on why he's being considered for a game + (re)voicetesting...

[extradite]

'It's convenient.'

How is that - why is that... why do I have to accept that sort of excuse from you?

If I'm going to be the one you burden with everything again, then... then, at least, can't you - ...just pretend I'm special. Pretend you like me. Pretend I'm your first choice, or your only choice, or say - say, It's what you do best. Say anything. Smile. Lie. Isn't that what adults do? Lie.

Really... really, it's fine if I'm nothing more than a convenience to you. It's to be expected, isn't it? But don't admit it so casually that people can't also pretend not to notice.

Comments

[splendid_solitude]

Your still complaining about this kind of stuff, huh? You really are nothing but a little brat.

[extradite]

That wasn't the... it's nothing. It's nothing like that.

[splendid_solitude]

How is this any different? You get all worked up when people lie to you, but now that someone has finally told you flat out what they think, your scrambling back to wanting to them to lie so you can feel better about yourself.

You can't have it both ways, Shinji.

[extradite]

Mmmm. Of course. That's right.


[ And cue: that smile. ]

[splendid_solitude]

Wait... Are you agreeing with me so that I'll leave you alone?

[extradite]

I've said nothing of that sort.

[splendid_solitude]

Well that's what it certainly sounded like to me.

[extradite]

That's... I can't help that kind of thing.

[amazingswinger]

You're okay with being lied to?

[extradite]

...I'm not. I'm not at all. But if I've been put in a position where the best thing I can do is be okay with it, then - then, that's that. That's it. Game... over? Over.

[amazingswinger]

But you're not okay with it.

If you tell yourself otherwise, aren't you the one lying to yourself?

[extradite]

I'm just - surviving. That's what I'm doing. Surviving.

Aren't you doing that yourself through whatever means?

[amazingswinger]

Me?

[He grins.] Nope! I'm living, buddy! There's a pretty big difference, I think.

[extradite]

One step at a time. That's what I'm saying. Doing.

[amazingswinger]

[Bluntly-] Sounds pretty boring! I prefer to just jump into things head-first without thinking! [Well, it was true.]

[extradite]

Your head must hurt.

[amazingswinger]

[Tajima just laughs.]

Yeah, sometimes it does! [Shrugging.] But, whatever. As long as you get there someday, I guess it's just good to hear that you're still trying.

[extradite]

You know... even if it's with the best intentions - you know just wishing something to turn out well and just trying won't amount to much, don't you? You have to. Really. You have to.

[amazingswinger]

Uh....

No I don't?

[extradite]

Well... now you do.

[amazingswinger]

Man; so what are you gonna do? Not try?

[Tajima furrows his brow.] That's disappointing. I really can't stand that kind of thing.

Ignorance is bliss

[unlucky_three]

Hey, at least you're goin' somewhere. Last time I got to do something, this site wasn't even around. I'm growin' moss here!

TOOOOOOOOOJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

[extradite]

That's nothing to envy, or - that is, not an accomplishment. Nothing like that. Nothing I did.

Evangelion character, trying to be upbeat - pfffft

[unlucky_three]

Yeah, things didn't turn out so great, did they? [What's this? Toji looking serious(ish)?] But...way I figure it, as long as you're still movin' there's nothing to do but get up off the mat and keep going forward.

exercise in failure : (

[extradite]

...don't say that sort of thing. It makes things sound - simple.

[fierily]

I think you should be grateful that they're even considering sticking you somewhere. Why do you always have to be a brat about everything?

[ Just shut up Shinji and get into the game! ]

[extradite]

It's not as if you'd accept these things lightly.

[fierily]

[ Listen here you little punk, don't turn this on her. ]

This isn't about me, idiot. Sure, I wasn't thrilled when my mun placed in my game but--... at the same time, I was glad that she chose me over her other lame muses.

You, on the other hand, is only thinking about yourself.

1/2

[extradite]

...'Thank you.' Is that something you'd like me to tell her instead?

Fine. That's... fine. I'll do it. 'Thank you for considering me.'

'Thank you very much.'

'I'm relieved.'

[extradite]

There.

[fierily]

[ There he goes again, avoiding confrontation like always. ]

This is exactly why I can't have a civilized conversation with you!

[ defend yourself! bicker back! Do something. ]

Just don't stand there like some stupid idiot and agree with me.

[extradite]

What good will come of disagreeing with you?

[fierily]

[ Um.... nothing! ]

... To prove that you have a backbone or do you enjoy when people walk all over you?

[extradite]

...why are you blaming me for not stopping you, instead of not walking over me to begin with? That sort of thing is... why should I be responsible?

[stehtvorgott]

Having someone lie to you won't make you feel better because you would still know that it's a lie, even if their truth is more painful.

[extradite]

That's... what do you want me to say to something like that?

[stehtvorgott]

You don't need to say anything. Even if your Mundane doesn't recognize it, you are far more valuable than a "convenience".

[extradite]

Of course. I'm the pilot. I'm Eva 01's pilot.

[stehtvorgott]

It's because you're you.

[extradite]

'Eva-01's pilot.' 'Ikari Shinji.' 'Me.'

These are all people you don't know. People you don't have to know.