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Let's get something straight, Lady. This whole Winter Soldier thing is one thing - one seriously bad thing but one thing - but you're not making me the dead memory of my best friend. Got it?

This whole Shade Extractor dream share thing needs to be out the window. Kind of like that Stark fellow being tossed. You with me here?

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Are you even listening?!

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Probably not.

Assume you've dealt with much of the same?

What was your first clue?

Something about the face. Inspires lack of listening and torture from everything I can figure.

Apparently. You'd think they'd cut us some slack.

Don't see that happening any time soon. Or ever.

Probably not. Mine's apparently disappointed she can't swing sending me to this game with the whole Winter Soldier thing as part of my history.

What is it about the Russians and the mechanical arm they love so much? There's other ways to have survived the fall.

Or they could make you a murderous memory! Oh wait, that's me.

Mine saw that idea too. I wouldn't be all that surprised if she broke down and did something with it at some point.

I already live with a point man, I don't need to be involved with that whole thing. Dream share? Sounds like a Nazi torture experiment to get information.

Definitely wouldn't put it past them.

Does it scare you, the idea of being just a piece of regret lodged in someone's mind? Afraid you'd lose your sense of self?

I fell from a plane and became an experiment for the second sadistic regime in my lifetime. I'm not scared. I just think it's bullshit to put that on Steve.

You do not blame him for falling - in this verse or the next one?

[ She smiles, black adder sharp. ]

That would be Steve's choice to carry that regret. Shouldn't you feel touched he would not be able to let you go?

Course I don't. What kind of messed up question is that?

No. I don't want him making that choice. The damn mook is dealing with enough without carrying my memory around like he did something wrong. It isn't touched, except in the mental sort, to think that's a good thing.

A truthful one. If he hadn't taken you along, you would not be dead, after all.

[ She keeps smiling. ]

You don't have any influence on him choosing to make that choice. Well. [ She inclines her head. ] Not the one you want.

Wrong. He didn't take me anywhere. I wasn't letting him leave me behind. I made the choice, I took the chance.

I don't have to play along with this game. No offense, Doll, but that isn't a life I would wish on my worst enemy.

And he could not reach you in time. Does it not bother you at all? That he could have been faster, braver?

[ She raises a hand, gesturing with a laugh. ]

I don't think they need you to give your Steven a shade.

Wasn't his job to reach me. It was my job to not be in the way. No bother because he didn't do anything wrong. He is braver than anyone.

[He didn't look the least bit placated by the hand or the laugh.]

Damn right they don't. He's been through enough hell.

If they chose to do this - and your resistance will merely make the idea grow - they don't need you. Not if the Shade is merely a construct of Steven's mind.

[ She smiles again. ]

You think he would give you up so easily, if he was one of us?