on loss of CR and ~*Boogeyman philosophy*~

[fearbringer]

I don't... miss them. Not in the way other characters you play would, anyway. That would require attachment, and that's something that I just don't do, because any immortal who lets themselves truly care about a mortal is either an idiot or a masochist. They were interesting to talk to-- and yes, in some cases, a good deal more nice to me than I'm used to. But lonely or not--

[-- and he is--]

-- you'd do well to remember that any desire for connection is a human influence on me. It isn't innate or central to my being; it's something to be overcome, not succumbed to. If I ever got to the point where I'm throwing myself at the feet of the first person to toss a few kind or sympathetic words in my direction, I'd want to be put out of my sad, pathetic misery.

And I'm not, nor have I ever been, anywhere near that point.

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[dogspelledbackward]

[Are you suuuuure?]

[fearbringer]

[SUP DOGBRO]

What do you want this time?

[dogspelledbackward]

['SUP UNWILLING FRIEND

He just admitted to being lonely. You think she's going to let him off so easily now?

Amaterasu whuffs, wagging her tail in a manner most unbefitting greeting the Nightmare King.]

[fearbringer]

Come on, I know you can write. Let's try some real communication.

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[Yaaaawn. Writing is so boring, though.]

Woof

[Why yes, she literally just wrote out the word "woof."]

[fearbringer]

[Okay fine that was kind of funny. BUT HE'S NOT GOING TO ADMIT THAT.]

I can just walk away, you know.

[dogspelledbackward]

'You said you were lonely'

[See? She catches these things.]

[fearbringer]

Did you pick out one of the more unimportant parts of all that because you didn't understand the rest, or were you just looking for an excuse to make me your charity case?

[dogspelledbackward]

[The first step to working through your problems is to admit you have them.]

'connections are not a weakness' [And no one said you had to throw yourself at the feet of anyone. Hell, Ammy would be downright weirded out if he did.]

[fearbringer]

Forming a connection with someone who's going to die in the blink of an eye is just asking for trouble. I'm shocked that there are still spirits who do it.

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[To this, Amaterasu wags her tail. Pitch, you're saying this to a deity whose entire schtick is boundless love for all things great and small. She's powered by connections with mortals.]

'have you ever tried it?' [You can practically hear the sarcasm just reading it.]

[fearbringer]

[He eyes that tail WARILY.]

I'm not an idiot.

[dogspelledbackward]

'so that is a no?'

[If she were less lazy, she'd go on about how each life is precious and how it's always sad when someone dies, but that's what makes the time you spend together all the more special... but that would be way more writing than she feels like doing. But she's thinking it.

She's thinking it so hard.

And she expresses her feelings by... glancing around in casual disinterest.

Queen of communication, right here.]

[fearbringer]

[PITCH WISHES YOU WOULD LEARN TELEPATHY, FOR REAL]

It's a no, thankfully. I'm very good at remaining separate.

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'then you don't know' [THE SMUGGEST WOLFY GRIN.]

[fearbringer]

The pain and suffering of inevitable loss? Can't say I do.

[dogspelledbackward]

'so scared to lose you don't even bother to try' [Every loss is sad, but to live without ever having known affection is far moreso. At least, that's what she thinks.]

[fearbringer]

It's more that I just don't think it's worth it.

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'it is' [She may not be able to convince him, and she knows this, but to not even try would be against everything she stands for. She loves everyone and everything, and he's no exception.]

[fearbringer]

And you don't get tired of them dying?

[dogspelledbackward]

[It takes her a moment to think about how best to answer that. Of course she's sad they have to die eventually, but still...]

'yes' [For once, the wolf's shoulders sag wearily, betraying her age.]

'each memory is cherished

death is part of life and sad

but with death comes new life

new memories to cherish'

[fearbringer]

Well, there's a reason you're a goddess of the sun and I'm not.

[dogspelledbackward]

[She's also a mother.

Amaterasu whines, a bit disappointed by this answer, but she knew going into this that there was very little chance of her actually changing his mind.

So, all she can really do to ease his loneliness is keep him company when she sees him, whether he likes it or not.]

[fearbringer]

And this is the way things should be; that's the part you're not getting. If I became focused on making friends with every mortal I ran across, when would I have time to actually do my job?

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'it's still sad'