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[shadedsunlight]

[A sigh, a shake of her head, then furious writing in a journal.]

"Do you know what's worse than going somewhere where you don't know anyone?

Going somewhere where you should know people and you don't. Do you know how much that is going to hurt, not remembering them? Having to face them and knowing that you should know them, but that you can't? I know, I can remember things in time, but it's cruel, mundane.

It's honestly as cruel as leaving. I left Grune, Draco, and Helios behind. I wasn't there for Pao-Lin when she needed me. I let them down and I don't know how to make it up to them."

[She pauses, expression softening slightly as she writes a little more.]

"I know. I guess coming back is a good way to start.

Think I can get my old apartment back?"

Comments

[anti_ahab]

If I may; how would you know that you have meet these people if memories of these meetings are gone?

[shadedsunlight]

[Ginia flips to a new page in her journal and begins writing, turning the message around when she's finished.]

People can be very forward about knowing people that have departed. There is, fortunately or unfortunately, proof that I used to be there.

Otherwise it would be a case of trusting what they say is true.

[anti_ahab]

The emotional connection is no longer there though, evidence of prior residence or not. I suspect it to be difficult to feel for someone you do not know despite claims you had.

[shadedsunlight]

[A nod of agreement.]

Very difficult. It puts on a sort of unreasonable pressure and things are never quite the same. Different experiences, knowledge, things change. It's to be expected, though it doesn't make it any easier.

[anti_ahab]

Are you familiar with the saying regarding stepping in rivers? One never can step in the same place twice as the river never stops flowing.

Circumstances seem to place you in a place you can step in the same spot despite that saying. To what good I cannot say, but it offers something of a rare opportunity at least.

[shadedsunlight]

I admit I've never heard of that saying, but it's a good one.

[A shake of her head and a wry smile.]

Not quite the same spot. No, never the same spot. A few inches to the left or right, maybe, but never the same. Memories are tricky things.

[Her pen taps against her journal and offers a softer, more sincere smile.]

I have many good friends willing to jog my memory.

[anti_ahab]

I admit I did not consider everyone else, but neither have I been similar circumstances to consider it.

[His voice remains soft and expression blurred between a well meaning tilt of the lips and blankness.]

A willingness to do so is a good sign of friendship. They must have valued it greatly.

[shadedsunlight]

They were are the best friends anyone can ask for. [More than friends, family really. Ginia knows she owes a lot to them for their friendship, their kindness, their support, and love.]

[anti_ahab]

Then I wish you well when the time comes.

[averybadfeeling]

"It is never easy, rebuilding what has been lost, but it is often worth the doing, is it not?"

[magicmaestro]

It sounds as if things are becoming very difficult for you, Miss Ginia. [He tries to smile.] The possibility of me being there to support you is an impossibility I'm afraid, even if I wish it were a possibility. I do miss seeing everyone, especially you and Helios.

[i_am_not_cute]

[...]

Does this mean I have to return your throwing knives?

[shadedsunlight]

[Ginia offers a gentle smile and a shake of her head. Writewritewrite.]

The knives are yours. I'm sure I can find more if I need them.

[i_am_not_cute]

Okay then! I figured you might be able to in Luceti, but I just wanted to make sure. I've been practicing with them since you left.