[Caroline's going to arch her brow, giving you one of her patented looks that are a cross between annoyed and amused.] Well, that's definitely gonna be interesting.
I meant this place, not-- [ He makes some vague gesture. ] If I actually stick around this time, I'm not so sure she's going to want to play out any of that.
Well, can you blame her? [Have an eyeroll, Stefan. I mean, this should be completely obvious to you.] I mean, I can't. I went through that stuff and I would not want to deal with it again. So, I know there's no way she will.
Of course I don't. I hate that it's happening to begin with. [ He pauses for a moment and then adds, ] Or happened, in your case. If there was another way, you know I would've done it.
[ Stefan's just going to stare for a few moments. ]
...and how many people did you have to trick, compel, or lie to in order to get that position? [ There is a slight teasing tone to his voice, though it could be a valid concern with Damon. Who the hell knows when he's from, after all. ]
[ He offers her a sad, soft smile as he reaches out to tuck some hair behind her ear. Just before he actually touches her, though, he hesitates, not sure if she even wants him to. If she's from his future, based solely on the few things he's heard about it, she might not even want him close by. ]
[ That look... He frowns slightly, brow furrowing a bit as he watches her cross her arms. His hands to move to his pockets and despite the desire to move closer, he leaves the distance between them, giving her whatever sort of space she might need. ]
Of course it will. [ He's calling bullshit, actually. ] How are you, Elena? [ What's the last thing you remember? When are you from? ]
lol also just checked adstring's reserve pages: we have a rebekah reserve. :O
[ And she knows he's calling bullshit. Hell, she might be too, but not like she was going to admit that easily.
She missed him. His old self, before Klaus compelled him to flip the switch. But she didn't give up that pinch of hope that told her he'd come back. And if he were to hug her, she wouldn't hesitate to return the gesture, because that meant something.
Meant a lot, actually.
She glances up at the question. Though she wants to give him a smile, all she manages is a shadow of one. ] I--
I don't know... As okay as I can be? [ At least it was the honest truth. She didn't know what he knew of what was happening, and didn't want to risk anything by saying something she shouldn't. A small step forward.] And you, Stefan?
[ ooc: and from stalking your threads in this post, i just wanna say. Your Stefan is spot on. ]
[ The shadow of her smile causes his stomach to knot and he hates how much he knows about his future, that he hurts Elena whether he means to or not, that things go south as quickly as they do. All he's ever wanted was to protect her and in trying to do so, he ruined things, hurt her, and he wonders if he'll ever be able to live with that knowledge.
But it's the step forward, small though it is, that finally makes him break. He closes what distance there is between them and wraps his arms around her, face pressing into her hair. Her breathes in her for a moment and then lets his breath out slowly. ] Better now.
ooc: ghajghak shut up. /)_(\ he's so scary for me. ;;
every time i get a tag from you i fangirl inside. sjkagg
[ There's a sharp inhale of breath as he steps closer, and a sort of initial numbness at being in his arms. It's been a long time, for her. Seeing Stefan be more human, show more emotion...she knew it would be easier to be angry with him, to hold a grudge, but she just couldn't. Who would she be if she did that?
She learned to keep hoping.
So her numbness doesn't last long as her own arms hook around him as she desperately tries to hold onto her composure. Cling to it, even, hoping that Stefan wouldn't notice. ]
I miss you... [ Her voice is lowered, muttered into his shoulder as she swallows the lump in her throat.]
ooc yes we have a matt reserve too, recently! but shush. i'm adoring your Stefan so much you don't even know. kdfigskgj /keeps him forever. :| that tag from you? all the feels. all of them. ♥ ]
agajklghakj you're too kind. also i maybe possibly put in a reserve for him...
[ Unfortunately for Elena, Stefan does notice it. Fortunately for her, he doesn't draw attention to it, other than moving one hand up to the back of her head. His fingers lace through her hair as he closes his eyes, his other arm wrapped tightly - protectively - around her waist.
He hates that this reaction is because of him, because of a choice he made. He had stayed in Mystic Falls to be close to her, to protect her, to love her and all it did was make things worse for her. His heart aches at the mere thought of it. ]
I did it to protect you. You know that, right?
ooc: OH MY GOD SERIOUSLY STOP IT. /hiding but really, i'm glad you love him so much. ♥ and i make no guarantees wrt his reserve, but i do miss playing him and idk what other game would work for him and me, so. i'm going to try.
:D i saaaw and i'm just being honest and i'll end it at that. <3
[ She almost forgot how safe she felt with him -- before Klaus, before everything got worse.
And yet, she never blamed him for leaving. He saved his brother by going with Klaus, and he looked out for her too. She never blamed him for the things he's done since then either. If she were to assign blame to anyone it would be Klaus. She hated him. And she would have no qualms saying it.
She gives him a light squeeze, before her hands travel to either side of his face as she pulls away slightly, enough to lock her eyes on his. ]
I know. I know. You don't need to explain it, really. You don't. [ Her eyes studied him, passed his features. She shakes her head; a subtle movement. ]
I don't blame you for any of it, Stefan. I just-- [ There's a slight crease on her forehead as she sighs. ]
--I just wish it turned out differently. [ She wished he would've stayed, she wished Elijah would've kept his word and killed Klaus.
Hey, maybe she even wished she would have never existed, because it's her existence that was the root of all of this. And she'd rather take that guilt on herself, than assign it to someone else. But she pushed those contemplations away. Not now. ]
ooc: alright i will xD;; ♥ and i understand! I'm super excited that you're interested and it would be, like i have said numerous times, a great, great pleasure to have you there. :)
[ One of Stefan's hands moves up to rest lightly on her wrist, fingers curling slightly around it. His other hand moves to her face, thumb brushing along the slight crease in her forehead before he lets his palm settle against her cheek.
How could he let all of this happen? How could he put Elena and Damon and everyone else in such high danger? If he had left town when he planned on it, when he realized that staying in Elena's life had far too many consequences for him to continue being selfish, everything would be better. Vicki and Jenna would be alive, Caroline's wouldn't be a vampire, Elena wouldn't have to watch whatever spiral it is that Stefan's heading towards.
His fingers press just a bit more into her wrist as he turns his head to press a kiss to her palm. His eyes stay locked on hers, like he's afraid of looking away for longer than it takes to blink. ]
I wish it would turn out differently, too. You have no idea how sorry I am - or will be, I suppose - for everything, Elena.
[ She watches him, closely, steadily, though almost on reflex- subconsciously - she is turning her face lightly towards his palm, her lips curling gently into a half-smile.
But it doesn't stay there long, turning to a slight frown as he speaks. Her hand twists in his grip, to get a hold of his, fingertips brushing against his knuckles. She was shaking her head as a lump in her throat was beginning to form. ]
Stefan don't -- it wasn't your fault, none of it was your fault. [ There was almost a sort of desperation in her voice, wanting him to believe her as much as she believed that what she was saying was true. ] I'm the doppelganger. Katherine...Klaus. They would've found me anyway. If there's anyone to blame--
[ She gives his hand a squeeze, as she lets her sentence drift off without a finish. if there's anyone to blame, it's me.
Her own eyes are on him, like she feels it will get her message across better; so he can see that she means it. And so that maybe, he can see the emotion there. ] And the things you did- or will do - you do for your brother. For your family. [ A beat, a split second. ] And for me.
I can never blame you for that. For any of it. [ There's the slightest hitch in her breath. ] Who would I be if I did?
Vicki. [ The surprise of seeing her again colors his face for about a half second before his features smooth into something a little harder to read. ] I wasn't expecting to see you around here. [ Or anywhere... ]
Yeah, you are. Or... were, I guess, considering this place doesn't exactly work the way it's supposed to. [ This is such an odd question to be asking, especially considering how things went down, but -- ] How are you?
[ He frowns a little at that. ] I'm sorry, Vicki. If I could be there to help out... [ Unfortunately that doesn't seem too likely, not in the near future anyway. ] I'm sure Elena would be happy to help, if you asked her.
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Sadly, I wish I was joking...
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...and how many people did you have to trick, compel, or lie to in order to get that position? [ There is a slight teasing tone to his voice, though it could be a valid concern with Damon. Who the hell knows when he's from, after all. ]
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It's weird.
/shoves herself in here like the busy body she is
[then there's a beat. And a moment of recognition]
OH! Is this your brother?
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Yes.
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nosyfriendly.]Now, see, you keep making faces like that, and I'll start believing it.
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Bellissima, my brother.
Stef, Buffy. My...coworker.
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Elena-- [ But really, what can he say? ]
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[ A sheepish look as she crosses her arms across her chest, biting her lip.
She isn't exactly sure what to say. So she just decides on quietly: ] --It'll all be fine. I'm sure.
[ Whatever 'fine' was for any of them now. ]
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Of course it will. [ He's calling bullshit, actually. ] How are you, Elena? [ What's the last thing you remember? When are you from? ]
lol also just checked adstring's reserve pages: we have a rebekah reserve. :O
She missed him. His old self, before Klaus compelled him to flip the switch. But she didn't give up that pinch of hope that told her he'd come back. And if he were to hug her, she wouldn't hesitate to return the gesture, because that meant something.
Meant a lot, actually.
She glances up at the question. Though she wants to give him a smile, all she manages is a shadow of one. ] I--
I don't know... As okay as I can be? [ At least it was the honest truth. She didn't know what he knew of what was happening, and didn't want to risk anything by saying something she shouldn't. A small step forward.] And you, Stefan?
[ ooc: and from stalking your threads in this post, i just wanna say. Your Stefan is spot on. ]
and matt, apparently.
But it's the step forward, small though it is, that finally makes him break. He closes what distance there is between them and wraps his arms around her, face pressing into her hair. Her breathes in her for a moment and then lets his breath out slowly. ] Better now.
ooc: ghajghak shut up. /)_(\ he's so scary for me. ;;
every time i get a tag from you i fangirl inside. sjkagg
She learned to keep hoping.
So her numbness doesn't last long as her own arms hook around him as she desperately tries to hold onto her composure. Cling to it, even, hoping that Stefan wouldn't notice. ]
I miss you... [ Her voice is lowered, muttered into his shoulder as she swallows the lump in her throat.]
ooc yes we have a matt reserve too, recently! but shush. i'm adoring your Stefan so much you don't even know. kdfigskgj /keeps him forever. :| that tag from you? all the feels. all of them. ♥ ]
agajklghakj you're too kind. also i maybe possibly put in a reserve for him...
He hates that this reaction is because of him, because of a choice he made. He had stayed in Mystic Falls to be close to her, to protect her, to love her and all it did was make things worse for her. His heart aches at the mere thought of it. ]
I did it to protect you. You know that, right?
ooc: OH MY GOD SERIOUSLY STOP IT. /hiding but really, i'm glad you love him so much. ♥ and i make no guarantees wrt his reserve, but i do miss playing him and idk what other game would work for him and me, so. i'm going to try.
:D i saaaw and i'm just being honest and i'll end it at that. <3
And yet, she never blamed him for leaving. He saved his brother by going with Klaus, and he looked out for her too. She never blamed him for the things he's done since then either. If she were to assign blame to anyone it would be Klaus. She hated him. And she would have no qualms saying it.
She gives him a light squeeze, before her hands travel to either side of his face as she pulls away slightly, enough to lock her eyes on his. ]
I know. I know. You don't need to explain it, really. You don't. [ Her eyes studied him, passed his features. She shakes her head; a subtle movement. ]
I don't blame you for any of it, Stefan. I just-- [ There's a slight crease on her forehead as she sighs. ]
--I just wish it turned out differently. [ She wished he would've stayed, she wished Elijah would've kept his word and killed Klaus.
Hey, maybe she even wished she would have never existed, because it's her existence that was the root of all of this. And she'd rather take that guilt on herself, than assign it to someone else. But she pushed those contemplations away. Not now. ]
ooc: alright i will xD;; ♥ and i understand! I'm super excited that you're interested and it would be, like i have said numerous times, a great, great pleasure to have you there. :)
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How could he let all of this happen? How could he put Elena and Damon and everyone else in such high danger? If he had left town when he planned on it, when he realized that staying in Elena's life had far too many consequences for him to continue being selfish, everything would be better. Vicki and Jenna would be alive, Caroline's wouldn't be a vampire, Elena wouldn't have to watch whatever spiral it is that Stefan's heading towards.
His fingers press just a bit more into her wrist as he turns his head to press a kiss to her palm. His eyes stay locked on hers, like he's afraid of looking away for longer than it takes to blink. ]
I wish it would turn out differently, too. You have no idea how sorry I am - or will be, I suppose - for everything, Elena.
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But it doesn't stay there long, turning to a slight frown as he speaks. Her hand twists in his grip, to get a hold of his, fingertips brushing against his knuckles. She was shaking her head as a lump in her throat was beginning to form. ]
Stefan don't -- it wasn't your fault, none of it was your fault. [ There was almost a sort of desperation in her voice, wanting him to believe her as much as she believed that what she was saying was true. ] I'm the doppelganger. Katherine...Klaus. They would've found me anyway. If there's anyone to blame--
[ She gives his hand a squeeze, as she lets her sentence drift off without a finish. if there's anyone to blame, it's me.
Her own eyes are on him, like she feels it will get her message across better; so he can see that she means it. And so that maybe, he can see the emotion there. ] And the things you did- or will do - you do for your brother. For your family. [ A beat, a split second. ] And for me.
I can never blame you for that. For any of it. [ There's the slightest hitch in her breath. ] Who would I be if I did?
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I'm dead, right?
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I'm just great. You know. Getting used to the whole vampire thing on my own. [ not really on her own, but whatever. ]
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