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[hmm. if only her blasted mun would stop being so distracted and work on her personality section and what not.]

Familiar territory, huh? It's nice to know that you're headed somewhere better than the enclosure, but...

[with the way she trailed off, it's obvious where her primary concern lies.]

I couldn't say it'll be 'better' exactly, these places always have their problems, you know? [There was always something. But hey, Luceti was practically a vacation at times when it wasn't being a pain.]

But it'll be something I'm used to. [He pauses, guessing where she's going with this.] But..?

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Oh-- wow, man!

[He grinned broadly at the news.]

I'm a bit jealous here. Congrats!

Thanks. She's been a bit lazy about finishing up preparations, but it looks like I'll be heading there soon, hopefully.

[That grin is matched on Fayt's own face. It wouldn't be home, but it'd be something a bit less rustic than Elicoor or Luceti at least.]

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Hey, she's still getting 'em done, and that's what counts 'round here.

[With these muns, sometimes that was the only thing that counted.]

That's true enough. Can't really expect much else than for her to work at her own pace, really.

[A shrug. He was in no real hurry, but his mun did have a habit of working in small spurts on these apps.]

Heh. [He laughed,] ain't that the truth...

...Actually, I sorta wish I was joining you. I like the town alright, but it's a little small.

I wish you were coming along too. Getting stuck in one place for so long is driving us all a little stir crazy.

[And Fayt was used to living planet side.]

No kiddin'.

[He shook his head.]

My girl will figure it all out when she get's there, so I'm not too worried 'bout it. Just...sheesh. Waiting's hard.

[He offers a wry grin. Even 'vacations' got irksome after a while.]

From what I hear there's probably going to be some excitement to be had, so if you do decide to come along you'll probably enjoy yourself.

[Especially after how crazy their vacation has been to them recently...]

Really? Well, that just gives me more reason to wanna get there now.

Apparently the fleet is looking for a planet to colonize. [And that stuff never seemed to go smoothly, it seemed.]

[It never has in any history book that he's read.]

Are they at least trying to get along with the natives while they're doing this?

[He had a hunch that this could be a disaster.]

Don't know. Guess I'll find out when I get there. [He hoped so, though. He really hoped so.]

It couldn't have been all that terrible, could it? [ Though she was only in Luceti for the weekend, but it was a nice place nevertheless. ]

Though I should say it matters more what you want, shouldn't I?

[.... Ameena... It was still so strange, seeing her like this.] It's not terrible at all there, most of the time.... the shifts can be troublesome, though.

[He wouldn't go mentioning to Ameena that the last month had been... interesting. In a rather painful manner. Then again, in a place where you can see someone you know is dead again--] It'll be a bit strange, being in two places at once again, but I'll manage.

Shifts? I'm not sure what you mean, Mr. Fittir didn't mention many things about that place. [ But if Fayt is saying they're troublesome, then they must be. ]

We're both here, so it can't be that strange.

They're just kind of annoying most of the time, really. [Most of the time, anyway.]

And yeah, I guess that's true.

And how so? If you don't mind my asking. [ The addition of wings aside, or she assumes they have to do with being part of the village if she never gained a pair. ]

It was good to see you again, Fayt...

Well..... [He didn't want to worry her, but she did ask. Lying wasn't something he liked doing, and he was already lying to her by leaving out facts.]

Sometimes the people who run the place alter our minds a bit. Sudden impulses, different memories. There are a lot of things like that that happen every once in awhile. Other than that, it's really nice there.

[When she mentions that it was good to see him, he smiles faintly, a little pang of guilt for leaving out the truth stabbing at him.]

It's been good to see you again too, Ameena.

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That's... [ Their minds altered, different memories? She can barely begin to understand it and her expression becomes worried. Even if it was only a few times...

She shakes her head to clear away these thoughts, focusing more on Fayt's reassurance that it was an all right place. ] Are you all right with it, then?

[That smile turns a little more genuine.] I'm not alright with being some sort of test subject, but we'll find a way to get out eventually.

[He was confident in that.] Until then? Aside from the shifts, it's a pretty ok place.

I'm certain you will, you did vow to help in whatever way you can to end the war. [ And she had full faith in his will and ability to do that, grandiose as it seemed. ]

And as long as you're happy and continue forward, that's what matters.

And I will, don't worry. We're gonna make it through this place just fine. [They'd been through too much now to let some experiments tear them up now.]

What the--?

[And this Fayt will just be staring at the other version of himself. His Mun had warned him about the possibility of other versions of himself turning up, but it was rather different seeing one in the flesh.]

[....Well that's a sight.

He'd seen a few other 'hims' around here from his Mun's headspace, but so far she'd chosen to keep him in the back whenever they appeared here and let someone else take the reigns for conversation.

Awkward was an understatement for this sort of thing.]

....Uh. Hey.

Hey.

…This is really weird. Are you… me?

[Captain obvious.

This was the first time he'd been confronted with anything like this. Well, except for the 'Fabian' who lurked around the headspace with him, but that was different.

Had this other 'him' been through all the same experiences he had? Did he have the same memories? He's watching the other Fayt curiously, not sure what to expect.]

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Looks like it.

[This Fayt was wondering the same thing.... and after so long in Luceti, he wondered if it was possible this 'other him' was from an alternate universe.]

Kind of freaky, huh?

[[OOC: I'm guessing he's got little wings if he's from Luceti?]]

[This one's been in a private muse box for a long time, and right now he's just looking out for cues as to how this Fayt differed from him.]

Yeah, it's like looking in a mirror where the reflection's got a life of it's own.

Or a hologram, I guess.

[If this Fayt did share his experiences, many, many things came into the back of his mind that he wanted to say to him - warnings, acknowledgements, assurances that things would sort themselves out.]

[[OOC: Yep! Small white wings, because I'm horrible enough to go that route.]]

This is a bit more real than a hologram though, wouldn't you say?

[Fayt would rather not be called something like that, after everything they'd been through. He was wondering the same thing, though, after that particular phrasing-- What had this Fayt gone through? What were his own experiences?

Did he know?]

That's what I think, anyway.

[[OOC: Haha, nice one.]]

Well, yeah, definitely. Pretty sure nothing back home's this advanced.

[He shrugged, seeming fairly unfazed by the topic - it was obvious, surely? Anyone could tell the difference between a real person and a hologram, even if technology was advancing down that route.]

Then again, haven't been home in a while now.

[At that point, he did a double-take, noticing the little wings on the other-Fayt's back. Well, there was a difference.]

Wait, are those…wings?

[White wings. Fayt winced a little at that.]

I haven't been home in ages, either. Been stuck in Luceti for a year now. [He shifts, turning slightly to bring the wings into better view and settling a hand on his hip. They shift a bit as he does, twitching-- they're real alright.] That's where I got these things. They're nothing but a pain, trust me on this.

[Especially considering Albel cut one off a little over two weeks ago. That hadn't been fun at all. Luckily, they grew back good as new within a week, so they showed no signs of the damage at all.

Not without a heck of a lot of pain and being sick as a dog the entire time, of course.]

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I've been stuck in Japan for the last few years, now. Tatsumi Port Island being the most recent place. It's not bad there, occasional monster aside.

[That was definitely an understatement of the highest degree.

Fayt raised an eyebrow as he saw the wings. Yeah, those were definitely real. Too small to do anything with, probably, but real enough.]

Wow…yeah, they don't look like they'd help much.

Japan huh? Sounds like it's a pretty strange version of it just from that. [monsters in Japan? Seemed like another crazy alternate world, to Fayt.]

They don't really do much, but if you lose them you die, so it's mostly a glaring weak spot. [A shrug. He'd started tucking his wings under his clothes as of late, but he was still getting into the habit of doing it all the time.

But this just reminded him of something he though this 'other him' should know.]

Hey.... what's the last thing you remember? Of home?

It is a bit odd, but I've seen my fair share of strange places lately. The whole place is less technologically advanced from the Earth I remember, at least… and crawling with monsters called 'Shadows'. They're a real pain in the neck.

[Fayt sighed. Less advanced, and more problematic, certainly. So this other-Fayt didn't know about the Shadows, or this alternate-Japan… which means he'd probably never met the rest of his group either. He'd not crumbled in the way he had.

He wasn't sure whether to be glad for or envious of the other him for that, but that wasn't to say this other Fayt hadn't had his own struggles of course.]

Wait, you die if your wings are removed? That's insane!

Huh? What I last remember? To be honest, I was about to ask you that…

Albel'd just joined up with us. He drove that katana of his right through my pillow and demanded to know if I hated him. As soon as I said I didn't, he went and stormed off.

[A small, tired smile came into Fayt's face at the memory.]

…How about you?

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It seems like the wings keep us healthy and alive in that world, for some reason. Some sort of modification meant to help us adapt, I think? For a village with 21st century technology, it can be pretty crazy. [...Well that answered that, then. That small smile is mirrored on his own face at the mention of that awkward night in Peterny. It felt like forever ago.]

Yeah, I remember that. And he's still twitchy as ever about things, too, even in Luceti. But we get off planet alright, don't worry.

[He's avoiding the question, he knows. What was he going to even say? He'd sound like he'd gone crazy if he tried to explain the fourth dimension, about what Luther had tried to do....

It was something you'd have to see to believe. The question he asks next, hopefully, will throw him off.]

Did you ever figure out how to control it?

[The 'it' should be obvious enough.]

That is strange…how on earth would wings do that?

[Albel hadn't changed, then. Somehow… that didn't surprise him at all.]

Heh, he doesn't seem like the sort of guy who'd change easily. He's with you now, then? It feels like it's been forever since I've seen anyone from back home.

[So this other-him had come from his home's future. Even more questions started to come to mind, but for now, the knowledge that they got off-planet okay was enough to reassure him, at least a little bit.]

Thanks…good to know that, at least. Hey, did… you ever find Sophia again? Or Mum and Dad?

[His tone was hesitant. Although the question as to their wellbeing had plagued him for a long time, part of him wasn't sure he wanted to know the answer.

"Did you ever figure out how to control it?"

Fayt flinched at the question, looking away from the other. That glaring sore-spot was something he hated admitting to even his close allies.

Perhaps his tone came out a little more agitated than he intended. The obvious 'no' in the air left unsaid.]

…Did you?

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Him and Cliff both. Nel was too, for a while. And we found Sophia and Dad, yeah. [His smile seems to get a little faint at the mention of his father, though. So much had happened, and his dad....

He'd be lying if he said he didn't think about him still. Luceti shifts making him forget his own parents hadn't helped that much.]

Mom's safe on Roak, last I heard.

[Fayt had come to terms with his power, in Luceti. He knew what he needed to do-- he had to learn, to grow, and find a way to control it. He heard that frustration, and he understood it completely. It was definitely a sore spot for him, too.]

I'm working on it. Might have finally made some headway, but I'm still working on it.

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[Fayt noticed that expression, and felt a steady sinking feeling in his stomach. Had something happened to them?]

…Are they alright?

[He was surprised how calmly the other-Fayt spoke about this. After all the times he'd stressed the issue in his mind, after all the problems it had caused and all the arguments he'd had on the subject… it felt strange to talk about it so rationally. The frustration was still there as he replied.]

I've tried but…nothing much seems to be working for me. How've you managed to make progress with it?

...Sophia's fine. [He was an honest guy. Lying wasn't something he did often, and he knew he wouldn't be able to say his father was fine with a straight face, not after what had happened, and especially not to another him.

He glances away, not wanting to see the expression he knew he'd see there.]

[Nausea seemed to sweep over Fayt as he took in what this Fayt was telling him. Of course, he was glad that Sophia was okay, but the glaring omission in his statement was painfully, painfully obvious and for now seemed to overwrite that.

His eyes widened as the colour drained from his skin in an instant.]

No…

[And fists suddenly clenched as shock turned to anger.]

No, no that's impossible!!

It was a hostage exchange with the Vendeeni. He tried to protect me. [His expression tightens at the memory, gritting his teeth at the reaction. It had been a long time, and a lot had happened since, but....]

["He tried to protect me". That just made the knife twist deeper as guilt started to make his chest feel tight, stomach hollow.]

The Vandeeni, again… dammit, they still--!! Dammit!!

[He'd recently lost someone he'd come to see as a parent-figure in the muse box, and that fresh wound was no doubt making his feelings worse.

Of course, it struck him when he saw that expression that this other-Fayt was the one who'd actually seen the event play out. He shouldn't have dragged this out. He tried to force himself to calm down, if just for his other's sake, but the waves of emotions were still raw in his tone.]

…I'm sorry.

It's alright. [Hearing about the potentially fatal fate of one of your parents wasn't going to be easy to deal with. Living through it hurt, but the frustration of hearing it was pretty bad, too. He smiles faintly, though there's no cheer to it.]

There's always a chance your universe is different from mine. Maybe it won't happen.

[He hoped so. He really hoped so.]

[Clinging onto spots of hope was something Fayt had learnt often got you hurt, in the end. Yet with news like this is was hard not to latch onto one - the alternative was something he wasn't sure he could stomach right now.]

Yeah, maybe. Hopefully I can do something that'll stop it. But that wouldn't be fair on you.

[A pause. There was no harm in asking, right?]

…Did you manage to defeat them? The Vandeeni, I mean?

So what if it's fair or not? He'll be alive somewhere out there. That's what matters. [This Fayt was slightly different-- The power of belief and will was something that had gotten them all through far too much for him to give up on hope. It might hurt sometimes, but at others it was all you had to work with.]

Yeah, we did. They kept bringing in more and more reinforcements, but Albel showed up and trashed their transport jammer-- he got shot too in the process, but he was alright once we got him medical attention on the Diplo.

[And they wouldn't be a problem ever again, if what he'd heard about the fate of Vendeen was true.]

[Hope was still something this Fayt still clung to - of his group now, he was usually the one trying to convince them that it'd be okay, that there was hope that it could get better. Despite the odds and against all his better judgement, he still tried to hold onto 'hope' no matter how many times it had been ripped out from under him. Yet, as time had gone on, the ideal had slowly been growing more and more distant.

Right now, his actions were far more driven by his own crippling guilt than hope.

There was a slight hesitation before Fayt replied to the question - it surprised him how optimistic, how hopeful this other him sounded.

When had he lost sight of that?]

Yeah…yeah, I think you're right. And hey, maybe there's a chance he'll turn up in a place like this, too.

[At the assurance of the Vandeeni's defeat, an overwhelming sense of relief washed over him.

It was over. They were gone. No one else would be hurt by them like on Elicoor II, or Hyda IV before that.

His voice came out a hoarse whisper.]

…Thank God.

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[Part of him wanted to warn him-- That the Vendeeni were only the beginning of it, that there was a threat so far beyond them out there that it had been impossible to imagine, to even think existed, prior to learning of it. To seeing it.

Part of him wanted to tell him that there was a cruel irony to hearing himself utter the words 'Thank God', when their creator's executioners had been the ones to end the Vendeeni once and for all. When who knew how many planets, Earth included, were in ruin or wiped from existence in his attempt to eliminate 'bugs'.

Going home back to Earth wasn't an option anymore, for more than one reason.]

You never know. I even got to see Ameena around here recently. There's always a chance, in a place like this.

[Instead, he decides to offer a little more consolation.]

[This Fayt was certainly naive as to what lay in store for him back home, and perhaps even if this other-Fayt warned him, he wouldn't be able to really comprehend the reality of their world - of his existence, their Creator and the destruction that would come about as a result.

For now, though, even though he was never particularly religious, he saw nothing strange in his own words.]

Wow, that's- This place really can drag anyone here.

…I hope she can find peace here, at least. She deserves it.

[Ameena…He winced slightly, trying to ignore the pang of guilt in his chest.

Although he had been away from home for some time now, the events of Elicoor II still felt a little raw to him, especially after one of his new group unintentionally dragged it out.

"You'll just make things worse, like before!"

He couldn't afford to dwell on that, now.]

So you're heading back into space again?

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Who are you, you beautiful soul. Also I am getting back to 4th wall tags soon, sorry for the wait.

haha, don't worry about it!

o7 You are awesome by the way.

Thanks! I haven't had much practice.

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Please excuse late post/lack of icons

No problem!

Thanks :)

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Heading to bed now, I'll reply in the morning :)

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Loving your Fayt, btw :)

Haha, thanks! You're pretty good yourself.

Thanks ^^ It's interesting playing off a Fayt who's further in canon/not been through muse box hell