So many emotions....

[notaafraidanymore]

I really don’t think now is the time to be having this conversation with the state of mind we’re both in but I know you’re very upset and angry, so am I. I don’t know what you want me to say, what you want me to do but I do have things I want to say and I know you and maybe someone else ain’t going to like it. What happened is weighing heavy on my mind and heart. The deal and exchange wasn’t suppose to go that way and it wasn’t right. It wasn’t right at all but that’s how it goes isn’t it? The good and the pure don’t get to live? I know you’re also getting very upset and very angry about what people are saying and writing about me. How they wished it was me that had died, say I deserved it. They keep saying that she was so pure, so innocent and that Daryl needed her. I understand that, I didn’t want her to die, I don’t want anyone to die but maybe it would have been easier on everyone if it were me instead? Now I’m not saying that I WANT to die but my cold soul for a bright one?

You know I was foolish to think that maybe everything was going to turn out all right. That all of us would get out of that damn hospital and be well on our way, like old times. Like a family. I don’t think we get that anymore, people aren’t good. They just aren’t. That’s why I do what I do. It just has to be done. Beth was a good girl. A good, sweet girl. They were all good, sweet girls.

I said it before and I’m going to say it again. I don’t think we get to save people anymore. I don't think I get to save people anymore...

Just another thing burned away.

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[gotjobstodo]

I wasn't that pure.

[notaafraidanymore]

[She gives a little broken smile]

You were pure enough. Strong and pure.