On it being THAT day

[chiefdefense]

You know you really don't need to go using up your data allowance just to- oh look you're doing it anyway. That's really thoughtful, going to all this trouble just to commemorate a day I really wish had never happened. Or is happening. Or... oh great, now we're looking at a time paradox.

See, I told you not to post something, now you've gone cross eyed.

Well, when you can focus again, I'll be over here looking at crash helmets on eBay.

[...Not that it will help me anyway.]

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[chiefdefense]

So am I.

How are you holding up, handsome?

[ask a stupid question]

[beenwaitinglong]

Same as always. Hardly at all.

[chiefdefense]

Come here.

[are those her arms opening up for a hug? I think so.]

[beenwaitinglong]

[Thank heavens for this weird alternate-reality space here where this is even possible.

He's silent, and just breathes as he holds her for a minute.]

It's harder and harder to find reasons to get up every day.

I know you'd want me to, so I do.

[chiefdefense]

Then that's one reason, isn't it? And then there's the coffee, that's two.

[but she does know, she knows too well]

It does get easier, I promise. It never goes away but you just... You learn to get better at living with it.

[beenwaitinglong]

It's so hard to believe that sometimes. When all I have is hollowness and pain, it's impossible to imagine anything else ahead.

Well... Not impossible, I guess. Just beyond me, it seems.

[chiefdefense]

Then do all the things we said we'd do together but didn't get round to. Take pictures, come share them with Maya and Pearl and Phoenix. They're my family, let them be yours too, let them give you something else to look forward to.

You've got a whole lot of living left to do, don't waste a second of it, you hear?

That's an order.