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dear_mun2013-10-27 09:30 pm
anathemaflora) wrote in dear_mun2013-10-27 09:30 pm
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itp another version of an original character gets grumbly and wordy
First off: shouldn't surprise you that I'm still here. You did make this journal, after all, as an - experiment, you call it. See if it could work, putting a real face to the name. A potential outcome, a few years on. It's like how you're supposed to be careful not to invite the hazards in. You make the mistake, you deal with the consequences.
But, and this is second - s' a difference, between being responsible and blaming yourself for literally everything. Know it's maybe a bit hypocritical, coming from me. But I'm still moving, and that's more than you can say. You let your fears and all that wall you up. Too scared of making the wrong move to make any moves. It's dumb. "Little me" would've written this, but I figured...maybe not so much with the shouting.
(Heh. I'm surprised at how she's turned out in that game, but I digress.)
The point is it's on you to change. That's it, that's the only thing you need to freak out so much about. Speak up, you've got a voice, don't you? Not just mine, yours. Act, live, you're just drowning in your self-pity otherwise.
... On that note - you claimed interest in applying me somewhere at some point. The me with this journal, that is. At least make sure the basics are down so that you can use them when it's time to go.
But, and this is second - s' a difference, between being responsible and blaming yourself for literally everything. Know it's maybe a bit hypocritical, coming from me. But I'm still moving, and that's more than you can say. You let your fears and all that wall you up. Too scared of making the wrong move to make any moves. It's dumb. "Little me" would've written this, but I figured...maybe not so much with the shouting.
(Heh. I'm surprised at how she's turned out in that game, but I digress.)
The point is it's on you to change. That's it, that's the only thing you need to freak out so much about. Speak up, you've got a voice, don't you? Not just mine, yours. Act, live, you're just drowning in your self-pity otherwise.
... On that note - you claimed interest in applying me somewhere at some point. The me with this journal, that is. At least make sure the basics are down so that you can use them when it's time to go.