dear_mun | reawakened muse is reawakened

[He's so furious right now that he couldn't care less either.]

Yeah, 'cause it's so freakin' nice to see the crazy chick who TRIED TO MURDER ME!

...

[Don't let him get to you, Sayaka.]

And you killed me. Yet, you don't see me being hostile towards you, do you, Kuwata-kun?

[She kind of has a point.
Still...]

... I never WANTED that to happen.
I know it did anyway, but...

What about you, huh? Ya regret almost screwing Naegi over? He TRUSTED you, and you were gonna frame his ass! How fucked up are you?!

And oh, that's right, if you'd gotten away with it we ALL WOULD'VE BEEN DEAD!
But it would've WORTH IT TO YA, WOULDN'T IT?!
YA FEEL BAD ABOUT THAT?! DO YA?!

[...Of course. She should have expected that would come up in conversation sooner or later. By this point, Sayaka's quivering with a mixture of anger, frustration, and distress. Her fists tremble at her sides as she yells back at Leon with a shaky voice. She knows that her actions aren't justified by no means, but that doesn't give him the right to attack her with her own faults when he was to blame as well!]

Yes, I DO feel bad for almost framing him, actually! Naegi-kun was my FRIEND! But you can't say you wouldn't have done the same! You can't say that ANYONE wouldn't have done the same! That was our only way of ESCAPE! Did you... Do you really think that SOMEONE would've RESCUED us!? We were TRAPPED.

[Though, wait... Something about his words doesn't make sense.]

...Did you just say that you all would've been dead?

[The rules never mentioned anything about the others being affected by a murder. She clearly recalls it stating that you had to kill another and not let anyone else know you were the culprit in order to graduate. Sayaka purses her lips together tightly, an expression of partial bewilderment coming upon her features. She has no idea about the class trials, having died before Monobear decided to disclose that bit of information, so she simply regards Leon as if he lost his mind altogether.]

Didn't you graduate, Kuwata-kun...?

[Of course, there was her dying message, but still. He had successfully gotten away with killing her; he should have been able to leave the academy before anyone had noticed.]

[He also wasn't exactly expecting that sort of response. Her outburst leaves Leon paralyzed and speechless for several moments, not knowing what to do, say, or feel...
Until she asks that question.
Oh, you really have no idea, Sayaka.
Looks like he better fill you in.]

Lemme tell ya what happened after you bit it.

After everyone found your body, Monokuma told us what was next. It's not as easy as the minute ya kill someone you're outta there. Nah, the real challenge is gettin' away with it, 'cause what happened then was a "Class Trial."
Basically we had to figure out who really did it. If we were right, only the killer got the penalty. But if we were wrong? That's when the culprit's free, while everybody else pays the price.

Give ya one guess what that price is.

And they caught me. And by they I mean "mostly Naegi," for some goddamn irony.
Followed all the clues right to me, includin' that "dyin' message" of yours.
Leon Kuwata, proclaimed motherfuckin' guilty. And ya know what Monokuma does with guilty motherfuckers like me?

[He drags a finger across his neck and makes disgusting a sound like slashing.]

That's right, I'm a dead man walkin'.
Thanks to bein' chained to a pole then bludgeoned with a MILLION FUCKIN' BASEBALLS BY SOME PSYCHO-ASS TEDDY BEAR 'TIL I WAS D-E-CEASED!

So congratu-fuckin'-lations, princess. Only your killer got his just desserts while everybody else lived to see another day in that mutual murder hellhole!

[This... This was unbelievable. If that was the case, then did that mean Sayaka had attempted murder in vain? For some reason, she found the fact that Monokuma had withheld this information from them far more devastating than actually being murdered. If she had known about the class trials ahead of time, then perhaps she wouldn't have did what she had... She thought that if she killed someone, she would have been able to leave immediately.

But to go through a class trial and end up executed if she was discovered? That would defeat the purpose, wouldn't it?

And as hypocritical as it sounds, she doesn't think she would be able to live with herself if she had gotten away with it and had the others executed in her place.]

[Though, what really is boggling her the most is the last of Leon's words. Monokuma had killed him by pelting him with baseballs? Now that was a gratuitously extravagant execution.]

...so you're dead too, huh...

[It's more of a musing to herself than a question to be answered. Of course she knows he's dead. Part of her is relieved that her murder didn't go unsolved, but another part of her is horrified at his execution. After all, they were just teenagers. Children. They didn't deserve that, and they certainly didn't deserve to be in the situation that they were in either. All of it was unfair... Why did this have to happen to them?]

That's... t-that's...

[She's not even sure what she wants to say. She's much too mind-blown to even form words.]

[It was a ridiculous a display as it was horrifying, rest assured. Leon more than anyone can attest to that.
Of course, nothing was fair about being locked up in a school by some insane bear thing, then manipulated and backed into a corner until you're forced to kill your friends. That's something they could certainly agree on.
He decides to finish her sentence.]

Not what you were expecting?

[He was angry before, but now that he's calmer, Leon's beginning to realize how similar he and Sayaka's positions might have actually been.
Maybe after all, her hand was just forced... like his was.]

[Sayaka shakes her head in response. That most certainly was not what she had been expecting, and now to think that she had been duped into murder... only makes her feel worse. Of course it's too late to regret the past, considering they're both dead, but she can't help but lament her actions anyways.]

[Likewise, as completely horrendous as Leon feels about... well, everything that happened between them, he wonders just how much point there is in dwelling on it now.
It's starting to seem like not much.]

... Look, shit happens. As much as we wish we could take it all back, we can't.
At least we're not in Hell... I don't think.

[He's not entirely sure yet.]

So that's somethin'.

[She wouldn't be surprised if they were in Hell, in all honesty. Though, she supposes she's grateful that they aren't.]

Well, I guess you're right...

[He smiles, since if nothing else, he can attempt to be optimistic.
Besides, what other option is there?]

'Course I'm right.
Past is in the past. It's one-thousand percent gone, done, over!
So let's agree we were both friggin' morons and move on with our... afterlives? I guess this is the afterlife.
Whatever, just put it way behind us.

Edited 2013-12-08 04:37 (UTC)

[Surprisingly, that prompts Sayaka to laugh slightly. She would very much like to move on. Of course, she can't forget it and most likely never would, but she really has no reason to be bitter anymore. That wouldn't benefit either of them, so she nods in response, giving a hint of a smile.]

...I'd like that, Kuwata-kun.

[As much as Leon would like to forget, there's no way he thinks he'd ever be able to either. Yet it's like he's become determined not to let that get in the way or drag him down.]

Same here. Consider us back at the start then!

[He's still got a dream, after all. That hasn't changed.
Speaking of...]

Hey, if it's cool, there's something I did always wanna ask ya...

Something you wanted to ask me...?

[Sayaka finds herself genuinely surprised at that. After all, the two had only interacted twice at the academy; once, when he had admitted to her that he wanted to become a musician, and the second during the events that led to both of their deaths.]

What is it, Kuwata-kun?

What was it like, bein' a singer?

Since that was my dream, man! To to be the kickass vocalist of a kickass band! You were in an idol group, that's like almost the same thing, yeah?

[Even if he admits he did kind of miss it before despite his new ambition, now he doesn't think he could stand to look at another baseball ever again, considering...
Well, you know.]

[Sayaka can only blink at him a few times before finally letting out a soft giggle. Perhaps she was wrong about you, Leon. Maybe it's because she's dead and really has nothing more to gain or lose, but she finds your enthuasism a tad endearing.]

Well, it was... nice! Performing on a large, open stage in front of your many fans who are cheering you on. Getting to travel across the country to many different regions, staying in luxurious hotels... Though, the best part to me was being with the members of my group. My friends.

[Though, considering their closeness, she considers them her family. One of the small reasons she had snapped at the academy, given her motive video.]

[He continues grinning, only seeming to get more exuberant as he listens to her.]

Aw dude, that sounds HELLA rad!
Especially the part with the luxury hotels and hordes of fans!

[Still as deep a teenager as ever, eh Leon?]

But I bet you're right, that's all gotta be a thousand times better when it's with your friends...
Hey, that gives me an idea!
WE should start a band! Who says it can't have two singers?! We'll be even MORE bitchin' with a dude AND a chick on vocals! HELL YEAH!

[And just like that he's all fired up.]

Edited 2013-12-09 04:43 (UTC)

[Needless to say, she's very amused by his sudden behaviour. Sayaka giggles once again, nodding her head.]

Sure, why not? I'd love to start a band with you, Kuwata-kun.

[...Even though they're dead. Are ghost bands even a thing? Well, whatever. She's sure it could be.]

[~~If not bands, there's ghost rock stars, at least!~~ Are they ghosts, or are they in the afterlife? Oh, who cares?! Not Leon! If they're in the afterlife then they've got an amazing selection of talent they could recruit! Maybe they can get Hendrix to be their guitarist! And if they're ghosts... well, maybe Hendrix is a ghost! If ghost bands aren't a thing they'll make them a thing!]

Then let's do it! LET'S DO IT, GIRL! LET'S MAKE THIS HAPPEN!!

[EVEN DEATH CANNOT STOP THE POWER OF MUSIC!
Or one very fiery ex-baseball player.
He raises his fist into the air, waiting on Sayaka to bump it back in agreement.]

[Sayaka only blinks at Leon as he raises his fist before she smiles gently, bumping his fist in return.]

Let's do it, then!

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