everyone needs more jimmy novaks tbh

[frompontiac]

I dunno. I really don't. On the one hand, I get to stay awake. That's... that's pretty rare for me. But on the other hand...well, you're still pulling the strings. And... look, you know me. You wouldn't be here if you didn't. You know I've got a... history with string pulling. I can't just take your word for it that things are gonna be alright.

But wherever I go, I get to decide. Is that fair? Can I get that much?

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[sagittaspei]

Hmmm... well, I'm not really sure what kind of things you've been through, but some places out there aren't so bad. You might be surprised!

[frompontiac]

Well, what's the scale on being 'not so bad'?

[sagittaspei]

Ah, well, let's see... the city I'm in right now isn't so bad most of the time, and I've also heard there's a place where you get to have real life Pokemon? That place doesn't sound so bad at all!

[frompontiac]

See, that's the thing. Most of the time doesn't mean all of the time. And sooner or later, there's gonna be a catch, if there isn't one already.

[sagittaspei]

[ she hums to herself. ]

Well, of course I'm not saying that it's great all of the time, and there have been some hard times that we've had to get through, but... can't you say that about anywhere, even if the circumstances aren't as weird?

[frompontiac]

The wheres don't matter. Hell, half the time, I'm not even awake for them. But the hows... the hows are always the same, and they don't get much better just because the place you're going to might be different this time.

[kingofheaven]

[Castiel actually shifts from foot to foot looking guilty.]

Things are not alright.

[frompontiac]

[wow guilt. that's a new one for you.]

Yeah, I know. Kinda hard to miss! What else've you got?

[kingofheaven]

What do you want me to say? I did not mean to betray your trust so deeply.

[frompontiac]

That... really doesn't make it any better. For your general Angelic knowledge.

[kingofheaven]

I have been told that yes I am still a bit of a dick as my mun puts it.

[frompontiac]

That's not how I'd put it, really.

[tough_sweet_sixteen]

Believe me, you don't get to decide.

Anything.

[frompontiac]

Believe me, this isn't the first time I've heard that. I... I gotta tell you, I almost wish it was. Then I wouldn't know what'll happen next.

[tough_sweet_sixteen]

Are you afraid?

[frompontiac]

Wouldn't you be?

[tough_sweet_sixteen]

Amazons fear nothing!

[Said as convincingly as a sixteen-year-old can say anything.]

[indecadence]

This is, uhm, pretty awkward - even for me. [ No point keeping it that way though, right? ] But the bright is that there never was one to begin with. Every decision you make is never right or wrong anymore.

[ There's a pause. He must be so high right now. ] Can you live with that?

[frompontiac]

[Oh god he can Feel the high coming off him from here.] Oh my g-- how stoned are you right now?! Am I in there, too, I don't-- I really didn't think a drug binge was on the table...

[Alright, get it together, Jimmy. Deep breath. Actually listen. Then talk.] I... I dunno. It's...I guess there's a lot I can live with. But I'm not sure how much this counts as living.

[indecadence]

No.

[ And that's the only answer he's going to get to that, whichever comment he'd like to apply it to anyway. It's weird talking to the face that's become his own like this, but it's not the first time strange things have happened. ]

You're you now. That's really all that matters when it comes down to it, and anyone who says otherwise doesn't know. I know. [ Castiel's eyes are a bit wide then. ] And you know. The rest is just... coincidence.

[ Now. What were they talking about again? ]

[frompontiac]

[He's... Weird. Very weird. Weird enough he's wondering if it isn't entirely down to drugs. Like something human and not something Beyond that.]

You know? I think I almost followed that. [Almost.] And being me again's gonna take some getting used to, I'll tell you that much. [You never know when he might be back. And the last time he was up and walking...

Well. Yeah.] There's worse things.

[indecadence]

[ Honestly, he's so far beyond that it's difficult to explain anymore. So, he doesn't bother with the explanation or the formalities. Castiel grins. ]

Much worse. [ It's a secret. He has to keep his mouth shut about it, which is why he half whispers it. ] But you should take the opportunity to know yourself better. I could help. [ He's gotten much better at that. ]

[wasbrave]

I hope she lets you, but I wouldn't count on it.

[frompontiac]

Yeah, I wouldn't either. But there's no harm in asking, right?

[wasbrave]

Not that I know of. I can't say I ended up in a place I hate, if that helps.