Muse is not a happy highblood

[caligulas_aquarium]

wwhat in the swweet mother a FUCK do you mean youre plannin on keepin my flushed an caliginous quadrants empty
do you not realize that i dont givve a fuck if none a the others are interested it doesnt necessarily havve to be another troll

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i dont givve a fuck if you havve a problem wwith the wwhole interspecies things itll wwork out as long as you dont fuck it up
im sure therere others interested ovver at that flippin magic castle its a big place lotta people there has to be somethin

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meaninful
right i get it
you wwant me to genuinely be happy instead a havvin a chance to rub it in evveryone elses faces that there wwas someone interested
yeah bullshit
i bet you just like wwatchin me suffer youre an ass do you knoww that

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[punk_cute]

Eridan, what the hell are you going on about?

Okay, you know what? I kinda hate to agree with 'em, but maybe your mun's right about the happiness thing. If you're not happy, the people around you 're gonna have a hard time being happy too, and that can really suck for relationships.

Maybe you just gotta be patient and take it slow?

[caligulas_aquarium]

Oh, uh, hey Kanj...

Look, it's a long an' complicated series a' explanations revvolvvin' around all this fuckin' offshoot timeline shit that happens oh so fuckin' often at this Dear_mun place since it's wwhatevver the fuck goes here.

So I'm just a bit dowwn about it okay.

[punk_cute]

Well, sometimes talkin' about shit helps. At least sortin' out what made you upset and what you can do about it, you know? I'm up for listenin' if you wanna talk it out.

[caligulas_aquarium]

[Lets assume losses aren't taken into account here...]

Wwell, uh, it's just.

I met this other Fef from a different timeline an' wwe really hit it off you knoww. Wwe kinda...evven kissed.

An' It's great an' all but the fact is it doesn't mean anythin' here really does it. All a these meetins are superficial cause it's not a proper place evveryone is just sorta driftin' through evvery second.

So...I'm just sorta pissed off an' shit that evven though I really like her an' wwe got on great it's nevver gonna happen.

Instead I get my Fef wwho I like an' all but she's clearly hesitant to evven fuckin' speak to me for an extended period a time most days.

[punk_cute]

Oh damn. I'm sorry to hear that. But yeah, I get about things bein' only temporary here and shit.

But, uh, isn't it good to know that there's someone out there who can feel that way for you? Like, um, the girl I like from home doesn't even know I like her, most places, but in one place we started dating. So when I'm here and all, I remember that, an' it gives me a little hope, even though it's kinda bittersweet.

[And he frowns a little.] I dunno what to make of Feferi-san, though. She seems real nice, but...

[caligulas_aquarium]

Oh, no. No, no, no, no, Kanj, don't say that.

[Fretting a little.]

Fef is great, don't...don't think badly a' her. She's really nice. I just messed up things betwween us that's all.

[punk_cute]

I'm just not sure... uh, that she doesn't have some of the blame for what happened between you two.

In the castle, she talked to you about what you don't remember and what you did yet?

[He looks away.] The real reason I avoided you for so long is 'cause she told me she wanted to talk to you first, but I waited, and she didn't that I know of. Then I said screw it, 'cause I was bein' a bad friend and I didn't care no more that I was goin' against her wishes.

[caligulas_aquarium]

No, I found out through Sol losin' his shit at me, he kinda spilled evverythin' wwhile wwe wwere at each others throats. I told you, she wwon't fuckin' talk to me, an' wwhen she does it's brief an' nevver amounts to anythin'.

[Ngh, he doesn't like the idea of her being the reason he hadn't seen Kanji at all for those two weeks...

still...]

It's fine, really.

[punk_cute]

[And he feels guilty, because he knows he should have said "screw it" way sooner, but he let her be the excuse. Which wasn't cool of him at all.]

Dammit. This is all so damn complicated. I really hope you two do patch things up and be friends again, at least. Maybe what you're goin' through now will help you talk to each other?

...Or not.

[caligulas_aquarium]

Probably not.

All I got from her was a 'Eridan don't do anything wweird with my body while this is goin' on" from her.

[punk_cute]

You know, maybe you two should just get stuck in a room or something--

But that could end real bad. Forget I said that.

[caligulas_aquarium]

Wwhat's the point? Wwhen I'm there I don't remember her at all.

It wwouldn't do a lot a good.

[punk_cute]

I got memories taken too, and yeah, if my Dad ever did show up it'd be real awkward and painful at first, but even not remembering anything, I'd want to try to get to know him again, you know?

[caligulas_aquarium]

Your custodian wwould probably wwant to get to knoww you again.

Look, Kanj, just drop it. If she doesn't wwant anythin' to do wwith me fine. It'd be no different from howw back home wwas anywway, only difference here is I don't remember her.

[punk_cute]

[wince]

Shit, fine. I won't bring it up. I just feel... real bad for you. Wish I could make things better, you know?

[caligulas_aquarium]

I knoww, I knoww.

I appreciate it an' all I guess knowwin' wwhat I did to her hasn't exactly put me in the greatest mentality here.

I'd be depressin' as fuck in the castle if I kneww.

[punk_cute]

I just-- Dammit. Let's talk about something else then.