So...Voice testing~....Also there are spoilers here. For the Season 4 mid-season finale

[manofconviction]

I don't know what you're so upset for... I died. Truth be told I shouldn't have made it this far. You know as well as I do I should have died on that farm. But they saved me-- God saved me. He had a bigger plan for me. I've done what he needed me to do. I did my job.

Things are better now. Rick is better. He.. understands, he's grown. He's finally heard everything I've been trying to him since the first. He'll do fine, even without. He'll remember. You can thank the Governor for that. It was awful. I understand that, but no less awful than any of the other deaths that have happened since this Plague hit.

The girls... they're strong. They have purpose. They know what their jobs are. They'll do fine. Rick... Glenn... Daryl... Even Tyreese.. They'll watch out for them. They'll keep them safe.

So, don't sit there and mourn for me. I'm gone... Focus on what matters. Focus on those who are alive and watch them struggle and thrive. That's what I would have wanted. That's... what matters.

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[servility]

Hershel... [ But she leaves it there. There's so much sympathy in her tone that she really doesn't need to put words to it. In fact, that might make it worse. ]

[manofconviction]

These things happen. They're facts now.. At anytime it could be anyone of us. It just happened it was my time.

[servility]

I know what you said, but I still worry about them trying to do all of this without you. [ She worries about Rick trying to, but she's not going to point any fingers. Carol just remembers how heavily Rick leaned on Hershel sometimes, and she can't imagine anything good coming from this. ]

[manofconviction]

I do too, but they're ready. I realized it right at the end. They're ready-- they have to be. [He knows, but you should have heard him out their in that field. Hershel couldn't have been more proud of him if he were his own son.]

[servility]

Do you know-... [ God, she feels so awful asking this--Hershel's just died--but she can't picture him holding it against her, so: ] The girls, are they alright? And Daryl?

[manofconviction]

They made it through the sickness just fine. Daryl's group found the medication... We saved who we could, but we lost too many...

[comicbookgunslinger]

[Maybe it isn't what he is supposed to say, considering what Hershel just said about hearing the things Hershel has been telling him...them. But he feels wrong not saying it, because he wanted to badly to stop everything that happened.]

I should have taken the shot.

[manofconviction]

[Carl, he wouldn't have wanted you to do that. Sure, you probably should have, it would have saved them all from having to see him die that way. At the same time, it would have robbed your father of his moment.

He needed to die, so that Rick could step back up again. So that Rick could be that man-- so he could be better than that man he was before Lori died.]

It wouldn't have made difference, son. I was going to die in the field one way or another. You taking that shot... it would have ruined any chance your father had to make it right. He tried... he did good too. It had to happen that way because those people with the Governor... they had to see the kind of man he was... It had to happen that way, because it made him the one who started the war, not one of you from behind the fence.

[comicbookgunslinger]

I know... that's why I didn't.

[Carl pauses, wondering if maybe he shouldn't be saying these things at all, but... he would rather hear Hershel tell him why it was okay than to just wonder if it wouldn't have made the difference.

Everyone was dying anyway.

He lost Judith.

Was it really the right choice?]?

I do know... I just.

[Carl frowns really hard and looks down at the ground.]

I wish we could know that for sure. We needed you. My Dad and I... everyone does.

[manofconviction]

You did the right thing. All of you. None of this was any of your faults.

[It was the right choice. It was bad enough as it was, if he had fired... it would have been much worse. Those people... they were following orders-- they weren't really fighting for their lives. If Carl had fired that shot it would have changed that.]

I know. [A small smile.] But you'll learn how to listen, how to hear me even when I'm not there. You'll figure it out, all of you.

[gotjobstodo]

[She's fighting tears.]

I'm so sorry, Daddy.

[manofconviction]

Beth... Don't be. It's fine.. You made it out right? That's what matters. Take care of your sister... take care of each other. Keep going...

[gotjobstodo]

Yeah, but... I don't know where Maggie is. We got separated...

How am I supposed to keep going without you?