[ Oh no. You do not get to pull that shit with him. He'll get right up in your space and shove you. And keep shoving you, closing in on your space again and again. Don't poke the junkie ex-angel, Dean; he hasn't been entirely de-clawed. ]

Yes I did. Before it started. I served Heaven. Not you.

[ Shove. ]

You're just one man. Afraid. Guilty. In pain.

[ Shove. ]

I thought you were beautiful. All that pain but your soul was still beautiful.

[ Shove. ]

You said it was worth it. All that pain. It was worth it. It's not worth it, Dean. It sucks! [ Trying to stop Heaven. Falling. Loving you. It's not worth it. It just hurts. ] It fucking—[ His breath hitches, comes out broken. ]—sucks.

[ And now he's having emotions and he doesn't understand them. Emotions are stupid. This is why you're a jackass. He glares at you. ]