Does it not occur to you that it may be for the better? I would prove beyond the shadow of a doubt what I chose and what matters to me, and there won't be anyone who can undo it. No more questions.
[He doesn't know what to do about the slumping, but still. Just.]
I had to memorize the notes Grandfather took on his life, before he tried to be not-okay with his death by possessing me. He's lived for centuries - because he was not okay.
He was the first person I did not want to be like. Wanted to be better than. I should have liked to do it by the way I lived, but I knew even then that I could not if I were to ever rail against my death. Death is something that comes, sooner or later. It makes life have - a complete meaning. I have not feared it in a long time.
[That doesn't stop Dick from thinking it's unfair. Then again, since when has death ever been fair? Especially the way it snatches away people he cares about most in horrifically violent ways.]
You're nothing like him. You haven't been for a long time, in life or in... in death.
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[Not like all that many people have apologized to him, either. If he thinks about it.]
Why not? There's nothing to be done.
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[He has Issues with this.]
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There is nothing to do about it. Don't - aggravate yourself over something useless. Save your energy for something you can change. Your way.
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You shouldn't be so okay with this.
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[He doesn't know what to do about the slumping, but still. Just.]
I had to memorize the notes Grandfather took on his life, before he tried to be not-okay with his death by possessing me. He's lived for centuries - because he was not okay.
He was the first person I did not want to be like. Wanted to be better than. I should have liked to do it by the way I lived, but I knew even then that I could not if I were to ever rail against my death. Death is something that comes, sooner or later. It makes life have - a complete meaning. I have not feared it in a long time.
[Long for him.]
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You're nothing like him. You haven't been for a long time, in life or in... in death.
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I'd better not.
[Which is almost as good as 'thank you.']