Looking for games, voicetesting (X-posed to dear_player)

[colorful_distractions]

Turn off the punk music, dude, or I'm out already. Punk is for rebels-without-a-clue who need to reaffirm their independence through false pretensions of toughness and masculinity that ultimately result in a codependent need for validation via their subculture.

[The fact that Joey said all that in one breath probably has a lot to do with her rapid-fire, clear enunciation and steady tone; clearly, she's had to give speeches before, and equally evident is her disdain for having to do so. Adjusting one of the many, many bracelets on her arms, she fidgets slightly with mostly-concealed nerves, waits for the music to change to something she can use to focus her own thoughts as well as drown out the less useful ones.]

Right. So, I'm not sure pointing out why I don't want this personally would work. Instead I'm gonna go with trying to be logical: what games need a technomancer? Now narrow that initial search's results by 'would allow OCs' and 'wouldn't drive me right over the edge'. I need my music, my beads, all that stuff that I use to unwind, or I start making poor decisions. I certainly can't go anywhere without computers since then I go from a loser with a skill that makes me worthwhile to that chick with too much hair dye and no people skills.

Besides, I have a helping-people-thing. Call it a complex if you want. I mean, I wouldn't, brosef, but you've gone ahead and called everything else I do an escapist complex or a coping mechanism or other fancy terms utilized to attempt to cover up your vast lack of knowledge of the psychological and sociological phenomena that make up my life. I need to be useful or no dice. I've made some bad decisions in my life - glitch-hop, anyone? - but I always make it a point to crash and burn the bad guys. It's all I've got to get me out of bed in winter when the live show season dries up, y'know?

Get it for me or get out of my face. I've got a new DJ Kutski set to listen to.

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[destinedheir]

Try to canonically be the greatest threat against both good and bad with powers my Mun says makes me too "OP". Any way, technomacy? As in manipulating technology?

[colorful_distractions]

Yeah, my mun's first ideas for me involved a lot more powers and shit, dude, it was obnoxious. I'm better off as I am now. Technomancy may be one of those things that's a long story to explain to people the how's and why's of, but it's natural to me, almost like breathing, and you'd be surprised how much good can be when tech responds to your thoughts. I know it's not the greatest superpower out there, but it's not nothing, you know?

[destinedheir]

My powers is as natural as breathing to me aswell. Though said powers caused quite some trouble for my mother and aunts. I'm familiar with technomacy myself. My active power allows me to imitate all sorts of powers. It's only limited by my imagination.

[colorful_distractions]

Powers always cause problems, mostly because, well, we're still people and people are flawed, so our application of powers to situations are going to be flawed as well. [She shrugs, not willing to get into her own family life and instead focusing on his rather massive-sounding powerset.] Dude, your powers sound exhausting. How do you even deal with having that many options crawling around in your head all the time? So glad right now I've only got the one thing.

[destinedheir]

It's important to be raised correctly so you know how to properly use your powers. Something my mother taught me well. She and her sisters carry a similar weight to mine. Their experience is far greater however. They know the consequences of bad descions.

I tend to limit myself to just a couple of powers. Though it's handy to be able to use powers suitable for the situation. I was more reckless when I was a kid than now. [Chris would argue that he still is reckless.]

[colorful_distractions]

You can learn from people outside your family, too, even people without powers. Everyone's got baggage, made mistakes, had things go sideways. So everyone has some insight. We're all living with some bad calls, no matter what our abilities. That's why it's important people look after each other.

Dude, everyone was reckless as a kid. That's part of being a kid.

[destinedheir]

Learn from people sure. But I can't be honest about my powers. Normal people tend to react badly when you tell them you're a witch. As is the consequences of my bad descions greater. [There's that Bad Future when he ruled the Underworld after all and murdered his brother's fiancee.]

Most kids doesn't summon dragons or make their parents shrink to keep them safe. Oh and it was that time I swapped my pregnant mother and my father's powers. Which lead to my dad experiencing pregnancy...

[colorful_distractions]

Normal people remind us of how fragile life can really be and how precious it is. If you keep that in mind while using your powers, you'll be alright. [It's what she does. It's why she hasn't given up - the knowledge that people aren't indestructible, that they don't have her kind of defense against things, and yet they go out and live life anyway in defiance of that. Human beings are precious, wonderful, enduring things, and Joey knows it's cliche, but to exist normally is, in its' own way, inspiring to her.]

I repeat: I am so, so glad I don't have your powerset. Because wow, that sounds like a lot to deal with. If you ever get a therapist, they'll have to write whole new psychology textbooks to cover that, bro.

[destinedheir]

It is what I do everyday, keep people safe from demons and the like. It's my duty, passed down since Melinda Warren. As the Twice-Blessed child and heir of Excalibur it's my destiny to be a beacon of light.

Trouble is that I can't tell a therapist about it. That said, it would probably help. Being attacked by demons every other week is exhausting.

[colorful_distractions]

Sounds like a lot of pressure. I mean, I try to help people, but it was my own choice, not a duty-forced thing. [Much as she barely knows the guy, she knows it's a lot of pressure to feel like you have to do something, enough to know that his situation is more weighty and heavy than hers.]

You could parse your words, see if you could get a therapist and just rephrase the hardest to swallow bits of it. Nobody should be going through this alone.

[destinedheir]

With these powers and our family history it came naturally. Carrying the destiny put on me by the Angels of Destiny is heavy but not something I mind carrying. Of course I could chose not to, but then Innocents would suffer and it would be a slippy slope down to the other side. It keeps you humble.

I guess I could. But I'd say the best people to help me is in my intimate family. They have been through this before.

[colorful_distractions]

[She has her doubts it kept him humble; it would have been much easier for him to introduce himself as someone who had powers as well instead of someone with powers and a family who also had powers and a destiny and a title. Humble people rarely go into their pedigree during their first conversation with someone. Experience, however, has taught her that there's no way to bring that up without it going awry.] Seems a little like emotional repression not to ever mind the pressure of things. Though I guess I'm the last person who should really comment on facing reality.

It's worth a shot. If you do in fact mind the curveballs life has thrown at you, I mean. Besides, you don't want to overload your family. They've got their own lives to tend to.

[destinedheir]

[His brother Chris would certainly agree that the powers and title hardly kept Chris humble. Overconfident and a big ego was perhaps more likely. But at least he wasn't evil in this incarnation. In his eyes though, speaking of his family, the Charmed Ones, would put her mind more at ease that he wouldn't go off the rails despise the pressure. Cos that turned out horribly for everyone involved after all. Not that he remembers it. ]
Perhaps. I wouldn't say I'm repressed. But it's daunting, especially when people close to me is put at risk. [For a brief moment his look turns dark.] You have to find ways to compensate.

My family has stood by me through all of this. I don't think they'd mind. After all life threw curveballs at them too. [Eight seasons of curveballs... Plus one or two virtual ones.]

[gonnamissme]

Nice hair. Also what's "technomacy"?

[colorful_distractions]

I know all about balancing things like this. You never quite get used to it. But it gets easier. [At least she's developed coping mechanisms she can take with her wherever she goes and a way to let the stress melt off regularly. It took her a long time to find the balance, but now that she has it, she doesn't need to lean on anyone, be it family or friends, to keep going when things get tough. She only needs her music and her conviction to soldier on through the worst of things.]

And when you get seperated from them, either by circumstance or by your mun's whims, then what? If you rely on them for so much, then without them, you might not be able to stand on your own with any real stability.

[colorful_distractions]

Thanks, it took forever to get right. Never do this stuff on your own, man. Stains everywhere.

Technomancy is basically controlling technology via your mind. Although it's more like I talk to machines and they do things for me, sometimes. Depends on how sophisticated a computer or program is.

[gonnamissme]

Personally I went to a professional. They didn't sell any pink hair dye in my local. Just boring colors like red, brown or platina blonde. Kudos to you for dying it yourself. Must have taken ages.

Ooooh that sounds fun. So you can like tell a computer to bring up your grades and it does that? Sounds nifty.

[colorful_distractions]

I ordered the dye online and looked up tutorials. It took longer than even I'm willing to admit. But it really does brighten the day up, you know? Totally worth it.

If I did that the humans operating the computer would still notice. You've gotta be more subtle than that with it. Unless the person whose tech you're fiddling with is a jackass who has it coming, then you can just go nuts.

[destinedheir]

I'm 25. I can take care of myself. [He sounds almost offended at that. He didn't mean he leaned that much on his family. (Though he still lives in the mansion with his brother.)]

I have ways to work through it. [Like putting his anger into blowing up demons. Kinda like his mother.] I look after people, help them if needed.

[gonnamissme]

I didn't think of that.

Well I guess that's kinda expected. Still sounds really interesting to be able to do that.

[colorful_distractions]

Age is usually pretty irrelevant to someone's emotional development and independence, honestly, especially when you factor in oddities like powersets. I don't know if the standard grading rubric for people holds for those of us who have these kinds of quirks. [Though internally, she does wonder what she'll be like at twenty-five. She'll probably still be in her own apartment, working the same job, lying to people that her parents pay for everything in order to keep from having to talk about her job, obsessing over music in her downtime.]

Uh-huh. And if you're all about looking after other people, your Plan B is your family, and your powers prevent you from reaching out a therapist, when do you have downtime to just chill and be yourself? Y'know, grab some friends, go dancing, have some drinks and take stupid selfies? Normal stuff?

[colorful_distractions]

The internet: if you can think of it, there'a tutorial out there for it already.

It can be. Sometimes you really don't want to know what's on someone's computer, though. And the first time I tried connecting my consciousness to the internet I passed out from a very literal case of information overload.

[destinedheir]

My mother made sure I got an as normal upbringing as possible, despise frequent demon attacks. [He replies surly and crosses his arms. You're hurting his ego here.]

I make my time for normal stuff. Like a job and friends. [Though yes, it isn't always easy. But he's working on being connected to both the magical and mundane world, just like those before him.] Just because I have other responsibilities it doesn't mean I have no stability. Witches like me are just like normal people. A mundane therapist can't fathom my life.

[colorful_distractions]

If demon attacks were involved, then I'm gonna be the cloud behind the silver lining and say there wasn't anything normal about it at all, dude. [Normalizing trauma was one way of dealing with it, but personally she'd never had much use for it, preferring instead to admit it was messed up so she could complain about it properly to her scant few friends that were close enough for her to be honest with.

She reached down into the pockets of her black cargo pants, pulling out a Gatorade to drink, sighing slightly.] See, that's the real issue right there: dividing the world into the mundane people who can't possibly ever deal with your shit, even though you've never given them a chance, and the secondary better group of people you place yourself in. I really hope you don't get put into a game or something, because that separate-and-unequal thing really doesn't work out well in contexts where you don't have other people to back you up on it. Ugh, it's like I'm talking to middle-school me minus the hair dye. The point is, therapy really doesn't work if you're on an ego trip, witch or human or AI or macro-sapient lifeform or what have you.

[destinedheir]

As normal as possible under the circumstances.

Ever heard of the Salem Witch Trials? That's what happens if witches are open about their craft. If that's nit enough I know heard several more recent stories about how bad things can go. But no, this isn't a Harry Potter world. If we wanna pay for heat and energy we do have to interact with the normal world. Heck most of the people we save are just average people. But it's dangerous to tell too many people.

I don't see why I couldn't. My brother was in a game and besides getting too many Charges he was doing okay. Just that in my world, you can't be too careful.