dear_mun | On joining nexus_sages Canon is until Dawn

You have much to answer for, if nothing else, Joshua.

Yeah. They mentioned it was you.

The voices did. New ones. Shiny.

None of this would have found you if you'd listened to me! But you knew best, didn't you? Your plan was the only way to make them pay, wasn't it?

Well, duh.

That's because you're nuts and putting scarecrows and shit in the room wasn't exactly helping. Sadistic bastard.

You really still believe that-...

[He huffs through his nose, annoyed. But soon coaches a smile onto his face.]

Sometimes a shock to the system is the best motivator, hm?

And yet, when I do that to motivate someone it's 'cruel and unusual'.

[Wow those air quotes are obnoxious.]

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You weren't going for motivation in anyone and you know it, Joshua.

It was teaching someone a lesson. Isn't that what you always talk about? learning to feel what other people feel?

Are you really still rationalizing it? After all that? After everything you put them through?

Our reunion will be a spectacular one, I'll say that much. We have so much to catch up on.

You have to live it to feel it.

Have to live it to hear them in your head. They're talking. Don't you hear it? I'm just giving them a voice again.

[Dr. Hill sighs.]

You're not well, Joshua.

You're the one who wished for me back, Doc.

I'd say the one who isn't well...is you.

And here I had been talking about repairing regrets and the fruitlessness of it.

You are my greatest regret, Joshua, much like I am yours. Heaven knows neither of us are complete without the other.

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brother_alone - 2016-01-05 04:17 (UTC) - Expand

Looks like a weird place, dude.

[Put on your sane face, Josh. Friends are here! The best one, even!]

Yeah, well. We can't always meet up at the family cabin, right?

[ Give him a little bit of credit. Chris should at least be a little bit more intuitive at this point. ]

Ha. [ There's a weak laugh at that, and a crooked smile that quickly falters. ] Yeah, totally - gotta find new places too hang sometimes, even if it's some weird nexus place.

[Chris was the one who knew about his meds. This much is true.]

At least its safe there. Something something no violence.

[Kind of nice that Chris still would talk to him after...After.]

And it's away. From them.

[ "Them" could allude to a number of meanings, but he doesn't ask Josh to specify. He only nods to convey that whatever his friend is talking about, Chris has some understanding. ]

Better than a lot of places you could get sent to here, too. [ The edges of his mouth quirk upwards into the lightest smile - sincere, this time. ] Maybe I'll pop in. Can't let you have all the fun to yourself.

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Listen..I--

[There's a vague look of guilt on his face.]

I'm not..okay. Still. And there's a new voice. Telling me what to do. Where to go.

Since you're one of the few people I give a damn about...I thought...I should tell you.

That's kinda the norm around here if it makes you feel any better. [ Though he gets how that could really screw with Josh. ]

Thanks for telling me anyways. Seriously, it's cool that you, uh- still trust me. [ Maybe it sounds odd that Chris is the one saying that, but he's got his own guilt weighing down on his shoulders. ] And whenever I'm around, I'll be here for you, man. You know, to make sure you're okay.

How easily you forget, Chris.

Do I, uh, know you?

Don't you dare you sick fuck.

Chris, ignore him. Don't listen to him. Wait...you can see him?

[Well, that's a lesson in reality warping Josh didn't need right now.]

He's my problem, not yours.

Yeah, I can see him. [ Cue the confusion and concern. ] Who the hell is he?

Doc 'oh you're scared of spiders here let me fill this room with spiders'. And then bitching at me for doing what he tells me and insisting it's different when he does it.

[That's not the real Dr. Hill, Josh. That's not your therapist. Can't you tell the difference anymore? No? Well then.]

For not liking my 'game' idea so much, he sure was having fun doing it to me...