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AU muse is AU and bleh.
... Ah.
[It's that oh so casual draw in of smoke from his cigarette. He's finished it though, because he takes his own damn time before speaking. Then drops it to the ground and grinds it out under one heavy combat boot.]
Been awhile, mundane? What in the hell do you think you're doing dragging me out? I was happy doing nothing and watching you fuck around with the others.
There weren't any pangs of longing on my behalf, so can we just go about out business. And tell your friends to shut up too, I'm not interested.
[Just going to light another cigarette and stand there sullenly.]
[It's that oh so casual draw in of smoke from his cigarette. He's finished it though, because he takes his own damn time before speaking. Then drops it to the ground and grinds it out under one heavy combat boot.]
Been awhile, mundane? What in the hell do you think you're doing dragging me out? I was happy doing nothing and watching you fuck around with the others.
There weren't any pangs of longing on my behalf, so can we just go about out business. And tell your friends to shut up too, I'm not interested.
[Just going to light another cigarette and stand there sullenly.]
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He’ll just be over here, hopefully out of the range of cigarette smoke lingering in the air.]
I thought you had disappeared. [That happens a lot. Augh.] Interested in what?
Pangs of longing? [Sending him a curious look.] You don’t even yearn for your friends?
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I had, happily. She's got a new play toy at the moment, two of them actually. So I was free to just sit in the background and watch it all unfold.
Till your one got my one talking. [Growls to himself for that.] So here I am.
... [He shrugs a little, looking to the side.] Maybe. But it's been awhile, whose to say they even miss me?
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Quirking a brow.] “Play toy”? [Oh, psycho. You and your vulgar terms.
He leans back against the wall with his arms folded over his chest.] You don’t seem very pleased about that. Would you rather continue hibernating?
[Gaara looks confused for a moment, and has to think about how to answer, since he still doesn’t really understand friendship all that well.] If they don’t, then they wouldn’t be true friends. Acquaintances don’t usually care for each other.
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He nods. Oh yeah, he forgot about that.] Ah, amusement. Like little kids with toys. Play time, play toy. [If that made any sense. It didn't always.
He nods. Back of the Mun's mind is a nice place. Because he gets left alone with the others here who are also ignored.] You remember how nicely they treat us, would you want to be dragged out after a relative peace. Even if Shukaku gets bored. [Oh yeah, useless snarling demons never left him.]
I suppose not. Guess it remains to be seen, and all that. [Frowns as he takes another breath in of smoke, burning in his lungs, before tilting his head back -- away from his otherself, he might add -- and breaths it out again.]
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…You mean, the other individuals inside her head. Do you consider yourself a toy too, then?
[His face goes blank for a moment.] There is no peace inside my mun’s head. I prefer to breathe rather than be suffocated. [His expression softens a little.] But you… Have you been feeling well?
Try to contact them. They might need to be coaxed out of hiding. [Here, he smirks a little.] Similar to your case.
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Aren't we all? Certainly isn't friendly damn companionship they subject us too? [This is why he was a cocaine junky.]
Mine is like a little kid with her favourite thing, plays with what has her attention, and everything else ignored. It's not so bad, every so often, I have to fight off giant talking animals. [Tch. Still, at the question, there's this brief almost smile at the corner of his mouth.] ... Yeah, I guess so. Nothing bad at least. You?
[frown for that.] Maybe. Don't feel like dragging them out if they're not wanting too though. Still, guess it'd be more fun then being here alone.
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Gaara releases a quiet grunt of disdain in response. He doesn’t like being controlled.]
Hmm. It sounds as though she doesn’t have enough time to allocate to everyone. [Okay. What.] …Giant talking animals?
Are you certain? You seem… [trying to think of the most appropriate word] irritated.
[He looks away for a minute, and then turns his attention back to the other redhead.] My mun has kept me in hibernation for some time, similar to yours. I don’t want to remain here forever.
[A pointed look.] You are not alone.
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She does have, she's just got... limited attention span for certain things, it's pretty unbelievable. [OH THE GIANT TALKING ANIMALS] Mine's got that thing for history. Only, she's odd, and in here they take on the life of their countries, as huge talking animals, that have war like tendencies... keeps things interesting, you can imagine all the rest.
I'm... on edge. I keep waiting for her to do something, I just don't know what, I'd rather sit next to a fucking grenade. Grenades are at least predictable. [mutterglare.]
There must be somewhere you can force her to make you go. If you hammer loud enough, they eventually do it. S'how it worked for the other three she plays now.
[Tch, and he rolls his eyes.] Clearly, I've got your magical presence, don't I?
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He makes a small noise of amusement.] I think my mun is beginning to realize that.
[…Blank stare. What. How does that even.] Animals… represent certain countries? [He is totally not understanding.]
Would you still feel apprehensive if you knew she wasn’t sending you to any community? Grenades can also kill you. I doubt you would want your mun to tear your limbs apart.
Alone, it would be difficult. [Light scowl.] Starting everything all over again… After the facility, it seems like a tedious process.
[Slight head tilt.] Is that a problem? I can leave.
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[Nodnod.] Trust me, it gets worse the more you think about it. You know how you guys can summon those... giant animal things? It's like that. [Don't question, just accept.]
Yes, guess that's a bit better. [drags in another breath of the cigarette.] Yeah, she might not do that, but she'd do something else that wouldn't be so quick a death, either.
Ah, yeah, that is always hard. [blows out the smoke, still away from his otherself, he's trying alright?] I exist pretty much for that one place, so I don't really get another chance, I just... am.
[slight shake of his head.] No, just haven't seen you in awhile.
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Yes. But our summon creatures aren't used to represent... Never mind. [He'll just chalk it up to one of those things from other worlds that he doesn't understand.
NEVAR. ENDLESS QUESTIONS. ALL THE TIME.]
Since your school closed down, I suppose you won't be returning. You will eventually need to graduate and move forward with your life. Your future has yet to be decided, after all.
[Warily, he asks.] What do you think she would do to you?
[Hey, Gaara isn't poking at him for the smoke.] My mun has expressed amusement in what would happen if we were ever in the same location. [He frowns a little.] Chaos, perhaps.
[He states matter-of-factly.] You disappeared, like the others. They always do. I am left behind, with only their memories. [He crosses his arms over his chest.] I suppose I should start expecting that to happen, from now on.
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Trust me, if I understood it, I'd explain it better, but I don't. It just is. [YOU CAN'T HAVE ANSWERS IF NO ONE KNOWS THEM.]
Nah, I know where I am going, straight back to the military. I can deal with it better now, no more setting fire to bunk houses when people are still sleeping. [There's that grin that is all Shukaku and cruelty, ever as he hides it with his cigarette. Yeah what was that about changing?]
Who knows any more? Maybe this, maybe find somewhere to put me. I can never tell...
[He laughs then, hoarse as it is.] Something like that. If you can catch them, I can kill them. Or at least make them bleed a lot. Tch.
I did, sorry about that, I guess. But when you don't have a place... [a shrug] I'd say so, doesn't mean you have to though, just because the others do. After all I am still here, just quiet.
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[IF YOU DON’T KNOW THE ANSWERS THEN FIND OUT. BE A DETECTIVE!
He frowns a little as he looks at the other.] Is that all you want to know for life? Fighting? How to excel at killing? [Pause, because he realizes he sounds somewhat hypocritical. He continues after a moment.] That is… don’t you want to learn more?
[Unfazed by that grin, but he clearly recognizes it. He remarks in a soft tone.] …He will never completely leave, will he. [Change or not, there are some things you just can’t get rid of.]
You’re not strong enough, yet. Once you’ve regained your strength, then perhaps…
[He quirks a brow.] Fortunately, I don’t have the desire to kill you, in my current mindset. [He shakes his head.] In the past, I refused to cooperate with anyone. Regardless, violence shouldn’t be all that sustains you. [A beat.] Nor recreational drugs.
Don’t apologize. It wasn’t your decision. I was simply stating a fact. [He has his usual cool and neutral expression on his face.] But you wouldn’t know how long you can remain.
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[YOU CAN TALK TO THE 14 FOOT TALL WOLF AND ASK IT WHY IT EXISTS, OKAY?]
No. [Gives a smirk.] Figured I'd be a leader instead, since following these idiots is annoying. Just like you, Kazekage-sama.
It'd be wrong if he did. He made us what we are, you'd change that? [curious look.]
It's true. Who knows. It could be crazy amount of fun though, if I did have somewhere again.
[Oh look, he finished his cigarette, dropping it to the ground and crushing it under his boot.] It's not. It's just fun. Or don't you remember that? [a short bark of laughter.] That's only for fun too.
I think, by now, if I was going to leave, I would of. I haven't just... lost the will I think. Or she did, who goddamn knows any more.
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I-it's been a while, Gaara-kun. [She lowers her gaze to the ground, it's a admittance she'll make.] You don't miss things at all-?
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I'd say sorry, but at least I am not suffering alone.
Yeah, it has. Still accepting strange things from people you shouldn't? [smiiiirk] Ah, only sometimes, but do you miss the shit they used to put us through?
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I... um. There hasn't been much opportunity to... [bluuush. Now that he's not there to be a horrible influence. :|] Mun-san was relatively kind to me. It's nothing that we couldn't handle, I think.
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I'm glad, don't know why you trusted me in the first place. That shit I gave you is habit forming. [He's the best influence what are you talking about.] Yeah, yours always seemed pretty relaxed about the things you used to walk into.
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You would rather I not trust you? [Is that, by chance, his way of caring for her well being? ... At least he isn't offering her drugs-slash-alchohol this time round.]
Yes... it's nothing really, compared to everyone else... But despite it, you've always managed to come out stronger, Gaara-kun.
STOP MAKING ME SHIP, ERG IT BURNS.
It's probably better if you don't. All things considered. [... Look, just don't read too much into it, Hinata. Because he's admitting jack all.]
Tch. You try to really see the good in everyone don't you?
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You're so funny, after all.]
Oi oi! It's good t'see ya again, yanna Gaara?
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WE STILL OWE HIM A PUNCH TO THIS FUCKING FA--]
Yeah, something like that. [Glaring at his cigarette.]
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Shut up, Shukaku.]
Oi, what d'ya mean somethin' like that!? You just wanna stick in that brain of hers all the time?
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I'LL RIP YOUR FUCKING SKIN OFF WITH MY TEETH.]
Better then the dumb shit we get subjected to, or did you forget the part where I beat you up?
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and you. You wish. >:| ]
l could have taken you, just had other stuff l needed to do.
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LESS WISHING, MORE LIKE HALLUCINATING VIVIDLY HOW YOUR FLESH WILL TASTE.]
Whatever, tch. You still squeal too goddamn much.
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... Shut up, Shukaku. No one likes you. >:|]
I don't squeal shut up! You don't know anythin'
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I LIKE ME]
You totally do. Whine and squeal like a little bitch, I'm pretty sure.
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That doesn't count.]
Yeah, maybe once - but... That was different and stuff.
ICON KEYWORDS ARE FOR YOU FOREVER
TOTALLY FUCKING DOES. AND LITTLE SAPPY POET BOY HERE LIKES ME, TOO.]
Yeah guess so, still. It was satisfying.
PFFT.
Only because he doesn't know any better.]
There's better stuff to do you know? Than just hittin' people?
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SURE HE DOES, BUT WE'RE BROS. YOU'RE NOT INVITED TO OUR EXCLUSIVE AS FUCK BRO CLUB.]
Yeah, there is. Just don't see the point most of the time.
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Yeah, pretty sure he could make a difference. C'mere and let him forehead smash you. :|]
... You ever been bowlin'?
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NO. NO FOREHEAD SMASHING. THAT IS LIKE THE WORST FUCKING PARTY TRICK EVER.]
... No. [:| The hell, bowling?]
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... Works though, doesn't it?]
Oh. We could go?
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PRETTY FUCKING SURE THAT SHIT WORKS ON WAKING ANYONE UP.]
.... Why on earth would you want to go bowling?
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Waking people up in many senses of the word. Don't ya know?]
Just thought, er, yanno it'd be somethin' t'do?
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HE'S FINE WITHOUT IT, WE DON'T NEED YOUR CRAPPY JESUS FANFICTION, ALRIGHT?]
I guess it would be.
[smirk.] You fucking missed me, didn't you?
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... Oh c'mon, he'll be amazin' after he figures out there's more to life than hating everything ever.]
Ah...
What I never said that!
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I HAPPEN TO LIKE HIM THE WAY HE IS, AND IF YOU WERE A BETTER PERSON YOU'D LIKE HIM TOO. WHAT'S WRONG WITH A LITTLE BLOOD SHED? LIVENS UP THE FUCKING DECOR.]
Tch, you totally did. Ha.
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I DO LIKE HIM, Just not when he's all-- homicidal and stuff.]
... Yeah well, things were just startin' t'get better weren't they?