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[moonlit_star]

I am not so surprised that the girls took my being Cosmos so well.

A little nervous, I must admit, but not surprised.

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[akito_sohma]

You're Cosmos. Why are you nervous?

[moonlit_star]

Because of how those close to me would take suh information.

Same mun, different journal. Male Akito seemed like he would be more interesting in this case. XD

[you_will_suffer]

I repeat: what does that matter to you? You're powerful. If they don't like it, what can they do about it?

[moonlit_star]

Simply because I am powerful does not mean I should disregard the opinions and desires of others.

[you_will_suffer]

Wrong. That's what it means exactly. They should be catering to your whims.

[moonlit_star]

Then I would not stay in power for long. The life of a tyrant is rife with paranoia and worry. I will never abuse the power bestowed to me.

[you_will_suffer]

(Paranoia? Worry? He knows nothing of -

Oh wait.)

If you can't get what you want, why rule at all?

[moonlit_star]

It is more than just getting what you want. I have what I want and need in those I love, in my friends and family. I have it in the happiness of others and my people, this universe.

Even if the light cannot exist without darkness, it is still the happy moments, the moments of peace and joy that are what give me what I truly want.

[you_will_suffer]

Yet you could have all of that - and more - if you were bonded to those you claim to love. Someone who claims to be Cosmos should be able to craft a suitable spell.

(And then... Permanence. Unshakable, unchanging permanence.)

I can think of nothing better than to know they can never leave.

[moonlit_star]

I am bonded I love. Bonded in such a way that death does not stop us from feeling one another. But I do not bind them to me.

I cannot force someone to love me, to like me. I will love them even if they despise me, but to force someone to stay by my side is not love.

[you_will_suffer]

What would you call it, then? And who are you to judge what is and isn't love?!

[moonlit_star]

[Shall we count all the people who tried to force her or Mamoru to fall in love with them?]

Forcing someone to love you against their will is not love. Love makes both parties stronger, not just one. It isn't about just taking, it is about giving and giving and giving until there is nothing to give and yet you still do it. And you do it because they give just as much back.

[you_will_suffer]

(Or all the people that Akito and Shigure put between one another. >.> NOT THAT THAT APPLIES TO MALE AKITO. Or does it? <.< ]

They are stronger when I guide them. I am their god for a reason. Besides... (He won't be around for much longer.) They owe me.

[moonlit_star]

Owe you?

[you_will_suffer]

I'll be dead soon.

[moonlit_star]

[Not much of a god if you can die.]

They do not owe you because they live and you will pass.

[you_will_suffer]

(Wrong. This body will die. But the Zodiac god will be reborn.)

IT'S BECAUSE OF THEM I WILL DIE!

[moonlit_star]

What do you mean?

[you_will_suffer]

I bear the brunt of the family curse. Because of me, they can live.

[moonlit_star]

What is it you bear? What is this curse?

[you_will_suffer]

...

If you're unfamiliar with the Chinese Zodiac, it's... (This is like talking to that Honda brat. Why do kind people always know how to push his buttons?) ...complicated.

[moonlit_star]

I am very familiar with it, however, I cannot understand it if you do not truly tell me.

[you_will_suffer]

My family... Certain members... Transform into the thirteen animals of the Chinese Zodiac.

[moonlit_star]

And you, what is the part of this curse you bear?

[you_will_suffer]

I'm god.

[moonlit_star]

And what does that mean for you?

[you_will_suffer]

One day, my body will simply give out because the curse is too strong. I am the sacrifice. I am the one who dies so that they can live.

[moonlit_star]

That is not a curse, that is great power. The power to lose everything, to give everything you are to save everyone, that is not a curse.

[you_will_suffer]

(A harsh laugh.)

What do you know? Have you ever been in my position, Cosmos?

[moonlit_star]

Indeed I have. [Several times.] That is my greatest power. I was given the power to sacrifice and lose everything so that I may save everything.

[you_will_suffer]

But you...came back, didn't you? You saw the outcome of your sacrifice?

Not all of us are so lucky.

[moonlit_star]

Whether or not I come back every time is not guaranteed, nor does it matter. If I died before seeing the outcome I would still make the sacrifice.

The power of a sacrifice is not one to be abused.

[you_will_suffer]

(A snort.) Stop making it into a fantasy. Once I die, that's it. No one look back on my time with fond memories. No one will miss me.

And that's the way it should be.

[moonlit_star]

It isn't a fantasy. I have died many times, never knowing if I would come back.

But you're wrong. There are those who will miss you, there are those who will weep and cry at your passing.

[you_will_suffer]

Now you sound just like her. Don't try that crap with me! (He steps back.) Do you know how much my family looks down on me?! Why would they suddenly weep over me?

Oh hey! We play in a game together :)

[moonlit_star]

[She doesn't know who "her" is. She only knows what she herself thinks.]

Because they are your family, because they love you. I do not know you well, but I would weep if you died.

Which? O.O

[you_will_suffer]

But that's... (Making his eyes sting.) ...so stupid. Why would you -

Aliunde :D

[moonlit_star]

Because I love you.

Omg I haven't posted there in forever. ;w; Who do you play?

[you_will_suffer]

....wh-what?

Alice

[moonlit_star]

I love you. Truly.

Ah ha.

[you_will_suffer]

You don't even...

You don't even know me.

Indeed!

[moonlit_star]

Not well, no. But it doesn't change what I do know of you and I'm sure if I only got to know you more, my love would only grow.