voicetesting; homeless 5ever

[getinthefuckingrobot]

It's not...--

[No, saying the name isn't funny is a waste of breath. He is a waste of breath.]

I don't want to pilot Eva anymore. I don't want to do anything.

[There's a long pause. When he speaks again, his voice is much quieter than it even was before. Smaller. His tone carries no trace of irritation, only... resignation.]

Leave me alone.

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best username omfg

[crownless]

C'mon, kid. It's a giant robot. And you have all those cute girls cheering for you!

[HAHA NOT MENTIONING THE DAD THING JUST FOCUS ON THE BABES]

What more do you need?

[squeal_like_a_piggy]

[Anna just laughs; lightly giggling into her hand. Sorry Shinji she's kind of a bitch]

Oh my.

What a pathetic hero you are.

[5thchild]

Why not, Shinji-kun? Why do you wish to give up now?

[doublekamina]

[Say, who gets an inspiring (and heavy) slap across the back? Thaaaat's right, SHINJI gets an inspiring (and HEAVY) slap across the back!]

Alright, Short Stack, clean the wax outta your ears an' PAY ATTENTION! Mankind wasn't meant to whine and mope about, we're here to move and act and GET THINGS DONE. So if you don't wanna do one thing, then BY DAMN you do something entirely different!

It's your job to stand up and be awesome at whatever you do, with a BURNING PASSION in your soul all the while! Now get in this thing and SET THE WORLD ABLAZE with your FIGHTING SPIRIT!

[gendos_puppet]

Did something happen?

[riskofmylife]

Okay, so you're the kid that pliots this Eva thing and who's dimension, me and the rest of my pals in ZEXIS are probably gonna get called to sometime in the future or so my Mun says. He also says that your dad is neglectful, emotionally abusive prick who made you this way.

Look, I understand what you're going through but you gotta fighting it, you gotta protect your world and the people you care about for those Angel bastards. But don't pilot the Eva because you feel everyone making you to and you have no choice, do it because YOU can. As an old buddy of mine used to say "Don't believe in the you who believes in me. Don't believe in the me who believes in you. Believe in the you who believes in yourself."

[sittinghereinbluejayway]

Hey, kid...you alright?

ahaha thank you

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[When has anyone cheered for him? No one has cheered for him. His own father barely provides the smallest of acknowledgements.]

I don't care. It doesn't matter.

Nothing matters.

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[Harsh as that may be, Shinji can't disagree with any of it. (Except maybe the inclusion of the word 'hero' at all.) Instead of arguing, he simply lowers his gaze.]

That's why there's no point.

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[It must have played in his mind at least a thousand times. One last look. Crushing. Blood, so much blood. Even through the protective layers of the Eva, his hands are covered in it. (In filth.)

Kaworu told him that he loved him, something no one had ever said. He loved him. And he...--

Breath shortens. Eyes widen. How is this possible? Those incessant replays have practically burned into his brain, so he knows what happened. What does this mean? Had he not...

He doesn't understand anything anymore. So he can only cling to the one thing he knows to be true.]

I... I shouldn't ha...-- [A beat; he looks down] I didn't deserve to live.

omg

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[ow, dude

what the hell was that for

ANYWAY, yep. Guess who's not inspired at all by this little speech? That's right. He sort of flops in response to that slap on the back, maybe winces a little, and doesn't react to those words apart to shrink from them.

After a long silence:]

I'm sorry. I.... I think you have the wrong person.

[5thchild]

[ the first meeting is always a shock, Kaworu knows.

But he will always smile very gently - lovingly - at the other ]

Why not, Shinji-kun? Why do you say it, even though you are still here, even though you are still alive?

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[he understands his life less and less now, sob

which is saying a lot when you're a character from evangelion]

... Ayanami?

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[He doesn't understand how this stranger manages to know who he is, or anything about him. But that's about as much worth dwelling on as this mun and the account name she's clearly amused herself with. Because there's other stuff to focus on.

Stuff that's wrong.

All he can do is shake his head.]

I'm useless. I'll always be useless.

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[.... is that a bird

a talking bird

don't mind Shinji here; he's just going to stare for a good minute or two]

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[The kindness, the gentle smile (which he'd only looked up long enough to catch a flash of)... it's all like something being thrown at him, stabbing him right where it hurts the most. Because he doesn't deserve these things any more than he deserves his life.

Especially not from the one who should have lived instead.]

Why me? [It's not really clear what he's referring to, but it's most likely not an actual direct response to Kaworu.] Why me?!

[gendos_puppet]

Yes, it's me.

[Well, its Rei Three anyway. So close enough.]

[sittinghereinbluejayway]

[Go right on ahead--looks are free]

How could I resist? (1/2)

[doublekamina]

[Kamina used DRAMATIC SPEECH!




The attack was ineffective.]

[fierily]

Enough with the whining and complaining already! You're obviously doing this for attention.

[squeal_like_a_piggy]

Poor boy.

But it's alright; I for one happen to like my men sniveling and broken.

It's rather adorable~

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[Asuka used: being Asuka

it's... well, somewhat ineffective

Nevermind that, as far as he knows, Asuka is supposed to be lying in a room unresponsive somewhere in Nerv HQ. When she speaks, falling back into the usual pattern of his response is almost as easy and unconscious as reflex. His shoulders sag a bit, but there's a little more life in this response than in the others.]

That's the opposite of what I want.

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[You know, this kid has seen some pretty trippy shit in his relatively short life so far. Things that make even finding a penguin in the shower seem relatively normal in comparison, although Pen-Pen never talked to him.

So it's a few more long moments of silence before he ventures:]

Did you...--?

[fierily]

[ Don't be treating this like pokemon, Shinji! ]

You're lying. [ she murmured out.

With her one hand pressed firmly against her hips, the pointer finger on her other pressed up against his chest. She leans in closer. ]

Then why do you spend so much of your time bellyaching about it? Leave, run away. You'll be doing me a favor. I don't need another Eva pilot slowing me down.

Re: How could I resist? (1/2)

[doublekamina]

[In which case, MORE SHOUTING AND VIOLENCE! So start with a headlock. That way you can hear him better, right?]

You're a MAN, aren'tcha? Then I've got the right guy, cause I'm telling you how MEN are supposed to live! Heads held high, proudly throwing up the horns and rocking out to the universe, doing whatever the hell we think is right and proper for ourselves and the ones we love- hell, even the race as a whole if we feel like it!

So if you don't want to drive that 'Evel' or whateverthehell, screw the damn thing! Just want something, and go do it. If what you really want is to buttsex that weird white-haired kid up there, then BUTTSEX THE HELL OUT OF THAT WHITE-HAIRED KID! Go beyond the impossible, make him pregnant with assbabies, and then teach the assbabies how to knife-fight with chainsaws!

[He'll let go of your head now, and poke you really hard in the chest with two fingers.] All that matters is the truth you make your own. Believe in your own greatness, and nobody can take that away from you or your assbaby family!

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[whateva whateva he does what he wants

actually no

Anyway, wow, that proximity is making him extremely uncomfortable. He's just going to leeeeeean away and pointedly avoid looking at her, not only because of the proximity, but also because of something she said. "Leave, run away."

I mustn't run away....

It stings, almost worse than if she'd actually slapped him instead of just poked him. But even so, it doesn't matter now. Doesn't matter whether he stays or runs. Nothing he does will make him any less of a waste of space. There's no option but to agree with her, really.]

I can't do anything here. [I can't do anything anywhere]

this is so beautiful

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[AAAAAHHH--!

No, no, horrible idea. Horrible. He's definitely struggling now, trying to break free because HOLY CRAP. As a result, he doesn't catch a lot of the first part of that speech, or really much of anything up the part about buttse-...]

What?! But-but, I... I'm not.... [Okay, and that thought is going to get cut off by those two really hard pokes to the chest WOW DID YOU HAVE TO DO THAT]

[5thchild]

[ Shinji smiles wider, but never less gently ]

Shinji-kun. You are worthy of being alive. You are worthy of living. Because you will eventually find your way.

I know it's hard right now, and everything looks dark, but along your path you will find stars to light up your path. And they make it worth it too.

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[It has to stop. Something has to make it stop. He's seen things, strange things, nightmarish things. But this may be the most nightmarish of all, even more than being left helpless inside the Eva to watch the dummy system activate.

By now, he's in near hysterics with the way he sounds. His head is in his hands in a futile attempt to block it all out.]

How can you say that? After.... [His voice breaks, and then subsequently grows quieter.]. How can you say that?

[5thchild]

Because I know it's true. [ he doesn't come closer, nor moves away, simply watching the other. Kaworu's instinct tells him to reach out for the boy, but he fears he will respond badly to the touch at this point ]

[sittinghereinbluejayway]

[Mordecai holds his pose, little realizing how his very appearance has thrown the kid into one of his daily existentialist crises.]

Did I...?

have another gurren lagann character

[inquiris]

Excuse me, I am sorry that you would like to be left alone, but may I ask a few questions?

What is an "Eva"? Is it like a Ganmen?

gurren lagann characters and shinji will be bff

[getinthefuckingrobot]

[Well, at least she's polite about it. That's saying more than some people here

coughasuka]

What's a Ganmen?

if only shinji had a good MANLY support system...also sorry about just one icon OTL

[inquiris]

[Well, Nia is always polite, after all! But hmm. How to explain a Ganmen?]

Ah, well...it is like a giant face! Humans are able to climb into them and fight. Where I am from, the Ganmen were attacking humans. But many humans had found Ganmen of their own and started to fight back.

Forgive me, good sir, I did not introduce myself. My name is Nia. What are you called?

Let me know if it stays that way, hmm?

[doublekamina]

[He'll push his shades up a little further and grin. A MANLY grin, mind you.]
What, so you're after the blue-haired chick instead? Not a bad choice, not bad at all. But let's see what she thinks about it, huh?



Heh~, looks like you're in it to win it, kid!

Let me know if it stays that way, hmm?

[doublekamina]

[He'll push his shades up a little further and grin. A MANLY grin, mind you.]
What, so you're after the blue-haired chick instead? Not a bad choice, not bad at all. But let's see what she thinks about it, huh?



Heh~, looks like you're in it to win it, kid!