieveable amount of bad luck that the two of u2 do.
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knew her too
some people called hiim siignless
yes
what makes your liife shiitty??
assume you know gory detaiils of hiistory
so wiill not wallow iin them
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maybe iit'2 the fact that ii have a horriible mutant thiinkpan.
or that ii am no good at anythiing.
or that ii helped de2troy our entiire race.
cau2ed the death2 of friiend2.
and ruiin the liive2 of everyone around me?
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do not thiink you can be held responsiible
possiibly thiis iis conveniient stance to take
consiideriing that am iindiirectly cause of genociide of countless aliien races
often secretly wondered iin own world iif piilotiing shiip iinto nearest star would not be better for uniiverse
but iis not a contest for who has iit worse
caste comes wiith both giifts and paiin
liikely more paiin than giifts
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ii am pretty much pa22iing tiime whiile ii waiit for 2omethiing terriible two happen agaiin.
thii2 ii2 depre22iing, fuck.
let'2 ju2t 2kiip the remaiinder of thii2 conver2atiion, agree that ii am a terriible per2on who had a hand iin 2ome of the death2 of my friiend2 and that you miight have been better two fly iintwo a 2tar.
then we can move ontwo 2omethiing el2e becau2e ii pretty much know how tho2e conver2atiion2 go 2eeiing a2 ii tend two have them wiith my2elf on a daiily ba2ii2.
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good iidea
best strategy
what diid the others say about
me
??
hm
have not used personal pronoun iin hundreds of sweeps
liiberatiing
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and they wii2hed they knew what happened two you.
they began two put piiece2 twogether after the empre22 2howed up and attempted two capture me iin order two "replace her helm2man" but nobody knew for 2ure.
and uh..
they 2eemd two reckon that you were my ance2tor.
whiich ii2 really weiird two talk about ii 2tiill thiink that whole ance2tor thiing ii2 2omethiing hiighblood2 make up two feel better about them2elve2.
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seems possiible
apologiize for beiing crap ancestor iif so
wiish there were way to send iinterrealiity message
would tell them am all riight
though between two of us
was not
but that iis veeriing back iinto blood-pusher-crushiingly depressiing
better to say that rememberiing sufferers teachiings helped at worst moments
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becau2e that would mean ii have two apologiize for beiing a crap de2cendant.
ii would tell them for you, but once ii go back there ii wont remember any of thii2 conver2atiion, unfortunately.
that guy ii2 2o weiird, though.
he ii2 nothiing liike kk at all he ha2n't even yelled once.
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though does not necessiitate correspondiing one from you
would not miind meetiing you iin some corner of paradox space where iit would count
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sufferer was not one for yelliing
except once
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ii mean iit could happen 2ometiime con2iideriing other adult troll2 keep croppiing up iin place2.
there ii2 nothiing fun about beiing on that giiant 2hiip though iit ii2 a paiin.
but iit mean2 that dead friiend2 can come back and not be dead whiich ha2 two count for 2omethiing.
and lol.
kk ii2 hii2 de2cendant but he doe2 nothiing but yell and fliip hii2 2hiit at everythiing.
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perhaps descendent iis makiing up for lost tiime
would liike to see friiends agaiin
human typiist iis consiideriing sendiing to place wiith sufferer dolorosa and dii
but would fliip own shiit iif dropped iinto new uniiverse suddenly
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iit 2ound2 plau2iible.
iit would be better two fiind 2omewhere where your friiend2 are pre2ent, though.
from experiience ii can tell you that iit doe2 make thiing2 at lea2t 2liightly better.
by a liittle.
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can translate that last
appreciiate the adviice
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yeah.
then ii gue22 ii don't really need two 2ay anythiing el2e 2iince you are probably thiinkiing iit anyway huh.