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You sure you want to do this, kiddo?

We both know you haven't had the best of luck with my kind. Not because you'll want to defang me, I know that, but everyone else will want you to, and you'll cave. You always do sooner or later.

But if you can promise not to pull your punches because you're worried about what other people might think, you know I'll do what has to be done, and in that case we'll get along fine.

Maybe you should look for a game for me, though, you know what happens when I get bored. I know it's not the kind of thing you usually do, but something small and quiet where even you can keep up and my cover won't be blown right away? Could work. Think about it.

And thanks for not trying to be clever with the username. Simple is better.

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What exactly is your 'kind'? Evil? Selfish? Psychotic? I'd love to hear about it.

I prefer 'ambitious', but those work too, if that's how you want to see it.

Didn't think there was any other way. 'Insane' is a good one too. 'Delusional' is a personal favourite of mine.

[he just nods, patiently waiting this out.]

Everyone sees the world, and other people, the way they want to. Even me.

Are you... Are you trying to get sympathy from me? Like you're some tragic bloody hero or misunderstood? Seriously?

No. Not even close. I know I burned that bridge a long time ago.

[He might have been, a little, but he mostly knows better.]

Yeah, you really did. You've hurt a lot of people who thought they could call you a friend... guess we've learned our lesson, haven't we?

I'm curious what lesson you think that is.

[The stress on the word is barely there, but there all the same.]

[ Oh. Well. He hadn't actually thought that far ahead. He swallows and takes a breath. ]

To be careful about the people we trust. We could have been a team. But you... you ruined that. You ruined everything.

Good. Means you learned the right lesson.

[ That does a pretty good job of shutting him up. At least for a moment before he shakes his head. ]

No. You don't trust anyone. Me, and the people I trust? I hold onto them because I know they won't betray me like you did. I looked up to you once, and you spat in my faceand tried to kill me and my best friend.

I might not trust many people anymore thanks to you, but I'm not letting go of the people I do.

[A narrow little twitch of a smile, blink and you'll miss it.]

How is that not what I just said? You learned the right lesson. Hard, sure, but you learned.

[ He frowns, almost intensely concerned. ]

How is that-... I miss trusting people, Ward. I'm not sure a lot of people liked me, but I liked them just fine. Now I can't help but think everyone's a bloody sleeper agent out to get me and dump me in the ocean.

How is that better?

Now you're just taking it to the extreme.

But that aside, you'll live longer.

To the extreme?! I thought you were my friend. If you were willing to do that, God knows what strangers might do.

You ruined me.

[And have a barely-there both-brows-lifting expression.]

And yet you're still arguing about it. Still fighting it. Hate to break it to you, but that's not the kind of thing ruined people do.

[ Fitz sighs. ]

You're right.. it's what desperate people do when all they want is things back to normal.

'Normal' is always in flux. You've got a new normal now, same as you'll have a new one next year, next month, hell, you'll have a different version of normal tomorrow than you do today.

My definition of Normal was working just fine until you came along. Nothing feels... safe anymore. I'm not like you.. I can't handle the danger and the high stress. I like things safe.

things haven't been safe for a long time. Thanks.

World's a dangerous place, Fitz.

[That's really all he has to say on the matter.]

...Didn't used to be. Not this bad.

Sure it did. You just didn't know it before.

There's a lot of truth to the saying 'ignorance is bliss'.

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