dear_mun | Life goes on at carriero, probably

so wwhats the problem this time around
considerin you knoww evverytime i run into this particular you in this particular place cause of a particular SOMEONE theres alwways some kind a problem

There Is No Particular Someone Anymore
That Would Be The Problem

oh
so someone left or somethin yeah i guess that sucks
in fact i remember us speakin about somethin like this before quite clearly
remember wwhen i left kan

left that one game i wwas at a feww months ago an i spoke out about it here i mean
it did suck alright

Edited 2012-05-29 18:13 (UTC)

Yeah
Yeah We Did
About How Being In A Fictional State Is Hard And These So-Called Real People Dont Understand
And How You Complained All The Time But Didnt Mean You Wanted Things To Change
I Think I Realize What You Meant By That Now
How We Always Express Our Negativity To Them
When We Stay More Silent About The Positive Aspects
Because Those Are More Private Mostly

you nevver knoww maybe either they think wwe wwant things to change or just do this cause wwe wwont shut up
and to be honest i gotta say kan if you complained more than i did for bad things that happen you must a done an AWWFUL load a complainin
though i guess its not like it wwas wwithin the powwer a your mun to havve this kind a thing to happen so its not your fault
wwas totally mine though back then hes a right bastard

It Is A Factor Of Voice As They Say Isnt It
You Never Know What Complex Social Factors Bring About Situations Like These Either However
Xenopsychologys Not My Strong Suit
And Even If It Were Ive Never Exactly Understood Roleplaying Culture

Complaining Is Definitely A Tendency Of Your Temperament Though
Ill Admit To That And Am Well Aware Of It

wwell dont expect me to shed some light on this situation flarpin an this lousy text based rpin thing are twwo completely different sorts
youd wwanna ask nep about that
an evven then i fuckin doubt shed get it either

in any case its mostly just convversational topics if you ask me
i mean wwhats wwrong wwith you knoww
just twwo trolls
havvin a mutual interest through shared hate for a topic and or other troll
or human i guess
right

I Hadnt Really Expected You To
Though I Might Have Slightly Hoped
Its Just An Unusual Culture They Have Here
And An Unhealthy One

Im Not Objecting To It At All
Im Just Agreeing That Its Very Much Something You Do

oh COME ON kan i can complain if i ww
wwait

wwhat
really
youre not gonna say its stupid or a wwaste a time or if im complainin about somethin so much i should DO something about it instead a wwhinin all the time
really

Edited 2012-05-29 21:56 (UTC)

Well We Could Get Into A Nice Detailed Discussion Of All Your Feelings And Problems But Im Not Exactly In The Mood To At The Moment Given My Pre-Existing Lack Of Love For Wands In Uncomfortable Places And The Identity Of The Departed So Youre Just Getting The Abbreviated Version Of My Full Concern

Can You Mentally Amend That To "No I Just Dont Really Care Enough To Properly Object"
Id Really Appreciate That

WWOWW sure go ahead kan gettin snappy wwith a guy wwho is totally offerin his time here for the sake a bein nice

but hey fine i get it you dont wwanna talk about it
ill just go
i knoww wwhen im not wwanted an this is one a those times my generous fuckin self is totally not needed
maybe youll run into that fakey fake bullshit magic pink scarf wwearin friends a yours an you twwo can totally convverse an discuss an wwhatevver the fuck else

You Dont Get It Do You
Do You Have Any Idea How Many Humans Or Trolls Id Kill To Be Curled Up Somewhere In A Corner With Feelings Running Off My Oral Cushions And Violet Blood Dripping Down From Them With Any Scarves Long Since Discarded
Ugh
Why Did I Even Let You Comment Here In The First Place

let me comment wwhoa wwhoa wwhoa is that a fuckin joke or somethin
you didnt LET me do anythin i do wwhat i wwant
in fact maybe i wwont leavve
maybe ill stay
settle dowwn nice an comfy in this post a yours howw do you feel about that
wwanna get in touch wwith eridan ampora just look for the jade text wwith some purple slidin dowwn the replies

might make for a nice dark season hivve awway from hivve
if you knoww i still had a hivve
i dont think any a those inconsequential trivvialities means anythin right noww im sure you get my point

Edited 2012-05-30 15:27 (UTC)

...
...
...
This Isnt Happening

uh
wwhat

[NO WORDS

CEPHALIC SURFACE

MANUAL SURFACES

HAVE JOYFUL REUNION

ALBEIT POSSIBLY TEARFUL ONE]

[wait WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED........

He's really not sure what to do. Or...well, how this happened either. It's all very confusing and territory he is not suited for. He is bad at this.

So...maybe if he just......

reaches out..............

slowly......................

SINGLE.

AWKWARD.

BACKPAP.]

kan cmon im not good at this kinda thing
i dont evven knoww wwhy the fuck youre cryin for

You Never Actually Read The Original Posts Do You

[That is not very difficult for her to get out in a bittersweet snarky sort of way, as RAINBOW DRINKERS DON'T CRY AS MUCH AS THIS NOR DO THEY HEAVE SOBS.]

[They do, however, after several seconds of slack-jawed hesitance and sparkling-eyed staring, perhaps gasp delicately and throw their arms around someone, which is the act Kanaya will perform now.

Eridan would probably do best to not care about the state of his shirt's cleanliness around the shoulders, as Kanaya has pretty much buried her face in one of them.]

[Holy fuck things just got ten times more awkward. No, he didn't read the original post, that's exactly why he asked what the problem was...but he's still kind of unsure of the specifics here, but she's clearly much more upset than he expected, and this is way too much physical contact.

HE DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS......]

[Still, the last he saw of his Kanaya, she was so pissed off she killed him. Even if it is taking advantage of a situation he isn't even a part of, it's nice to have a Kanaya who isn't.......well, out for blood, so to speak.

Again he's awkwardly tense in this situation for a moment before eventually realizing he should probably try to be comforting, so he takes a hold of his cape and pulls his arm around her, resting his hand on her shoulder and draping the cape around her as he does.

He's only ever done this with one other troll, and she always found it comforting. Maybe it'd work here too.]

i
no i didnt
i guess i didnt think wwhatevver the problem wwas itd be this big a deal
figured it wwas just another yknoww one a the little things they do thats really funny to em

sorry

[For a moment she flinches with a stunned flash at the sudden movement, raising her head a few inches; but then she sees her shine, which had become arrythmic and skittish, reflected against the nice dark comforting cape, and in turn settles down into a soft glow.]

Yeah
You

[And then she corrects the slip she almost made, thank goodness she guards her words as carefully as she does.]

It
Was A Bit Of A Big Deal
But Ill Get Over It
Sometime

yeah

[He pauses, then gives her a little SHOULDERPAP...but it's slight, as to avoid letting the cape fall out of his grip, then returns to resting his hand on her shoulder.]

youre gonna be okay

Edited 2012-05-30 19:19 (UTC)

[She nods, not that he can see it with her head over his shoulder, but she's definitely gotten her chin up at least. Progress. Keeping a fanged upper lip for him.]

Yes
Certainly

[Now he's at a loss for what to say, really. There's nothing to say. HE STILL HASN'T EVEN FIGURED OUT WHO LEFT.

Have to say something though right.]

yeah
so
quit cryin already i mean not that i evver flipped a single page a your godawwful drinker novvels open but im sure wwhatevver number a protagonists you are familiar wwith of said stories wwould be pretty pissed off if they saww you besmirching your wwhole undead kins rep glubberin all ovver the place right
fuck
i mean blubberin
actually thats kind of a fish pun too
forget it

Edited 2012-05-30 20:35 (UTC)

[You need a moirail if you need someone to tell you that if you don't have something nice to say, you shouldn't say anything at all. Conversely, you need a moirail if you would really rather tell someone the right thing to say than not say anything at all. Regardless of this correspondence of temperament, Eridan's words (or maybe it's more accurate to say his voice does it - a little too low, a different kind of choppy) finally spur Kanaya enough to raise her head and face him properly, though she hasn't exactly... let go...]

Youre Exactly Bright And Youre Also Wise To Pay Attention To Your Word Choice
Ive Already Resigned Myself To Never Glowing Down That Sucking Path Guidance Structure With You Again

[And then her yellow eyes suddenly focus on her finger in horror -- when did she remove her pale hand from him, let alone get three quarters of the way to a playful tap on his nose? It isn't really possible for a rainbow drinker to flush, nor for all the color to drain from their face; what happens to Kanaya is somewhere in between, as she turns an even brighter white that's almost painful to look at.]

Shit
I Mean To Say
Uh
Its Not
Dignified
At All

[Well it's a good thing he's been MOMENTARILY BLINDED by her embarrassed shine or he may have actually noticed that bout of potential moirail playfulness.]

holy FUCK kan geez could you keep it dowwn if youre gonna be this close to someone last thing i need is to go completely blind like ter

[He lets go of her and takes off his glasses, rubbing at his eyes with his other hand.]

an please do not tell me the wwhole rainboww drinker puns thing is a thing
as in an actual THING
its just awwful i gotta be honest wwith you here

[Well, good, she certainly killed that potential moment too far for a moirail in mourning dead with sterling silver chainsaws going cascading. She takes a half-step back, free from him, to steady herself into a softer, more dismal sort of shine, and yes, there, she's got it, if only she had the white clothing that would be customary for trolls were they to particularly care if someone died.]

Sorry
I Cant Really Control The Glows

[And she turns away as her fangs flash in what little light she produces, before letting out a small harsh joyless laugh.]

A Thing
Not Really
Or At Least
Not Very Often
Not In Public
And Not Anymore

[Man, Kanaya seems to be a lot more depressed than he thought she was. At the same time he'd take this over her being angry at him, but that'd be an awful thing to admit.

At least to her anyway. If someone else was here he'd probably say it to them without even thinking about it.]

right
uh
you sure youre gonna be ok
you still seem pretty dowwn

[She looks up at him - up, wow, she's hardly ever gotten to do this before, but it's refreshing - at him with eyes as bright as the Earth sun through eyelashes as dark as human death. Also with a broken diamond heavy with way too many remembered endings to tragic pale vampire fiction, and possibly even figures of speech from such.]

Why Wouldnt I Be
Which Phrase Of Yours Im Answering Is Ambiguous On Purpose By The Way

[Her glow goes even dimmer as a series of sparkles shimmers down her skin. At this point there is no way she isn't taking pages out of a book about Troll Edward Cullen.]

alright alright i get it
ill lay off
consider me completely off your back regardin your mental wwellbein

Yes I Will Do So
Im Sorry
Its Just Probably For The Best Considering Im Going To Have To Train Myself Out Of Doing The Same For You Anyway

Were I In Your Situation Im Certain My Patience For Unwanted Shenanigans Would Surely Rile Me Up Also
So I Offer My Sincerest And Most Genuine
Two Adjectives For Emphasis
Apologies

Thanks
Those Mean A Lot At The Moment Dont They

Of Course
Unless Im Lying To Myself
Though I Doubt He Meant It Like This After All What Are The Chances Of This Happening Right
Two Kanayas In One Particular Area Of Paradox Space
Never In All Of Temporal History Could He Have Known This Would Occur
But I Digress

Speaking Of Eridan I Noticed The Two Of You Were Engaged In Conversation Earlier
I Cant Help But Wonder Why You Didnt
You Know
Kill HIm
You Had Plenty Of Chances

That
Is Literally
The Exact Opposite Of What Would Make Me Feel Better Right Now

Are You Sure
Did You Even Make An Attempt
No
No You Didnt

But Thats Okay Im Just Putting It Out There
He Has Done Some Pretty Despicable Things After All
Most Of Which Are Unforgivable
Things We Should Hate Him For Platonically Of Course
Well I Was Sure We Did Anyway
Do
Would
Whichever You Find More Suitable Pretend I Used That Okay

Heres What I Find More Suitable
Dont
How Does That Sound
Youre Not Even Undead Yet Going By Your Icons Why The Hell Are You Saying This

I Dont Know It Doesnt Seem Like A Veracious Manner With Which To Address His Offenses With
But Really Now You Dont Have To Be Undead To See That That
Though If That Is The Problem

Better Now

No
Youre Doing The Opposite Again
Dammit
Youre Supposed To Tell Him You Love Him While You Still Have Time

Okay

As Much As I Find Myself In A Position Solely Unsuited For Questioning Your Thought Processes And Motives This Is Making Even Me Disconcerted
So I Have To Ask And If You Find This Rude I Apologize However Its Kind Of A Pressing Matter
Are You Suffering From Some Kind Of Mental Disorder

...

That Hypothesis Is Actually So Viable Its Depressing

Well
That Explains It Then
Because To My Knowledge Youre Probably The Only Kanaya Who Wouldnt Do It
I Mean Even The Cape Part He Was Completely Off Guard
In Fact In The Time In Between The Moment You Started Crying And The Moment You Were Face Deep In Ampora Shoulder
You Know As You Came At Him
I Actually Expected Things To End A Lot Messier
Bloodier Even
You Need Blood Dont You
Two Featherbeasts With One Stone As They Say

I Do Need Blood
Rather Badly
But Ive Had Plenty From High Echelons Of The Hemospectrum Already
In Fact Ive Never In A Visceral Narrative Sense Tasted Much Of Anything Thats Not Some Shade Of Purple
So Really That Wouldnt Have Served Much Purpose

Well
Thered Be One Less Ampora To Deal With
Im Sure A Large Number Of Your Fellow Maryams Would Be Thankful For That
Well They Should Be
I Mean In The End It Was All A Waste Of Time Wasnt It
Not Even In Your Situation Which By The Way He Was Too Dense To Figure Out If Only Because He Was Being Incredibly Self Absorbed Even When Feigning His Whole Supportive Act
But Before That
Sburb And Even Before That
All Of It Built Up To That One Single Moment Of Complete And Utter Betrayal
At Which Point It Became Clear Association With Eridan Ampora Is A Wasted Endeavor One Way Or Another
Its Not Just Us Either Im Sure Karkat Feels The Same Way
And Feferi
Doing The Universe One Big Favor
Et Cetera

Wasnt That Entire Incident Somewhat Contradictory To His Alleged "Supportive Act"
I Mean That Whole Affair Was Definitely Not Genocidal In Nature
He Completely Contradicted Everything He Ever Said
About His Targets Never Being Seadwellers Nor Me
It Was A Terrible Act Of Betrayal Of Course Im Not Denying That
But I Dont Remember It As Being Something I Suspected All Along
Thats The Thing About Betrayal
Its Unsuspected

Life goes on at carriero, probably

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im not sorry for this comment not one bit

Er...i...dan...

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I thought you said you'd never use "right" with him...

You caught me i'm not the real kiva im an IMPOMPSTER................

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