On her very existance

[judgement_in_monochrome]

I hope you are aware that I am quite disappointed.

I know that my words are going to fall onto deaf ears, but the way you keep yourself is completely unacceptable. As a NEET who lives off of the sympathy of the country and your peers, you greedily take from the coffers of others while providing nothing of value yourself. Moral support is only of value as an addition, not as the sole product of your labors. And creating me as a "muse"! In the time you spent gathering icons, solidifying my "voice", and creating an account, think about what else you could have done that would be more productive! You could have spent time with your family, or, heavens forbid, exercised proper hygiene.

I also do not appreciate your jokes that I will be your mouthpiece when you offer "unbiased asshole mode" criticism. While I do my best to ensure my own judgements are unbiased, I am not your puppet to speak through, nor am I deserving of such names. Despite your sins, neither are you, so stop the self-depreciation.

Your creation of "muses" is not only careless, but actively destructive. In fact, of all the residents of Gensokyo you have in here, it seems that you are working solely to frustrate and torture Miss Yakumo. While she and I do not see eye to eye, I do not believe she has done anything to earn your ire, especially as your self-professed "favorite".

It pains me to say this, but I do not know how you can better yourself; your soul is almost irreparably black. All I request is that you keep me "homeless" - any place you send me would clearly be little more than an excuse to torment myself and others.

May the gods have mercy on your soul, for if I ever meet you on equal grounds, I shall not.

Comments

[higan_retour]

It's not so bad going somewhere in the end, well as long as the somewhere isn't too horrible. It can even be relaxing, like an extended vacation. I think it could do you some good.

[paleofcourage]

...But that's a mundane's job. They take their muses and pit them against...anyone that can create something that will result in a poisonous relation, or something terrifying to happen.

[Not that Shiro's trying to convince, but she's seen enough to at least have a good idea that a 'good' mundane will allow anything to happen to the puppets; good, bad, though mostly bad.]

And what do you mean by 'black'?

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

Too long; didn't read.

Or listen, I suppose.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

As expected. Not as if you would listen to begin with.

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

I would have, perhaps, if in all your incarnations you didn't have a tendency toward the insufferably long-winded.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

...Given the mindset of many mundanes, particularly my own, any place will be "too horrible".

Besides, there's a certain happiness that one can achieve by actually performing their duties to their utmost... not that I would expect you to understand.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

These mundanes are not good creatures, and I do not know why you of all people would defend them.

Black, in this case, means unclean, sinful. Likely fated to Hell.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

As a Yama, I only say what it is necessary for one to hear. If that strikes you as being "long-winded", that is only because you have far too many sins to answer for.

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

I am well aware of the sins I have committed. Naming them off is unnecessary. All that would be necessary is the punishment after.

Ah-... provided you ever find me in your courtroom~

[anonasu]

Do you judge the puppetmaster for pulling the strings and putting on a show? Or blame him when his stage falls apart?

Not that all of what you say is wrong, I'm just thinking that maybe there's some extraneous circumstance that you're not seeing.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

Somehow, I doubt my courtroom is where you would go. After all, my Hell is one that you would look forward to, given how you speak.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

Puppets are lifeless dolls without soul. The comparison is meaningless when you consider that these "puppetmasters" you speak of toy with real lives in the same manner.

Trust me, I know all about that broken stage you occupy.

[anonasu]

Not unless you view the puppet in the context of the story being told, in which case they have as much soul as the controller wishes.

... I have to wonder why you exist. Muses don't usually appear for no reason, so... what do you think your purpose here is?

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

Oh I would say I doubt it could be worse than other things I have seen [and experienced. Oops.] but, somehow I feel it would be as bad. Just in a different way.

Besides, my Hell would be worse if I had to continue being badgered by you.

[paleofcourage]

Defend? ...No, I think you're misunderstanding. [Like hell would she defend her own mun with where she is.] Succumb...is a more accurate word. I think...I've known my mundane's tactics for too long, and I've become used to them. You just begin to accept it as a normal part of existing in their heads.

[That makes sense; Shiro nods.] That fits...very well. That could describe almost all of mundanes...though Hell would over-run with them if you sent them all there.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

Submission to an unjust cause is an early sign of weakness; for one who fought so hard for her ideals, one would think you would be more determined to stand up for what you believe. There are forms of resistance other than aggression, as I am certain you know.

Hell does not over-flow, and the more cramped it becomes, the more hellish it truly is. Perhaps, at some point, it will be a daunting enough punishment so as to deter these "mundanes" into a more truly mundane activity.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

Then I will continue to badger you until you seek to improve yourself.

[She'll play that Br'er Rabbit game if it means you actually become better.]

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

Mmm...

[Thinking about it.

Okay, thought about it.]

Denied.

I'll endeavor to become worse and worse. We'll see who stops first.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

I exist - both in and out of this "muse space" - in order for humans to improve their lives. Perhaps my mundane actively sought out such things.

Souls are not situational.

[anonasu]

So is his soul so "irreparably black" if he recognizes his faults and wants to change himself?

See, I'd counter with "souls don't actually exist" because that's the way I see it, but it's all subjective.

[judgement_in_monochrome]

...I have seen you walk that path before, Yakumo.

We - even if it was a different incarnation of myself than is speaking now - broke at roughly the same point, and it was pleasant for nobody except these mundanes.

Do you really want to give them that satisfaction again?

[judgement_in_monochrome]

A bit of hyperbole is an effective tool in getting one to desire to change their ways. Nothing is irreversible, though there is, truly, very little I can suggest that would be listened to.

[paleofcourage]

[...That gets a surprisingly bitter laugh in return; that hit a sore spot.] The only reason I fought...for my ideals was because I was supposedly 'the only one' who could do it. I just hit the point that I couldn't turn back from; I'm far from determined, mam.

[Though Shiro manages a smile.] Like being outright uncooperative? I exercise that resistance often.

Maybe. They wouldn't want to be associated with truly evil people, in a place where the one in charge knows every weakness. That's what each level of hell is for, isn't it?

[endless_clouds_of_violet]

Of course. Perhaps this time I won't just be able to leave that ship. Perhaps this time I can leave entirely and go home for good.

I may have lost, but you got the short end of the stick~

[anonasu]

Why do you say that? I doubt advice would be ignored if advice is sought in the first place. It's like buying food because you're hungry and then refusing to eat it.