Rambling Marie on RL and Game Stuff. /Also posted on Dear_Player

[reluctantaccessory]

I'm...I'm sorry. I know it's sad, but you have to remember the good things. There were a lot of them, right? Many.

No, wait...

Countless.

But, you shouldn't blame yourself for anything that happened, okay? You didn't cause anything to happen. It just did. No one saw it coming. No one. Also... You shouldn't push yourself to do anything if you aren't ready for it.

("There's a lot of things you shouldn't do right now, but I have the feeling you're just going to do them anyway." She internally sighs. "In some ways, you are so much like him, mun. Some ways.")

Take your time. Let everyone know you need some time first, but take it one hour at a time if you have to... (A pause then a shake of the head.)

Don't worry about me. I'm...on my own again, but it is not like I can't take care of myself or anything. I could do it before everything, I can do it again. (A gentle smile.) I mean, it's not what I wanted, but...it's just how it went. I can't do anything about it now. I'll just go on my way - besides, I'm not good at the long term. I thought that was obvious.

Just take care of yourself. I am going to be honest here, you are awful at it.

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[garmentgoddess]

Is your mun all right?

[reluctantaccessory]

Not really, if I'm being honest. (She frowns.) Someone in her family passed away.

[garmentgoddess]

Oh no! I'm sorry to hear that.

[reluctantaccessory]

Yeah, it was sudden, but... (Marie shakes her head, she looks a bit sad herself.) But, I was just reminding her that the good times...well, there was a lot of them and that she should remember and hold onto them.

Maybe I'm being insensitive, but she's brooding and kicking herself over it and she knows better than that.

And well, well...I guess I'm just saying that I think my mun should take a step back and take things one step at a time instead of brooding. We can all only go forward.

[garmentgoddess]

Well, grief is healthy. But so is thinking of the good times. There has to be a way to balance the two.

[reluctantaccessory]

A balance? (She pauses.) I'm going to be honest with you, I don't think I've ever really grieved before...so...maybe there is, but I wouldn't know it.

[garmentgoddess]

Well...let's see. [She thinks for a moment]

What's something she liked doing with the person? Maybe she could do that as a celebration of their time together.

[reluctantaccessory]

(It takes her a moment of thought.)

Well, I guess walking around?

[garmentgoddess]

Taking a walk can be nice. Maybe she could plant some trees somewhere too.

[reluctantaccessory]

Planting trees?

Maybe. It's worth thinking about.

[garmentgoddess]

(Sorry for dropping the thread. I figured I'd speak mun to mun here. How are you doing?)

[reluctantaccessory]

(In all honesty? Not wonderful and I really wish this wasn't the case. Work has been awful, a friend of mine/mother figure may have cancer now, etc. I basically just dropped the one game I was in because I seriously just can't focus on it right now and I'm pretty sure two RP friends dropped me over that and the fact I've been a stressed mess since the start of the year (with it getting worse). But, at least, I found out I'm getting a puppy the Saturday after this.

I seriously appreciate that you checked in on me, though. No one really asks all that often if I'm okay.

I seriously hope you're doing much better.)

[garmentgoddess]

(Puppy! There's something to look forward to! Have you thought of names?)

[reluctantaccessory]

(Thinking about it still. I think I will have to actually meet/pick her up in order to really be able to give her one. Leaning towards Maggie or Ginny right now.)

[garmentgoddess]

[That's adorable! My dad has a dog named Chauncey, which is such a needlessly stuffy name for such a hyper dog]

[reluctantaccessory]

(Sorry the delay. We did get the puppy yesterday and her name is Lexi (more after Alexis Castle from Castle because oh my god this little one is smart.))

[garmentgoddess]

(Oh that's great! What kind of puppy?)