dear_mun | On rewatching the movie.

My eyes are forget-me-not blue. [ Tee-hee. ]

You're also blond, which doesn't fit with my type or the one I'm referring to.

Isn't it wonderful? Perhaps you could charm your hair blond.

I could do it for you! [ Gilderoy isn't very good at telling when he's bothering other people. ]

[His eyes are bright with amusement and happiness thanks to the snippet his mundane found on Tumblr. Alec always prefers when he gets to be from his earlier canon.]

My mundane and I think the same thing every time she watches the movie.

[ There's a warm smile at the sight of him, his head tilting just a touch at the sight of the hunter.]

Mine finally saw the whole thing. You did look quite good at that party. I must admit.

Would have been nice to be there when you woke up though.

I looked like a stripper. [The words are blurted out before he realizes he probably should thank Magnus for the compliment instead of saying that.] But I'm glad you noticed me.

You looked good too, but I'm still trying to figure out why you weren't wearing pants. Not that I minded...

[Which he probably shouldn't say out loud but he doesn't have to hide who he is here. Especially when he's with Magnus.]

It would have been nice to know that I did wake up. You implied that I would be okay but...

Maybe if they can make another I'll get to thank you. [And ask him out like in that snippet online.]

A very, very hot stripper. [ Mangus corrected with a little smile before shaking his head.] And not that much like one, actually. Hard not to notice you.

Twins. Vampire twins. I was entertaining.

[ He's just waving his hand at that, why not be honest?]

That's true, I had no doubt in my skill but...Yes. Would have been nice to know that you would have been OK.

I'm not supposed to dress like that. If I have to be in leather, I should be in proper gear.

[He was the shy one. Why couldn't he have had his faded sweaters? At the mention of vampires, Alec can't help looking slightly unnerved but there's none of the jealousy that would show up later.]

Uh... That's... I don't think I could with a vampire.

[For a moment, he considers their movie canon and shrugs.]

I'm not important enough for them to say what happened to me. I'm just hoping that they get far enough in our canon that we get one of those kisses.

You were going for the fashion version of a shadowhunter. The hoods and the expose runes. No complaints though, from me.

[ Hey, he wasn't wearing pants. He has awesome rainbow pants. You're not the only one robbed here. Magnus just folded his hands over his chest at that.]

Of course not. You can barely stand downworlders. [ Besides, that's totally not mentioning the fact he's had several serious loves with vampires.]

It was the Jace and Clary show. Though, credit to Clary where it's due. A kiss would be nice.

It's not supposed to be fashionable. It's supposed to protect us.

[For a moment, Alec doesn't know what to say, a flush warming his face. Why had Magnus acted interested in him if he'd thought he was that much of a bigot? It's starting to seem like his life is going to be a series of unrequited crushes.]

That's not the reason. It's the idea of having one bite me. If you think I'm like that why did you flirt with me or bother saving me?

You seem to be able to do that regardless of the clothes you wear.

[ Mangus is just going to shrug at those next words, because hey, context is important.]

Most don't bite if you don't want them to, in my experience and even if they do they don't turn you. As for flirting with you? There's a difference between what you do and who you are Alec. I flirt with you because I'm trying to find that difference. And I saved you because I didn't want something so pretty to vanish from this world.

It doesn't matter if it won't turn you. [It's something that unnerves him in a way he doubts he can explain.] It's the act itself.

What difference is there to find if you assume I'm like most of the Nephilim? You said that I feel that way about Downworlders, not that it's how most Shadowhunters feel.

[His life would be easier if he was like them, but that will never happen. He knows that he isn't always open minded, but he can't hate someone for being different.]

I'm grateful that you saved me, but there's more to someone than being pretty.

[It shouldn't hurt that it's the reason. He'd thought Magnus was hot at the party but that hadn't been what had started the crush that's making all of this awkward.]

Not that I'm... Isabelle and Jace are the ones who are pretty.

I've always found it's quite a...intimate act to share with someone. [ But hey, he's had so many experiences that the other didn't share. It's understandable from his point how Alec would feel about it.]

You weren't exactly blending in at that party. You and Simon pretty much had the same look Alec. You thoughts were pretty evident.

[ His cat eyes flashed playfully over at the other as he waved his hand just a touch.]

Never said there wasn't more to you. That was a compliment. Would you rather I made the reason less about you? That I got a call and I came? Though, that would be a little bit of a lie.

[ Mangus laughed softly at that.]

Jace is pretty, at least my Mun thinks so. Your sister is quite attractive but she's not the one that caught my eye. You were.

That's part of it. [Somehow he manages to suppress a shudder at the idea.] Hopefully I'll never find out what it's like.

Simon thought our world was something like those bad vampire books mundane teenagers squeal over. And I spent most of the time looking at the floor or trying to keep Izzy out of trouble.

[When he hadn't been busy telling himself he couldn't oggle Magnus like he wanted to. Maybe that was something he shouldn't hide.] Or I was looking at you.

If it was just about getting a call, you would have asked to be paid for healing me.

[Even assuming that Magnus believes he dislikes Downworlders, Alec can't ignore the small rush of hope that accompanies the compliment.]

Does that mean you'd give me a chance?

Yes, I suppose that would be. Wouldn't it?

Simon stepped into a world he was unprepared for because he was in love. It's not hard to tell. And here I here I thought you were staring at your pretty blond friend.

[ Hey, he can oogle Magnus whenever he wanted to. Seriously.] Of course you were.

That's true.

[ He can't deny that, now can he? Mangus flicked his eyebrow up at that.] A chance of...?

Does everyone know about Jace? [It's easier to be frustrated at that than to consider what it might mean if anyone finds out. Better to be angry than afraid of having his Marks stripped away and losing his family completely.] It's not - I know that it's wrong and nothing will ever happen.

[Just like nothing would probably happen with Magnus but he's too stubborn to deny what he'd implied. Or part of it at least.]

Give me a chance to show you I'm not like other Shadowhunters.

You don't hide it as well as you'd think. Besides, you think your the first to look at a boy like that? [ Hey, who's he going to tell. He's been helping hidden Shadowhunters for years.] Funny, since my mun is having a thread where me and him...Well, you know.

[ There's a slow smile at that, a flicker of a eyebrow at that.]

Well I certainly wouldn't mind that.

It's forbidden for me to look at boys like that. [Mentally he winces as he wonders if his parents might know, or worse, the Clave. Then his thoughts still when he realizes what Magnus said. Jace... Jace is the straightest guy in the world. Or that had been what he'd thought.]

So it wasn't because he isn't...

[Knowing that it's forbidden for parabatai to feel like that about each other doesn't make it easier to accept. It hurts worse than he ever would have thought since he'd never though Jace would be interested in guys... or that the guy Jace would be interested in would be Magnus.]

Are you sure you don't prefer blonds?

Shadowhunters. [ He's just shaking his head for a moment. Honestly, it's something you'd think they'd get let go by now. Who care's if someone wanted to suck another off?]

Special case, I think. He was drunk. My parties tend to have that affect.

[ Magnus is just going to laugh at that, his eyebrows bouncing up at a little at that snarky remark.]

You're jealous? Oh good lord Alec. You refused to come to the party. He got on my lap. Nothing happened.

That doesn't make it any better, Magnus.

[He had hated Clary for awhile because of the foolish things Jace had done for her but he was staring to accept the situation as he'd thought of it. Jace liked women. There was nothing that he could do that would change that. It really wasn't Alec that was being rejected, or he had been telling himself that.

Now, it isn't about being the wrong sex. It's about not being the right one. Not being good looking or brave enough. And to make it worse, the person who had made him start forget his crush on his parabatai is the one that Jace had come on to.]

It sounds like a lot happened. I guess he really was the hot one.

Stop.

[ The word was easy and gentle as he just stared over at Alec.]

He's not the one I wanted. You and I both know that. That was a bit of muns having fun. I'd prefer you be the one half naked on my lap.

You and I both know that. Because despite what happens in the future. I care about you.

[For a few moments, the self doubt does stop and he starts to be tentatively hopeful that maybe things can work out. Then, his stomach drops as he imagines a half naked Jace on Magnus' lap.]

We don't know that.

[It was something he'd been trying to avoid, focusing on happier times. It was better to think of first kisses and a birthday that had made him feel like he was someone special. Now he can't help thinking of how he's just another pretty boy who can be easily replaced.]

How am I supposed to know it when you talk about messing around with my best friend?

You're jealous. Of the question of who does spring to mind.

[ He rolled his eyes at that and he took a few steps forward with a soft sigh, his hands up in defeat as he looked over at it.]

We...it was just a game Alec. One that didn't go very far. Stop jumping to the worst possible outcome. He's still very straight. Just full of himself.

Why wouldn't I be jealous? [The words should have come out angry. He is angry at himself but instead he just sounds lost.]

What outcome should I think of? For years I told myself it was because I was a guy and then he ends up in your lap? I finally start thinking that maybe I can take a chance and...

Is it all a game, Magnus? One pretty boy after another.

On rewatching the movie.

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