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[fallofwinter]

Dear Mundane,

Might I ask you not indulge in my twisted and tragic storyline quite yet? Much as I would love to indulge in a few jobs with or against another of my homeland, you are only looking to ensure that painful memories return and when the brilliance of this new thing for so many wears off, I will be left with raw emotional wounds and be relegated to the growing list of reboots and near misses you are amassing.

Do remember the right name and stop referring to me as Bucky. Thank you,

Winter Soldier

Comments

[a_survivor]

There may be surprises along the way.

[fallofwinter]

Perhaps, though the ending seems to be sadly predetermined.

[a_survivor]

I'd reconsider the whole 'I know what the future will bring.' It has a way of sneaking up on you.

[fallofwinter]

My own, perhaps. The mun's though I doubt.

[a_survivor]

Ah. One of those.

[well_assembled]

No.

This is not happening.

[fallofwinter]

I'm fairly certain that does little to change the reality of things to tell yourself otherwise.

Do you think I'm any happier with things?

[well_assembled]

You misunderstand me.

I won't let this happen.

[fallofwinter]

I do wish you luck with that insistence. May yours listen more intently than mine.

Reminding her I'm supposed to be in stasis between missions isn't helping.

[well_assembled]

It wasn't supposed to be like this, it was supposed to be shut down.

[Wasn't that why she'd gotten out? It was all falling apart, the programming ceasing to keep hold of her...it was supposed to be over for all of them. Red Room... another name for Hell.]

You shouldn't have to be there at all, they are stealing you, little by little every time they put you back there.

[fallofwinter]

I'm pretty sure nothing I have in my life was supposed to be like this. Even all that stuff she only lets me know about here.

[Sometimes it was easier not being in this place, between it all and knowing both.]

Have a better answer? There I don't know better and when I start to realize, back in the box.

Here... I know it's all about the heartstrings, and none of them are mine.

[well_assembled]

You are not their puppet, you're too strong for that.

[She's not a usually emotional person but there's anger and something else in her words now.]

You should be free, making your own decisions. Not put on ice when you're not seen as useful.

I shouldn't have left before I made sure everyone was out.

[fallofwinter]

You think I don't know this? You think this is my choice?

[Because making so many he meets miserable, upset or all of the above is such a delightful lifestyle, right?]

Have to save yourself in the end. I would have done the same. I will get out. I have no doubt for that.

[well_assembled]

No, I think it's my fault. I should have gone back, I should have been stronger.

You don't have to do it alone, I work with people now, powerful people. I can help.

[fallofwinter]

Blaming yourself for surviving? I would be disappointed if you had gotten yourself killed to ensure my freedom.

Powerful people who will save an assassin who has shown no remorse? Would you not think it a trap if I told you that?

[well_assembled]

No, I blame myself for leaving before I finished things completely. You trained me better than that.

They; the people I work with, know some of my history. Not all the details but enough to know why I feel the way I do. I could talk to them, they'd listen.

I know there is more to you than the Winter Soldier, I remember the moments when you were James.

[fallofwinter]

I did at that, though I do not fault you for it.

Some of your history. Enough to have faith and not mistrust. Well played.

There is more to everyone than what they are tasked with. You are as much proof of that as anyone. [So carefully treading that verbal mine field.]