basically.

[esotericism]

This is unnecessary. I think we're both aware that your only excuse is a desire to see who I was before I chose to leave heaven.

.. I love my brothers, but they're worse than vultures. Given my duties, given what I know, I did leave for a reason.

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[phosphoriel]

And who were you before, Raziel?

[esotericism]

You know that answer.

[phosphoriel]

Yes. I know what you were. I barely knew you.

[esotericism]

My duties define me. I stand behind the throne, and I am not meant to be noted.

You must find me greatly changed, years hence.

[phosphoriel]

Oh, Raziel. You draw far more eyes than you know.

Somewhat, yes. I think you suited for life among mortals. You have more in kind with men than most angels do.

[esotericism]

It is not my intention.

.. I do love humanity. They're nothing at all like us. Adaptable, changeable.

[phosphoriel]

But you know our brothers watch you. You know why you'll have to leave.

You do, don't you? There is something in you which calls you to them. You are like them, brother. [and he so dearly loves humanity, too]

[esotericism]

I've always known that I'll have to leave eventually.

I suspect that Father designed me that way. I could be happy on earth, I think, living as one of them.

[phosphoriel]

It's easy to be happy among them, sweet brother. They are so diverting. 

[not that he has ever, for one instant since his fall from God's grace, been happy. But from time to time, imitations are enough]

You'll do well. 

[magnetic_magpie]

That is all the excuse they need, isn't it?

[esotericism]

It's not a very strong one. I could be uncooperative.

[magnetic_magpie]

I do believe they enjoy that at times.