[He sees that, but decides against paying it much mind. It's difficult. All of this is. The problem is that Zero is Suzaku is that boy who remembers how these exchanges once went. Even if Lelouch pretends, there are those memories... and they're hard to ignore, sometimes. Especially after spending so much time utterly alone. He wants to be able to maintain this, being Zero and shouldering this weight and his punishment, but there's still a human selfishness here. And though it could be alright here, he doesn't... want to give up like that. Even if being Zero is, in a way, giving up.
He nods, stealing himself once more. Is it selfish to want to seek him out now? Of course it is. But there's a tell-tale tension that runs through him, the way it always did when Suzaku wasn't sure whether or not he wants to ask something. After all, Zero needs to set his head on straight before daring. Lelouch... probably does too, given the employed tactic.]
THAT IS HOW I KNOW YOU GOOOO OOOOOOOOOOON
He nods, stealing himself once more. Is it selfish to want to seek him out now? Of course it is. But there's a tell-tale tension that runs through him, the way it always did when Suzaku wasn't sure whether or not he wants to ask something. After all, Zero needs to set his head on straight before daring. Lelouch... probably does too, given the employed tactic.]