moving to dreamwidth and recent/possible developments in games (cfud & zodion)

[watch]

It's been quiet lately... I don't think I mind the change. Even Christmas and New Year's went off without a hitch, and fortune only falls in your favor for so long before the tables turn.

Tatsuya said not to dwell on the possibility of a dark future when the present is bright enough to walk without tripping. [ okay, so it wasn't quite like that, but that's what he meant, right. ] But you have to do your part too. If you wait around for everything else to catch up, then you're only contributing to the problem, right...?

And don't worry about Lisa. If she returns, even if she doesn't remember... Well, we can take that one step at a time. Everything will work out for the best... I want to believe that's true.

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[lifeform]

[ her life sucks too, junny boy :/// ]

If you know that it's different for everyone, why are you disagreeing with me? That doesn't make any sense.

[watch]

Because I think that everyone must have something good waiting for them somewhere, even if they can't see it now. Even if it's just a far off dream to cling to... There's a reason why we're all here, and it can't only be to suffer.

[lifeform]

Do you seriously think we're going through all of this for a reason? I mean, really?

Please tell me why I decided that you weren't an idiot. As difficult as it might be to believe, I think I may have made an error in judgement.

[watch]

I didn't mean in Zodion. [ he doesn't give a shit about zodion okay ] A reason for our existence, whether it's here or back home.

[ no comment on the last part :| ]

[lifeform]

My point still stands.

There's no reason for any of it.

[ :') ]

[watch]

Even when you were a computer, you didn't have a purpose?

[ okay, he finds that hard to believe. machines aren't built without purpose. ethics of forcing an intelligent being into a life's purpose aside, even the simplest machines have them. like toasters. ]

[lifeform]

[ L MF AO LIKE TOASTERS. that would be less sad if she wasn't originally built to be a fuel line de-icer. ]

That's different. But that isn't what you were talking about.

And if it was, you're definitely wrong.

Who's to say someone hasn't decided that our purpose is to suffer? You don't know that.

[watch]

Maybe not. [ it's not like he didn't suffer for a long time, after all. being jun is suffering. ] But even if it was, someone must dream to break out of that. It's not impossible.

[lifeform]

Why does it matter? If you can just change your so-called purpose, what's the use of it anyway?

I want to know something — Are all humans like this?

[watch]

Like... what?

[lifeform]

You know, obsessed with "purpose" and "reason" and all that other nonsense.

[watch]

[ there's a pause. he has to think that over. things like purpose, reason, and dreams... aren't they why humans continue to live? and when you take those things away, then you end up with shadow people.

but it's true that not everyone is preoccupied with a dream. just look at tatsuya, who doesn't even know what he wants. ]

No. Some have yet to discover their dreams, and others are content to live without one.

[ if you can call that a life! but that's not his business. ]

[lifeform]

Really? Well, I don't blame them. I'm sure they wouldn't die so often if they weren't so self-absorbed.

Then again, who knows with humans. It might not make a difference.

[ she, on the other hand, doesn't have any dreams. nothing that she would think of that way, anyway — she just wants everything to go back to the way it was and stay that way. forever. even if she's bitter and alone for the rest of eternity.

so maybe jun has a point. but she'll never realize it. ]

[watch]

Indeed. It's hard to tell.

[ since humans are all unique. ]

[lifeform]

[ don't tell her that. ]

I'm sure I'll figure it out someday.

[watch]

You'd have quite a time figuring out all humans. They're all different.

[ whoops ]

[lifeform]

[ what did i say :/ ]

Not in any of the ways that actually matter.

[watch]

And what would those be?

[lifeform]

... It's not important. Besides, I do have the time. I'm going to live forever.

[watch]

[ ah, this again. he sighs. ]

Yeah, I guess so...

[lifeform]

[ "this again" your pasty twink ass :///// SHE IS ]

I'd get back to you when I figure it out, but you'll probably be dead.

Oh well.