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Uhm... hi. I know, I know we haven't talked much, and work's been kicking you to the curb and back, but we should really talk to Tessa and let her know what's going on.

Maybe we could find another game, too? Just not as... disorienting as the last one?

[And if... the angel isn't there, then that'd be really great.]

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Hello Jimmy.

[ Raphael is fond of you! As such, his voice is almost gentle. ]

Hell-...oh.

[Oh shit. The 'angel radar' starts shrieking at him and he startles backwards, tangling in his own feet and landing hard on his ass.]

Sorry.. I'm... I'm sorry. Whatever the an- Castiel. Whatever Castiel did... I'm... I'm sorry.

[Saying the angel's name could bring out a whole different set of problems, but hey. They can't be any bigger than Raphael.]

Be at peace. I don't hold you responsible for anything Castiel has done.

[ He meant that - Jimmy was a righteous man, Raphael would treat him as one. ]

But... you're..

[An archangel. Archangels don't do nice. They're usually on call when God needs something big done. Cities to salt, mountains leveled, that kind of thing. And if that isn't on the to-do list, then there's usually a bunch of littler angels coming ahead of them as crowd control. So what's Raphael doing here by him(?)self. Vessel's male. Go with it.]

You're... not?

[With the list of horrible things the angel's done, you'd think he'd be an accomplice or something. How much of that could the angel have done if Jimmy hadn't bought into it?]

I mean, are... are you here for me? What'd I do?

Jimmy. Whatever Castiel did, you're a righteous man, an angel asked something of you, asked you to serve Heaven in the highest, and you did. Faithfully.

So in a way, yes I am here for you. But not because of anything you did wrong, but because you deserve to be rewarded for your serve, and protected.

[ Raphael - and Michael - had a soft spot for vessels. Who knew. ]

[If it was anyone but an angel, Jimmy would flat out ask if they were shitting him, because after everything, Raphael just showing up seems fishy as hell. He'd be less surprised if it was Crowley in a rubber mask or something equally outlandish.]

A... reward? Like what?

[Home. Home and Claire and... And maybe Raphael can.. Are they still safe? Still alive?]

My.... My family. Are they okay? [Please God let them be okay. Anything. Anything you want, just please let them be okay.]

[ Even angels can't completely be trusted, but Raphael isn't working an angle this time. ]

Peace. Heaven. What did Castiel agree to?

[ Because Raphael would honor it. ]

They are. You were told we would watch over them, and we have.

[ That didn't mean freedom from all troubles, but they were looked after. Claire especially, she was a vessel as well.

I just wanted them to be okay. No.. No matter what happened to me.

[ - Castiel looking at him through Claire's eyes and the realization that he was going to die and leave her with the angel. - C'mon, Jimmy. You're okay. Raphael said he wasn't here to hurt you, but now would be really bad for you to have an episode.]

[Still flinching away from Raphael as he gets on his feet.] I.... I didn't ask for anything else. I just wanted them to be okay.

I will ensure they are watched over.

[ It's solemn, serious. A vow. And a vow from Raphael - the Healer yes, but also the protector of children.

He moves slowly, extending his hand to Jimmy, palm up and empty. ]

Here. It's all right. I don't mean you any harm.

[Eyes dart from Raphael's hand to his face. Sure, he says he doesn't mean any harm. Castiel didn't mean any harm either, but Jimmy's got six years of screaming horrors that say otherwise.

- But Jimmy wants to go home. More than anything. He'd take being hated, shunned, legally dead... Anything to see them again.

And Raphael's the only way to do it.]

Can.. Can I go see them? [It's dangerous. Anything that wants to take a swing at Castiel can go through Jimmy, and you hit Jimmy through his family. Hopefully, having Raphael there will scare all but the worst off.

So he reaches out to take Raphael's hand.]

[ Raphael takes Jimmy's hand, easily but lightly pulling him to his feet, and leaves Jimmy with the chose to hold onto Raphael's hand or not - but there is something calming and healing to Raphael's touch, if Jimmy wants to hold onto him ]

Do you merely want to see them or do you wish to speak with them?

[ They were different things, after all. ]

[What? He... He can see them? There's an open, disbelieving stare at Raphael. He can't be this lucky. After everything, it can't be that easy.]

Just... see... see them, for now. [Please don't let them hate me. Please don't let them hate me.]

[ It's not - Raphael does in fact understand some shades of meaning but defaults to literal. ]

I'll show them to you.

[ In fact, he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small mirror and hands it over. If Jimmy looks into it, instead of a reflection, he'll see - and hear - his family. But it only works one way. ]

[Jimmy.. doesn't know what to say to that. He looks into the mirror and sees Amelia and Claire.

His baby girl, all grown up and talking about college. Colorado? University of Denver?

.... Good. Good that she should try and move on from his many and varied fuckups.]

God... She grew up.

[Grew up and moved on with her life. Jimmy stares at the mirror for a few minutes before he has to look away and try his best to not cry. Seeing them grown up and moved on hurts so very much.]

[ Raphael isn't without a sense of mercy, at all. And Healers by default need to be both compassionate and clinical - most wouldn't guess he'd learned compassion Lucifer. And he was rusty at it. But he makes the effort, reaching over to place a hand on Jimmy's upper arm, lightly. ]

We do still watch over them, as was promised.

[ At least until Castiel-as-God slaughtered so many of them. ]

They do love you.

I know. It's just...

[Amelia and Claire moving on with their lives without him. That thought keeps finding new ways to hurt until he's aware of Raphael's hand on his arm. Hearing that even after everything, they're still safe, still protected helps.]

Thank you. For watching over them. Even.... even after.

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