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[[Here is Kariya.
He is screaming his head off and appears to be in agony, tears rolling down his face, seeping from his remaining functional eye as he tears at his hair.]]
Why.....why would you do this?!
[[It's almost like he's just witnessed something terrible, or remembered something that is causing him great pain. Whatever it is, the screaming isn't stopping.]]
I....I....take it away!!! Don't...make me....
[[OOC: Consider him completely updated to events in the anime and the novels; I can't bring him to this canon point without him becoming unplayable in Route, but I'd love to play around with it, so!]]
He is screaming his head off and appears to be in agony, tears rolling down his face, seeping from his remaining functional eye as he tears at his hair.]]
Why.....why would you do this?!
[[It's almost like he's just witnessed something terrible, or remembered something that is causing him great pain. Whatever it is, the screaming isn't stopping.]]
I....I....take it away!!! Don't...make me....
[[OOC: Consider him completely updated to events in the anime and the novels; I can't bring him to this canon point without him becoming unplayable in Route, but I'd love to play around with it, so!]]
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Unfortunately, I can't say you have my sympathy, Kariya Matou.
As of this latest act, I can't say you have my pity, either.
no but tokiomi pls
This is all your fault! If you hadn't.....if you hadn't ruined everything....!!
[[Since he can't kill you at the momemt, have some more screaming.]]
She would have been happy!!
composure and elegance all the fuck over
[They aren't referring to the same thing and he knows it.]
The only thing I'll take responsibility for at the moment is not finishing you off properly; it would have been an act of mercy to you both, in the end.
not but my saintliness tho, tokiomi PLS
You....you don't even care? Do you even shed a tear for her?!
[[And...even more screaming, with some ripping at his hair.]]
Even now, as she lies dead, you cannot bring yourself to break through that disgusting facade you put up, you bastard mage!
...you know, if i had a dime for every one of his tags that start with these three words
[He takes a moment after that's out there. Breathes as deeply as possible, tries to ignore the hideous jackhammer pace his heart is taking up.]
I'm not about to make this about my pain. Not in front of you. Not in public. Any grieving I do will be my own; I have no intention of wailing and carrying on in the hopes that others will see, that others will sympathize with me.
You're bringing more dishonor upon yourself by questioning my reaction in the first place, and more disgustingly, you're disrespecting Aoi.
THAT'S ENOUGH KARIYA should be like. his motto or something idek
Aoi......A-Aoi......
[[Tearing at his jacket, Kariya crumples.]]
If only I had stopped you....if only I had forced her away from you, for her own good, I could have saved her...
inorite
[It's there that his composure slips. "Saved her"? Really?
Really?]
Do you not understand what you've done to her? In a moment of grief, no less!
tokiomi you know he's a saint, why are you doing this
[[More tears.]]
She didn't....that wasn't my precious Aoi, my precious Aoi wouldn't have said those things!! I...I blacked out, and then she was there and we were on the ground and I...I....
....she didn't understand! She didn't understand what I endured for her! It was all for her, Tokiomi!!
[[He starts wailing then, and the sound is agonized, pleading...pathetic.]]
I was supposed to save her from you! Save her, Sakura...but I can't...not now, I can't, I've failed I've failed I've failed I've failed I'VE FAILED!!
[[His screams turn to sobs, clumps of his hair coming away as he tears at it, shrieking and pummeling the ground, and he looks at Tokiomi with eyes filled with nothing but the purest of hate.]]
They had to die....and yet you're still here....
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And then, seven words.]
Should I feel sympathy for you, Kariya?
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....I....
[[Sympathy? What....sympathy, he's never...but yes, shouldn't he be sympathised with? He is suffering so badly, all for nothing...nothing...n-nothing....
...and then he realises, he....
...he has nothing any more. Robbed, truly robbed of everything he ever held dear.]]
You....y-you bastard....
[[Look at you, standing there, looking down on him like you're so superior, like you're so fucking superior -]]
I...I don't need...your pity....
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Get off the ground and compose yourself.
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You can't tell me what to do, Tokiomi....T-Tohsaka!!
[[A quiet irony hits Kariya, then; he would rather crawl here in the dirt like a worm than stand tall in the face of his worst, his worst enemy...
...he laughs, but it doesn't stop more tears from flowing.]]