voicetesting! Spoilers for the midseason finale likely in comments.

[jessieanderson]

It is frustrating. I know that. Having to wait all that time to see what happens. And I know it's not likely that you're going to like what happens next. But, hey. It's the world we live in, right? And I guess sometimes, it's not enough to pretend to be brave.

But maybe we're onto something here. Maybe we can find a place to just have a normal life. It doesn't hurt to hope for some kind of future, does it?

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[becauseichooseto]

Hope is an essential part of the battle.

[jessieanderson]

Sometimes, it seems that's all we have left. Hope. But what happens when you lose even that?

[becauseichooseto]

Hope has a way of coming back when you least expect it.

[jessieanderson]

That's an optimistic way of looking at things. Maybe you're the voice I need to hear.

[becauseichooseto]

I hope I am.

[jessieanderson]

So what is it you do? Around here? Do you have a 'place' or are you just kind of here. Like me?

[burningdaylight]

Y'know, after what I been told... what you folks have goin' where you're at is the closest thing to normal, like, actual-normal [--and not normal for this world--] I heard about in a long time.

[jessieanderson]

And now that's pretty much gone, too.

[ She offers an undulating smile before mentally berating herself for the negativity. It's not gone. Yet. ]

I'm sorry. I don't know what sort of world you come from -- if it's ours or something similar. But you're right. What we had was the closest to normal there is. We were fortunate to have lived so well for so long.

And now, things will just change.

What's it like where you're at?

[burningdaylight]

[His brow knits in sympathy.]

Same as what you got around your walls. Lurkers, bandits... ain't much else out there.

[jessieanderson]

[ That's just the world now, isn't it? It seems so bleak and hopeless. ]

So what is it that keeps you going?

[burningdaylight]

Jus' tryin' to keep my friends safe an' together. An' wantin' to believe that there's still more to life than this... somethin' better out there, for the kids at least. [He shrugs, his gaze heavy and dark.] Without hope... what else do any of us got?

[notaafraidanymore]

There isn't such things as a normal life now.

The CR I have longed for since the show gypped us of this! ;A;

[jessieanderson]

Maybe not there.

[ That's still a little optimistic, isn't it? Maybe. ]

I mean, definitely not there. But here? Isn't there a chance we could find someplace? A chance at a real future?

Sooooo many feels for this season!

[notaafraidanymore]

[Carol has longed stopped believing that any kind of place here or there is actually safe or worth living. No where really is, they always fall in the end don't they? ]

Do you believe that? Actually really believe that? After what's happened with Alexandria?

Ughh, I know. It's the best one yet.

[jessieanderson]

I don't really know what I believe anymore. But I know we have to believe in something. If we don't, then what's the point of even living anymore? If we don't have something to work toward...

[ She stops, trails off, and then shakes her head. ]

This can't be it.

It has broken my heart so much. I seriously have been wanting a Sam, haha.

[notaafraidanymore]

[She gives a bit of a look at that comment]

Work towards? [Her voice goes a bit harden] You work towards keep yourself alive every day! I don't know about you but right now I could give a damn about a future because right now is what we have and personally I'm tired of people dying...

I don't want anyone else to die and I'm gonna do whatever I have to in order to make sure that happens.

You want a future? A safe place to live and be normal? No. Such places don't exist anymore. Someone orsomething is always going to come and its going to want to kill you...

[She takes s step closer]

Or Sam...

That's what you've got to be concerned about. "Work towards" Staying alive!

[recordplayer]

M-mom?

omg! I love you <3

[jessieanderson]

Sam!

[ Jessie was pretty sure that being here, she was never going to see her sons again. So this is the best sort of surprise. ]

Hey, sweetie. I'm here.

♥ I'm so happy to see a Jessie!

[recordplayer]

[Truth was, Sam wasn't sure how he got here or if it really was his mom here too. He was scared and stood frozen in place hoping this wasn't some kind of trick. It wasn't until he heard her voice his face lit up. It was the closest to a full fledged smile he's had in a long time.]

Mom! [His body jerked forward to instinctively run to her but couldn't muster enough confidence to do so. He pulled back thinking for a moment. Music started to faintly play in his head as the words 'Hey, sweetie. I'm here.' echoed over the song. He felt his eyes shut and then open again, blinking, and just like that the music stopped.]

Mom...what...where is this place? [a pause.] ...are we...safe?

>( I was pretty mad at what they did to her in canon, so I was like 'damnit! I'll fix it with RP!!'

[jessieanderson]

[ The distance, the uncertainty -- all of it was still haunting Sam. He would still be upstairs right now, refusing to take a single step down into the world that changed. It broke her heart because she couldn't do more for him. But she could fill in his missing steps. She could bend down to his level and scoop him into her arms.

And that was exactly what she did. Jessie pulled him flush against her, one hand on the back of his head and the other resting on the small of his back. ]

We're safe. [ And she echoed it, just to reassure herself: ] We're safe. There are no monsters here. It's just us. So you don't have to be afraid anymore, okay?

There ya go! RP fixes everything.

[recordplayer]

((ooc: because the subject fields hate me. lol I don't know what they're smoking over there with some of the things they change around. I feel for ya. And OMG your post hit me hard in the feelers. ;v;))

[Sam was very much still afraid — haunted. The monsters, his father, the killing...and then time just stopped for a moment. Mom was getting closer, in reach, and then he was in her arms, safe. He immediately wrapped his arms around her as tight as he could. His hands gripped slightly against her shirt as he burried his head in her shoulder. Her voice was clear as day and able to reach him. For in that moment, the monsters went away.]

Mom... [Sam's voice trailed on the verge of tears.] Can...can it be like this forever? Are we...are we safe from now on? [His voice was so full of hope wanting this more than anything.]

[112ounces]

It doesn't hurt to hope whatsoever.

[jessieanderson]

From my understanding, that's something you and your father found. I'm happy for you, Carl.

[112ounces]

Thank you. But it's not hopeless for you. You'll find a place, I know you will. You'll carve out your own place, your own identity, even if it is hard.

[jessieanderson]

When you go on to say things like that, it's practically impossible to believe you and Ron are the same age.

[ It was so insightful and optimistic. ]