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Someone's not pleased with current reservation plans...
May I have a word, mun-san? I plan to keep this short and sweet, so please listen carefully.
You are not putting me in that game. I believe that our time in Prayer's Pass was more than enough time for you to meet your 'sadism quota', as you refer to it--haven't I suffered enough for your amusement?
...No, don't answer that. I know what this is to you--it's all a game, right? You're just going to keep doing this until something breaks. That something, in your best case scenario, being me.
...I don't think I like you, mun-san.
You are not putting me in that game. I believe that our time in Prayer's Pass was more than enough time for you to meet your 'sadism quota', as you refer to it--haven't I suffered enough for your amusement?
...No, don't answer that. I know what this is to you--it's all a game, right? You're just going to keep doing this until something breaks. That something, in your best case scenario, being me.
...I don't think I like you, mun-san.
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[Oh come on, Mondo, you can't complain that much! At least you're in the cute Pokémon game!]
But we'll get through it together, Maizono. We won't let them torment us; we'll show 'em that we can handle whatever they throw at us!
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[...There are a few things she doesn't regret that came with it, bur she keeps that to herself before straightening up and nodding.]
Yeah...that's right. We have to be strong here--they'll get bored if we get stronger, won't they? Then they'll leave us alone, and we won't get tortured again.
[...Ignoring the fact that two scenarios could happen: either they try harder and harder til the pressure breaks them, or they simply focus on tormenting others. ...The latter would be ideal, even if Sayaka acknowledges that as selfish...]
It's...it's easier said than done, but it's better than crumbling, definitely.
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[He nods at Maizono's words, grinning.]
Yeah, exactly! They'll find someone else to torment! Then we won't have to worry about this sorta shit again!
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[She manages a small smile despite the earlier cutting words.]
...The problem is that she can be nice, but it's usually met with something horrible to balance it out, as she puts it.
She just enjoys being mean, more often than not.
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[He can't find the right words to say and is just blushing instead.]
I....I wish I could be of more help, Maizono-san.....I can't do much, though.
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[She smiles right back--the thought of some sort of peace is enough to get her previously sour expression off her face.]
I don't necessarily envy who has to become their next stress ball, but...it'll be nice to have some peace for once. We've been deprived of it for too long.
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[He rubs the back of his neck awkwardly, trying to come up with something to say in response.]
I'll be here for you, Maizono. If we're stuck somewhere else, I'll do what I can to help you out, okay?
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I've done this before long-term, and you have to - stay true to yourself, alright? It will be hard accepting the impossibility of escape but that doesn't mean it's impossible. There is always hope.
Except when there's not. And that's important to understand too.
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[She shakes her head at what Chihiro says, turning up the warmth in her expression.]
You've made me feel better by coming here and trying to give me hope. It's not much, but little things are better than nothing at all.
Please don't sell yourself so short, okay?
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[Tears are welling up.]
I-I'm so sorry.
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[She's had her fill, thank you very much.
...Still, she giggles a bit at his words--she takes them seriously, but that was just...]
You're sweet, Oowada-kun. ...Thank you, though. I know I'll need it there...
I'll do the same for you too, okay? Don't forget that.
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[This would help if he wasn't bright red, but y'know... he tries.]
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[She is slightly taken aback by those words, all things considering. It's good advice, no doubt, but...]
...I have no plans of losing myself in the process, I promise. I figure if nothing else, the pass taught us all that first lesson very well, but...
What do you mean by that last part, if I can ask? [It sounds like a bitter pill to swallow--one she may have been familiar with before, but she wanted to know what she meant.]
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[No panicking--it's nothing bad, just keep cool.]
You have nothing to be sorry for, Fujisaki-san. It's alright, okay?
[Man she wishes she had tissues to give, but maybe Chihiro will stop after that--!]
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But what if I want to, Oowada-kun?
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W-well you don't need to!! I can look out for myself!! I wouldn't want to worry you, after all!!
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Well, they're acting like gluttons who've eaten more than their fair share--they milk it for all it's worth, and we're the ones who have to deal with it.
There really should be a law against this sort of thing. [...Her expression's getting more undignified with every passing second, and she takes a moment to shift the brattiness back a few notches.]
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[So much lineface. Her fists clench lightly by her sides while she looks up at him.]
It'd just be heartless not to do the same--you deserve the worry just as much as I do, you know? Please, accept that.
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You'd think something like that would be put into place already, but no, that would be faaar too sensible. And goodness, I've heard quite a few things about the place you're heading for. I can't say I'm envious.
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[He freezes, eyes wide. She does have a point, doesn't she? He really doesn't like making her mad.]
Y-yeah, I guess you're right. Sorry, Maizono.
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...It hit close to home, for sure. She considers those times--when she was about moments from attempting to take someone's life, and toward the end, where she accepted that she there was no saving their souls--hopelessness.
...She simply nods after some consideration, her gaze at the ground.]
That's...something I will need to learn, yes. ...I don't like it in the slightest, though.
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It's alright. I hope I wasn't too harsh in saying that..?
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I know. It's the worst experience one can have. They don't like... letting us escape... sometimes even death isn't a way out.
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My point still stands, though. Muster up that inner strength and tell your mun to fuck right off. Don't take this shit lyin' down.
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[He can be kind of dense, if he's perfectly honest with himself.]
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[...Ahahaha, the actual place itself, that's. That's almost funny. If the place itself wasn't so horrifying...]
And I can't blame you in the slightest--from what I've gathered from my mun, I'm basically going to be turned into some wire housing for my soul with whatever color liquid they decide to put in me running through my 'veins'.
...It sounds like something out of science fiction, but..,I don't look forward to the reaction I'll have when I find it out.
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Not in the slightest! I-I can manage it on my own.
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[And he does.]
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Hee hee--no, I completely understand what you're saying. Just keep my head above the water, and don't go down without a fight? I think I can do that much--though, ah, telling them to...fuck off... [It feels weird, swearing like that--so unnatural, and it shows in the way her placid expression goes somewhere between uncomfortable and humored.]
I don't know if I can do that. --But you have my assurance that I don't plan to make this easy--for the tower, or for them.
[Easier said than done, but she's already gotten through one hell--she'll definitely be scared, but she wants to believe she can push through another.]
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—But at least you aren't an actual clone or something, isn't that so? That would cause an entirely morbid ethics debate on the realness of the human soul and those are always so tedious. [yes, tedious, what an excellent way to describe something that sends everyone into hat-flipping crises...]
I've heard the home worlds of everyone are also destroyed, but that won't be entirely different for yours anyway, yes? [charles "i'm such a kind and sensitive person" fei-ong.]
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They can pull the strings all they want. [She smirks.] That don't mean we can't surprise 'em from time ta time.
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[She...honestly can't say she disagrees with that. It's good that he knows it, but now if it could just be improved...]
I guess you're not used to that, huh?
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[She doesn't like to think on these things, but she's afraid of what would've happened if Chihiro were there. It wouldn't have gone well at all, would it?
...No, she can't think about that. If she had another expression on her face, it shifts back into a winning smile--no use in causing anymore worry!]
...Oowada-kun will be there, though. I don't think he'll let anything happen to either of us...
So just know I'll be in good hands, okay? I don't want you to worry yourself too much--you have to look after yourself too, you know?
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[Unless they're a wanna-be tough guy, but he hasn't dealt with those in awhile.]
It's good to know you'll keep me in line, Maizono!
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[Give her about three seco--okay, she thinks she's got it!]
...You're not talking to her, are you?!
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[She can't really say much of anything to that. She'd have never considered dying an option--but knowing that not even that would prevent this from happening...
She looks up at Kanaya, almost wondering if she should ask...]
How...
How do you stay...well, sane knowing this?
[She needs to know. She doesn't want to wind up losing herself in the end, after all!]
1/4 BEST VIEWED ON POST AND NOT FROM INBOX...
You don't.
[She sounds like someone who has totally lost it.]
2/4
...just grubbing. I mean kidding.
3/4
You're never going to be the same, though, even if you keep your sanity. That's just not how the progression of time works. Will you be the same person after graduating from Hope's Peak Academy [her inflection indicates the verb is mundane and not the Monobear-invented double entendre] as you were before you enrolled? It's... a little like that.
4/4 a.k.a. complete!
[And this is an idea that has her genuinely up to her previously-faked levels of glee.]
There are benefits to bearing with arrangements like this until endgame without turning into such a gibbering mess that your player has to put you out of your mercy. If you play your cards just right... it's an escape from your canonical fate!!! You could go "home" with someone else, preserve relationships unique to that realm, end up somewhere relatively free of despair... isn't that what you and Mondo did with Robin after the game?
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[She can certainly dream of that day, at least.]
It's hard to work around something that's keeping you boxed in, though. I'd think that making it through one of these situations would give me some sort of perspective, but...
If I can be honest, I'm only becoming more perplexed.