moving to dreamwidth and recent/possible developments in games (cfud & zodion)

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It's been quiet lately... I don't think I mind the change. Even Christmas and New Year's went off without a hitch, and fortune only falls in your favor for so long before the tables turn.

Tatsuya said not to dwell on the possibility of a dark future when the present is bright enough to walk without tripping. [ okay, so it wasn't quite like that, but that's what he meant, right. ] But you have to do your part too. If you wait around for everything else to catch up, then you're only contributing to the problem, right...?

And don't worry about Lisa. If she returns, even if she doesn't remember... Well, we can take that one step at a time. Everything will work out for the best... I want to believe that's true.

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[gentle]

[:) ugly fucker.]

Even if he were to show up, I cannot face him until I reshape every single one of my ideals and understand that which I condemned. And even then, he must choose to accept me and after all the trouble Ghetsis and I caused... I could never ask him to do such a thing.

[weeeeeeeeh weeeeeeeeeeeh weeeeeeeeeeeeeeh whine some more N.]

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[ :) crybaby bitch. ]

So do it. Reshape your ideals and understand. [ if he did it, anyone can. ] What's stopping you?

[gentle]

It's not that simple!

[do you see those tears jun? you should. you brought them on.

good job. pretend N is having a dramatic teary eyed code geass monologue-esque moment. i'm sure you know what i'm talking about.]

Even if I were to reshape them and understand, then what?! I don't know what the future holds beyond that! Everything I envisioned will be wrong and I cannot...

[he cannot deal with that okay change is SCARY AND WEIRD AND HE A SCARED SCARED BABY. he has no idea how to begin doing any of these lofty things at all, he's tried, really, but it just

is not easy?????? fuq everything rn he's just gonna cry a lil.]

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"Will be" wrong? If you know that much, then you already know they're wrong. [ what's so hard to understand about that? ] No one knows what the future holds... You just have to keep striving for your ideal self no matter what.

[gentle]

[stop expecting him to be a mature, level-headed individual who takes responsibility for his actions :/

anyway N is just shaking his head all nu uh.]

I don't understand... How is it humans can simply be content with walking forward, towards uncertainty with no predetermined goal to guide them? What if I cannot reconstruct my ideals? What if I'm too warped to live among the humans?

[i hate N why do i play this melodramatic dumbass again, seriously.]

As if I could advance towards something so ambiguous! As if I should put my trust in an unknown variable!