Muse is sick of this.

[mistersimpatia]

No. No, you know what? Fuck you! How the hell can you do this for fun!? You did this in the last game, too! And I know you're going to do it in the new one, why else did you take me from those two AUs!?

I love Feli, I really do! And I love Tonio too, and my emotions aren't fucking toys! And playing with my thoughts and my memories like that, making me lose everything as soon as I get it to work? D-damnit, that's... no! You can't do that! You're a fucking bitch! I never wanted this, I don't want this, I hate it and it hurts! And look! Look what you did! You affected Feli's player too! He's so fucked up that he's hurting me! You made him lose his mind and he doesn't even notice! And for what? So you can keep up your tradition of getting me fucked by my little brother!? Well fuck you! Just... fuck you!

Goddamnit... I want Tonio. I just want to run back to him and be his and not talk to Feli again because I hate him so much and I can't look at him without thinking about what you've done..!! I want to go home, I want to go back to my world and forget this stupid game ever happened! But that's not going to happen, right? Because this is your favorite one! The one where I'm the most fucked up! You must feel so fucking proud after a whole year of this bullshit! You won't even post enough on the other games for me to make any good relations! Fuck, the only person I can remember the name of in one of those is that Ampora bastard, you fucking let him take over my life and he's six fucking years old! SIX. YEARS. Right when I think you can't fuck me over anymore, you just make it that much worse!

I don't care how much you love me, you're fucking suffocating me! Drop me! Go take a fucking break and start over from scratch! Fuck, but you're not gonna listen to me, right!? I hate you!

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[morethanpasta]

[He's just going to curl up over here in this metaphorical corner and whimper.]

[unalienable]

Sometimes, after so much has happened, it's not possible to start over. Life doesn't come with a restart button, y'know.

[ She feels bad for Romano— and his brother. She can't quite empathize with his situation, but she understands it as well as she thinks she can, she thinks. Her mun's male version of her is going through something similar, after all; not in games, but mostly private one-on-one interactions and the angst and drama that entails have unscrewed his head loose. ]

Would you rather not exist instead?

[mistersimpatia]

Si, I'd love to not exist, goddamnit! Anything to get away from this fucking bitch!

[It's a good thing Lovino is unnaware of the non-game RPs he's in. Or rather, that he's convinced himself that Lovino is a different person who has nothing to do with him. It's a very comforting thought.]

[unalienable]

[ Yikes! Alfred does the same, actually— or at least, he very carefully circumvents all attempts to broach the subject of having to deal with doubles of one person at roughly the same time. ]

You don't mean that... What about your— I mean, uh, Spain? Would you really want to leave him alone?

[mistersimpatia]

Well... well no. But... but I'm never going to be able to have him at this rate anyway! He hates me so much right now, it wouldn't make any damn sense! Every time I feel like I'm getting close, the bitch and her stupid friend shove me in another scene with Feli, damnit! And the last time hurt like a bitch because of how fucked up that idiot's getting!

Im so, so, so sorry about how late this is!

[unalienable]

That doesn't mean he'd want you to disappear though...

[ America sighs and crosses her arms over her chest. ]

Well... I mean, I guess I do kinda get what you're saying, but still... It just seems wrong to give up, to want to stop instead of keep going, no matter what happens. Is it all that bad?