Mun couldn't stop it, not after that movie

[fightingforhope]

[Give him a moment because this isn't easy.

At all.

In fact, it's probably one of the hardest things he's ever had to do, next to coping with the loss of Uncle Ben.]

...I should....I should have left her alone, left her out of this. It's my fault she's...she's...

[His voice cracks a bit and he ducks his head.]

We both knew it was coming but that--it--it's not any easier. I don't think it's ever going to be, no matter what they have planned for me.

Gotta keep going though right?

[Insert weak laugh here.]

Yeah...

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Haven't seen it yet, but spoilers are fine, of course.

[acroarachnid]

Hey. It'll be okay. [ Pete, you should stop lying to yourself. ]

It doesn't get... easier, exactly, but assuming things keep working out for you like they have for me? You'll have a whole lot to be happy about in the future. Gwen would have wanted it that way, y'know?

[fightingforhope]

My mun said the same thing. It's just...hard to think about the future now.

[At least he has another version of himself to prove it's okay...right?]

[acroarachnid]

Hey, worrying about the future gets us nothing but trouble. Just keep yourself open for what's going on now.

[fightingforhope]

That's easier said than done though.

[He rubs the back of his neck a bit, still troubled and unable to looka t the other.]

I feel...stuck...I don't know what to do from here.

[acroarachnid]

You could always try the whole school thing. Shoot for your doctorate. Eventually. Don't get distracted like I did.

Also haven't seen, but Gwen has opinions.

[imintrouble]

No. No, you should have not.

It's on Harry, Peter.

;-;

[fightingforhope]

Gwen but--if I hadn't let you--if I had done more--

[So so many 'what ifs' and 'buts.]

I just...I can't.....I can't do this without you.

All of that. :'(

[imintrouble]

You did what you could. There's nothing anyone can tell me that'll persuade me you did any less. You never do.

[ Oh, Peter. ]

And you'll never do it without me, you know. Even if you can't touch me, or see me, or hear my voice, you know I'll always be there.

Because you didn't let go, and I didn't let go, and those we love... never truly leave us. And you won't be doing anything without me - you'll be doing it to remember who I... was. What we were.

Do you understand?

[fightingforhope]

[It's hard to accept what she's saying; to believe that he's not at fault and that he can keep going. He's never going to forget her, that much he knows for sure. She's always going to have a place in his heart and be one of the driving forces in his everyday life; in his attempt to fight the good fight.

But right now? It just seems so hard to even consider doing.

His expression crumbles and his shoulders shake as he lifts a hand to rub his eyes, trying to hide his tears and doing a pretty bad job of it.]

Yeah...yeah I understand....I love you, Gwen. So much. You k-know that right?

[paved]

You're going to hear the same thing from me every single time. That wasn't your fault. My choice, right?

[fightingforhope]

But--

[He stops himself, knowing that there's no point in arguing.]

....That doesn't make it hurt any less though.

[paved]

[ she offers him a smile, her usual smile, but without the cheer. no, no it doesn't make it hurt any less. hesitantly, wondering if it will do more harm than good, she scoots a bit closer to him. ]

No, I guess it doesn't. I'm sorry, Peter. The last thing I'd ever want for you is to be sad, I mean, it kind of comes with the girlfriend-thing.

[ or i guess dead girlfriend but -- no that hurts it's still a bit too soon even for her. ]
Did you see my speech?