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Please... please don't do this, mun. I... I don't want think about it anymore. I don't want you to either. Just... [his eyes start watering barely able to speak anymore. his head would shake trying his best to finish his train of thought.] ...please... [his voice barely made it above a whisper. he couldn't even finish.]

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I'M SO SORRY

[notaafraidanymore]

[She's just going to stand there in silence. This was one of the many damn reasons she was so cold to the boy, one of the many reasons she didn't won't him to grow so attatched because she knew how his story was going to end, tragically. She didn't want to lose yet another child, another child she fought so hard to protect, a child she loved so evily ripped away by the horrors of the world.

Her heart couldn't take another loss, so she was became cold in a way but that didn't make it hurt any less.

Like the girls he was just another child to the list she just couldn't save]

;; my heart!

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[he has a feeling he's no longer alone. something...someone was possibly here with him. he'd raise his arm to wipe his eyes with his sleeve. to try to wipe away all of the ubstopable tears that just kept coming. eyes looked up both curious and afraid while giving a sniffle as if it was at all possible to hide his emotions.]

...C-Carol...? [is that really you? his voice trailed in disbelief hardly able to tell what was real anymore. the new world was hard enough to imagine without thinking about how things would be afterwords.]

I just THESE TWO!!!

[notaafraidanymore]

[Her expression is emotionless as she stands there, she has to be. If she doesn't remain cold then all of that guilt will come rushing in and those kind of things make you weak, it gets you killed.

She can't go back there.

But those tears, those broken, scared sobs is enough to make her heart break. The heart that use to be a mother. ]

Stop that... [she tells him firmly but there is a bit of softness in her voice as she decides to move a bit closer to the poor boy]

so much love for this CR

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[his eyebrows furrow a bit hearing that. he wanted to...tried to...he just wasn't strong enough. even at the tender age he was he felt so much guilt and pain. he wanted to be brave and to be able to stop everything. he thought he could...]

Carol... [Sam would repeat the woman's name again trying to force back a quiver in his bottom lip, trying to force back the lump in his throat to simply swallow this pain. her words...]

...what you said... [this time his bottom lip would quiver. he was just a time bomb of emotions waiting to explode.] you... [fresh tears began to fill his eyes again causing him to sniffle some more.] you were... [his brows furrowed more and both arms rushed to wipe away those stupid tears. he wanted to say it...he just couldn't.]

I love these two so much I just can't!

[notaafraidanymore]

[There was a sudden twig of pain that stabbed deep at her heart. She didn't want to hear him mutter those horrific words and it took everything she had not to just yell at the poor child in order to get him to shut up. Her words had meant to be a story and just that. Just something to scare him, get him away from her.

It had done more than scare the poor boy, it got him killed. That was a death like so many that would weigh ever so heavy on her already broken heart. Another death that would most likely haunt her and drown her in guilt.

This was her fault or at least to her it was]

S-sh [She closes her eyes and stops herself]

Shhh.. [She whispers as she kneels down to him. Before she even had time to stop herself a hand was reaching out to brush back some of his fallen tears]

same

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[he feels her touch. it feels so real...it has to be. this was just the extra push to break down the barrier he'd been trying to create. instinctively the boy would make a move to wrap his arms around her to practically cling onto the woman. he couldn't hold back his tears anymore as he began to sob.] ...I w-wasn't b-brave...

The feels!!!! *cries*

[notaafraidanymore]

[She wasn't expecting him to suddenly throw his small arms around her, cling to her as if she of all people were his last saving grace. The woman who's words costed him his young, innocent life or had they?

Her body was quick to tense but after a moment she moves to keep his trembling body against her]

Shhh... [She tries to whisper again but the guilt is quick to hit her again]

It's done now.

cries with you~

[recordplayer]

[Sam vied for Carol's approval for so long, tried to get her to like him and even after her words. the fact she was here and possibly the first one to be able to hear him since the whole thing happened was just overwhelming. he wanted mom so badly, even saw the woman as another one, or at least hoped for it. he needed to feel, literally. mother's touch, and Carol was just as close to having a mother as there was right now. he'd take comfort where he could. he needed this oh so much.

he'd lift his head to try to look at her, try to believe her... but it only brought more guilt. the words done...]

The monsters... [he was still literally shaken from it. horrified at what happened.] ...M-mom... Ron... [there are a few more sniffles before he's able to continue.] ...have you seen them?

Seriously the death broke my heart

[notaafraidanymore]

[That was just the problem, she couldn't allow herself to like him as much as she failed. She couldn't allow herself to get attached only to have him ripped away grom her like the other children she held dear had been.

But he had been ripped away anyhow. Like the others he was taken so brutally, so tragically. A death a child certainly didn't deserve. She would glance down at him, still coated in the fresh blood from where she had helped hack the monsters he spoke of]

There is always going to be monsters, Sam. Not just those kind.

[Her eyes then soften slightly but she shakes her head]

I've seen your mom around here once. Back home she's gone, as is your brother.

[burningdaylight]

Whoa, whoa... easy, kid. Whatever's goin' on, s'gon' be okay... [Mun just nudged him in Sam's direction and he can't say he's too sure as to why. But it doesn't feel right doing nothing when the kid's freaking out and on the edge of tears.]

so sorry for the delay!

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[Sam's body immediately tensed hearing someone else here with him. someone...he wasn't familiar with at all. he'd raise an arm to try to quickly wipe away the tears with his sleeve, trying to stop the slightly blurred vision from his tear-filled eyes.]

Who...who are you? [he spoke nervously.]

no worries

[burningdaylight]

My name's Luke, aaaan' I'm guessin' my mun's brought me here 'cause I know about them walkers. [Mun whispers the situation into his ear before pulling back, Luke's expression shifting from wide-eyed surprise to a soft, apologetic look.] ...Jesus. Right, well... had to march through a herd myself. Wasn't much fun, I'll tell you that. Takes a lot a' guts, doin' what you did back there.