reserved at thegames; god what am i doing

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canon: durarara!!

reserved at thegames; god what am i doing

"The Games". That's very straightforward, isn't it. A gathering of people to compete against one another is quite an old concept in history, but interesting in and of itself.

...Especially for the audience.

[ He smiles as brightly as people usually see him to be, but inside, he is in fact grimacing in disgust. A group of sick bastards who will no doubt dictate the bad and good ends of the competitors, especially for him. How disgusting. He wanted to vomit. ]

But... I'm just a kid who doesn't really know how to fight! What should I do? I won't stand a chance...

[ Heh. ]

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Your mun is sending you there too?

[Her expression quickly turns into that of concern.]

That place looks really scary... right?

[ Ah, a girl around his age. There seemed to be quite a lot of kids set on going to that game. He silently wondered whether that was a good thing for him. And it probably was, if he played his cards well.

For now, he puts on a guise of concern to mirror hers. ]

Yes... It's pretty horrible, isn't it? I'm not sure what I should do... I'll probably get beat up right away!

H-Hey! Don't say things like that!

[She was surpried to see that the boy seemed to be just as old as herself, maybe even a little older. Then again, Lily wasn't very aware of her own age to begin with.]

I know that it may be really hard at first...

[Somehow, she pulls off a small smile.]

But you have to stay positive! Maybe we can help each other out!

[ She appeared more positive than he assumed. Maybe it surfaced when she felt others needed a boost? Those type of people did exist, and he supposed it was better than being a bully.

He offers a smile back, and appears to be more energetic. ]

Thank you...! I guess worrying like that won't do us any good. Maybe if we team up, we can get through this together.

I'm Kuronuma Aoba, by the way. Nice to meet you!

[She had more than enough experience to turn around. She knew that others needed a little boost, and she just so happened to be willing to help at any given time.]

Yeah!

[And her smile seems to widen.]

It's nice to meet you, Aoba! My name is Lily!

Lily-chan? That's a nice name. It matches well for a cute girl like you.

[ He tends to be a smooth talker, despite not knowing how to deal with girls on a personal level. Yes, so friendly... ]

Really? Thank you!

[Unfortunately for Aoba, Lily isn't even phased by his smooth talking.]

Aoba is a really weird name, I've never heard of it before! [Way to be honest, Lily.]

[ He smiles softly. It never seemed to falter, apparently. ]

You think so? It means "green leaf" in Japanese! But you don't have the Orient look. Instead you have that exotic western look about you!

Are you American, by any chance?

[And this is when Aoba learns how little Lily knows on just about everything.]

American? What's that?

[ He tilts his head, a bit confused. Was she stuck at home all this time? Lived in a obscure place? Under a rock, maybe? So many possibilities... He decides to test it out. ]

...European?

What's European?

"Mother" never told us what a European was!

Ah, it refers to people who live in the country of Europe! Same goes for Americans in North America.

Your mother didn't tell you where you came from?

No... "Mother" didn't tell us much.

[At least, nothing that wasn't about completely tearing their enemies into pieces.]

All I know is that I came from this place underground!

[ Just who exactly is this "Mother", anyway? She sounded less of a maternal figure and more of a keeper from what he gathered, probably someone who didn't deserve to have children. Not that Aoba particularly cared, but his smile fell somewhat, if not ever so slightly. ]

...Underground, huh? Sounds interesting! It's almost like a secret base.

Um... [She bites her bottom lip, a hand raising to grip onto her other arm. Staring down at her feet, she does her best to make herself speak.]

W-Well, it was a secret...

[ ...

Ah. ☆ ]

Uwah, don't worry, Lily-chan! I can keep a secret, I promise.

You may not know this, but I am a very good secret keeper.

[ He really is... ]

[And Lily is one to easily trust.]

Will you... promise not to think differently of me? [What was she saying, she knew that everyone would find out how much of a monster she was. Leading to a good loss of friends, possibly.]

[ So it seemed she had more secrets to her than he realized. To pry, or not to pry... ]

Just because you live under the ground? I don't think that's any reason to see you in a different light!

Lily-chan of the earth or sky makes no difference to me. ☆

[She bites her lip, her stomach already beginning to turn as she crosses her arms across her stomach. Lips trembling as she does her best to speak.]

Underground... "Mother" only taught to do one thing...

To be weapons.

[ Weapon(s). Plural, perhaps? If this Mother person had raised an army of these human weapons, Aoba wouldn't have been surprised one bit. Some adults could be very sick minded. And though he was jarred at the sudden confession, he had expected it nevertheless, and made a note to stick around some more. She was naive, but obviously meant well. He also couldn't help but direct some disgust at her "guardian". If he was used like that he'd be sick to the stomach.

A girl who wished to escape her past and second nature. This could prove interesting. He secretly wondered how well Lily could fight. He wished to see it someday. ]

[ ... ] And did she... make you fight?

[A reality that Lily never dreamed herself to be in. Then again, it wasn't like she was allowed to dream in such a hell, where genetically engineered monsters were constantly thrown at her with goals set to kill. And with her precious "Mother", who gave her only a few set of words before every test.

Tear them apart. Rip out their guts. Completely destroy them.

In which she did. With not only hopes to claw both her and her brothers way out of there, but to get just a small bit of admiration from that woman that wanted nothing more than a deathless army.]

I... [Nail digging into her arms, blue eyes that were once bright with life no seemed completely dead.] She made all of us kill... a-and then... [She's trembling, eyes blinking wildly as she does everything she can to keep herself from crying.] I-I killed... them...

[ He in no intention had wanted to make her cry, so it'd be a lie if he had said he wasn't a bit taken aback by her close to tears. But things were just getting interesting, despite the fact he'd almost feel guilty if he had made a girl cry, especially one who never did anything wrong. At least, not intentionally. Perhaps this very scenario would make for a good stepping stone for them to get closer... ]

It must have been hard for you...

[ He placed a gentle hand on her shoulder as a gesture of comfort. ]

But Lily-chan... where are you right now?

[Lily's willing to trust whoever seemed to get close to her had tended to be her greatest downfall. Even with the obvious signs of her precious "Mother" would so easily pick her up just to throw her away, she thrived for any kind of affection.]

It doesn't... [And here she is, the tears dripping down her cheeks as she's holding onto herself for dear life.] That doesn't...

It doesn't change anything...

[She immediately shoots back up, her eyes locked on Aoba.]

I'm a monster! No matter where I go, that's what everyone will see me as, right?

[ A person with a lingering conscience of their own while bearing destructive power at the same time. How unfortunate were the those circumstances that would cause a single person great suffering? He vaguely wondered if a powerhouse such as Heiwajima Shizuo back at Ikebukuro would feel such similar emotions. Though even if he did, he wouldn't be wiping his tears and gently smiling at him like he was doing for Lily now.

A smile that was eerily out of place in a emotionally wracking atmosphere, but seemingly contained no malice, and was even almost too bright to look at. ]

That may be true, but whoever said monsters were a bad thing?

[This affection was something new to Lily. She felt as if she was gaining a friend in her absence from the underground.

Though his smile did trouble her, she simply brushed it away.]

And what if this monster couldn't control themselves? Would they be good?

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wow how did this become really serious all of the sudden LOL

LMFAO inorite, and also i'm so sorry he's such a two faced douche :|

it's okay because lily's mom is just as bad, EVEN WORSE

AHH i know this because i am familiar with DOGS canon... ヽ(；▽；)ノ

oh god, have you seen the recent chapter 1/2

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ahh, i did!! if only i can properly emote my reaction at einstürzen @_@

i don't even know what to do with my feelings anymore after that chapter, wheeze