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[diabolism]

I want you to be honest with yourself here. Say it with me: "I won't last more than two weeks." You're about as fickle as a goldfish. It's alright, I understand: you're only human, which was your first mistake.

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[trickntreats]

Missy mun's all excited. Me? For once I'm hoping you're actually right, bro. I'm not gonna need that kind of complication.

[diabolism]

I'm hurt, Gabriel. I don't complicate things; I just try to set them right.

[trickntreats]

You and Michael have a secret talent for making things complicated. In this case, though, I'm gonna lay most of the blame at Missy's fingers.

Most.

[diabolism]

Have more respect for your older brothers.

[trickntreats]

When was the last time either of you earned it?

[diabolism]

I know things have gone sour, but you're still my little brother, Gabriel. I still love you.

[trickntreats]

[Low freaking blow, Lucifer. Gabriel's voice is filled with anger, yes, but mostly it's just ... hurt.]

Not enough to stop you from killing me.

[diabolism]

You were going to kill me first. I asked you to stop. Pleaded.

[trickntreats]

We both know there's no way I could have killed you, Lucifer.

[Not necessarily because he wouldn't have won in a fight. More for the same reason why he didn't even try.]

[diabolism]

Then, what were you going to do? Hope I stay put and talk to you for the rest of eternity?

[trickntreats]

I don't know. Maybe.

[Maybe he was hoping he could talk him down one last time. Maybe he was just hoping to stall him long enough for Kali and the Losechesters to get away, and then they could part ways so Gabriel could figure something else out.

[Maybe he was just hoping that choosing between killing Gabriel and not, he could give Lucifer a wake-up call.]

None of it had to be this way. That's the part that really kills me.

[And a ghost of a sarcastic grin crosses his face. Pun intended.]

[diabolism]

Yes, it did. I truly regret what I've done to you, over all, but Father is to blame for all of this. He knew right from the beginning what would transpire if he made the humans. He knew that I would see them for they really are as he made the rest of you bow to them.

Castiel said it's ordained that Michael will defeat me, no matter what. I wonder, what else did Daddy have planned that he just never told any of us about?

[trickntreats]

Don't. Angels make choices too, Lucifer, and you chose to throw a big-ass tantrum. Don't you dare blame Dad for that.

[diabolism]

Really? What was our choice in the "new baby" debacle? Oh right; bow or be cast out. Hmm. Not so much of a choice, now is it?

[trickntreats]

Dad didn't tell Michael to cast you out until you murdered Metatron. Don't try to tell me otherwise, Lucifer, if anyone knows that it's me.

[He's the one who gave Michael that message, after all. Yes, there is bitter betrayal in his tone. Lucifer told him he'd leave quietly. That wasn't quiet.]

[diabolism]

[For once, Lucifer doesn't have anything to say.]

[trickntreats]

You should have just left.

[Quietly.]

You should've just left like you said you would. The Fall, Hell ... none of it would've happened like it did if you hadn't started murdering our brothers.

[diabolism]

Metatron was in my way and he wasn't going to let me leave quietly. I did what I had to.

[trickntreats]

No, you did what you chose to do. Don't pretend anything different.

[diabolism]

Should have I just handed myself over then? The end point of this all is that I was never going to leave Heaven with my dignity. Father's grand story always needed an antagonist, Gabriel.

[trickntreats]

You could have not crossed that line! I don't know what in Heaven, Hell or Earth Dad's plans were, Lucifer, and neither do you. He didn't make you leave, or murder Metatron, or any of the shit you've pulled. You can't go ahead and say you're doing what He wanted all along. Or are you gonna tell me you've forgotten what you said to me right before you all went to Hell?

[diabolism]

I'm not quite sure what you want from me at this point. There's nothing that can be changed or prevented.

[trickntreats]

[Gabriel doesn't need to breathe, but he's still breathing hard. After a moment he throws up his hands.]

Maybe I just want my brother back without all the pride and hate. Maybe I just want to know we still matter to you.

[Even though it's obvious they don't matter enough. He lets his arms drop and his shoulders slump.]

Maybe I just want an apology you actually mean.

[diabolism]

[Lucifer couldn't apologize for it all; wouldn't apologize. It was simply the principal of the matter now, this whole war.]

Of course you all matter to me. It's Father I'm angry with, not you. [He really wasn't even angry at Michael, the one who had betrayed and cast him out in the first place. It was all their Father's fault and He had to answer for it. If Father apologized and welcomed him back, he'd gladly give up the war. He'd go home and become the brother he once was.]

Gabriel, you are my dearest brother next to Michael. I spent countless ages with you, guiding you and teaching you. I'm truly sorry any of this happened. I never wanted to involve you.

[trickntreats]

[Somehow Lucifer's words just make it worse and Gabriel looks away, swallowing through the lump in his throat. It's not like he wasn't expecting this answer. It's just that it proves what Gabriel always knew, always denied: that Lucifer's pride was more important to him than anything. And Lucifer couldn't even see it anymore.

[His voice is husky, and he refuses to glance back.]

If that were true you would've taken it up with Dad directly. I'm sorry too, Lucifer. Sorry 'cos you've Fallen so far you can't even see what you're doing wrong.

[But not far enough that Gabriel can see the other Archangel and say he's not his brother. He shrugs in a would-be casual way, still not looking.]

So I've gotta fight you, bro. I've gotta fight for all the littler brothers you and Michael and Raphael forgot all about. That includes humanity.