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Okay, hold on just one goddamn minute. What the hell do you think you're doing? I turn my back for one second and... jesus christ. This is just irresponsible. You have six of us in games already. You're struggling with AC with that Harry guy. And now you're telling me that against all better judgment you're going to ignore everything and send me to run around in space with Pendleton? I don't believe this.

[a moment of silence for some facepalming]

Look, I'm finished with all of your stupid ideas. Just leave me alone and let me have some damn peace for maybe five minutes. I don't want this. I don't need this. This is ridiculous. Just drop it and back the hell up. Now.

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And here I thought you said how there's no use in talking to these people.

[A slight smirk.]

Though, according to Kubler-Ross, they say bargaining is part three of the five stages.

[oh man, a smirk. She is so not in the mood for that attitude right now]

Shut the hell up.

[she's facepalming again, just shaking her head]

You really think I have anything she wants? How am I supposed to bargain with someone this... [she doesn't even have a word]

And anyway I shouldn't have to. I shouldn't have to... gamble for my life like it's some kind of damn game.

... and what the hell do the five stages of grief have to do with this, Pendleton?

Yes, ma'am.

[Totally not amused. Not at all.

[They aren't joking when they say misery loves company, are they?]

Hate to say it, but at this point it is starting to look like a game to them.

[And now, just... Resisting the urge to tell her that she's also got the anger stage down pat as well.]

It's... nothing. No. Forget I ever said anything.

[the "yes m'am" feels more like a joke than anything and for a brief moment she remembers what it's like to want to shoot Murphy Pendleton right in the face]

Well, maybe it's a game to them but it's sure as hell not for us. I can't even imagine why they think it's okay to treat us like this. It's like they don't have any decency at all.

[she can tell he's thinking of saying something obnoxious and her scowl just deepens that much more for it]

No, I won't I'm not going to forget you said anything.

[a look]

Now, what?

[Nooo! Murph likes having his face where it's at. You know. On his... face.]

You can't tell me that you're just now realizing this. I still remember what you told me the last time.

[Very good, Murphy. You have a memory! In any case, he just didn't take that warning very seriously until it started to get, well. Serious.

[He holds his hands up defensively. Sure, she's not pointing a gun at his head now, but she might as well be with that look.]

I'm just saying... People seem to have different ways of expressing their feelings when addressing these... these kinds of situations, you know what I'm saying?

[No, you're just talking out of your ass now, man.]

[Anne doesn't care, he'll lose his face privileges if he keeps being a smartass]

Well... I didn't realize it was this bad before. She actually thinks it's funny. It's like these people are sadists. I don't even understand it.

[she crosses her arms, still glaring proverbial daggers]

... no, I don't know what you mean. I get what you're saying, but I don't get how it relates to what you said before.

You're just trying to keep your ass out of trouble with me, aren't you?

[Okay. He would just look really pathetic while she abolishes those privileges, anyway.]

I doubt it's any consolation, but mine feels the same way.

[Oh. Brr...

[He stops and thinks for a moment, eyes shifting away.]

Maybe?

[MURPHY PENDLETON, YOU ARE THE WORST AT MAKING A CONVINCING SPIEL. He is 30-something and what is this.]

[D: that face. Even Anne can't resist that face]

Actually it's the opposite. I don't want you to have to go through this bullshit, too. Even if you're a smartass.

[for a moment, she almost wants to laugh at him. She's heard some lame ways of defending oneself before, that that has got to be in the top ten. "Maybe?". Good lord]

Well, it's not going to work. You think I'm in any mood to take this from you of all people?

[she doesn't really sound angry anymore though, because he's just so ridiculous. She actually sounds slightly amused. It must be a sign of the apocalypse]

[Nothing saves you quite like the kicked puppy look.]

I'm dealing with a mun here who apparently gets a... kick out of making me scream, and get so injured that I limp when I walk. Somehow, I feel like it's gonna happen either way.

[...ANNE, HE'S SCURRED. He was collecting like, twenty first aid kits and wasn't allowed to use a single one of them!

[Also that's really the most pathetic attempt to defend himself ever... even for Murphy, it's pretty bad. But he's pretty sure Anne isn't about to kneecap him for it.

[Yeah. He's pretty sure...]

If that's the case, then I can just go.

[When all else fails, retreat!]

[a grimace]

Jesus christ. That's what you're dealing with? Shit, Pendleton, if I'd known that I'd have tried to get you out of this situation in the first place.

[she just gives him a look]

Go? You're just going to run off, seriously? I'm not going to bite your head off, Pendleton. I don't have any reason to.

[and now she feels a little bad]

And how were you gonna do that, exactly?

[Trying not to, but he's pretty dubious that anything could ever be done for him, at this point. His one saving grace is the fact that this game doesn't allow people to get as kill-happy with their characters as in others -- since they don't, you know, come back.]

You sure about that?

[What about them face privileges? Can he keep those?]

Well, I would have figured something out.

[she doesn't look discouraged]

I would have gone in and... gotten you somehow. If we could make it out of Silent Hill, we could make it out of... wherever the hell you're going to end up. Well... wherever we're going to end up. I guess we'll be able to watch each other's backs, at least.

Yes, I'm sure about that. I wouldn't hurt you, not now. You're.. the closest thing to an ally I have left.

[you can keep your face, Murphy, but that doesn't mean you can abuse the privilege]

Sounds like one hell of a plan. I'm impressed.

[Except not really. Anne may not be discouraged, but Murphy is. Which is probably why he's just stopped complaining and resigned himself to his fate for awhile now.]

I think I can deal with that.

[He pauses. Even if it's a subject change:]

...I take it that means your mun's decided not to yank you from when you're more likely to, uh... shoot me?

[No, seriously -- he's looking visibly relieved, because allies are good. He doesn't have many of those. Actually, he doesn't have any at all, now that he thinks about it. That's just sad.]

[does she detect a hint of sarcasm? Anne narrows her eyes slightly, but says nothing]

Well, it's better than nothing, I guess. Not that it matters anymore, since most likely we'll both end up stuck there.

[she doesn't mind the subject change so much. She just nods]

Yeah. She was all set on taking me from that... time in the mine, but she changed her mind. Thank god.

[allies are difficult to come by in this sort of world they live in after Silent Hill, and she'd hate to lose him as one due to something as stupid as a mun's decision]

And you? What's yours decided for you?

[Quite possibly! The deadpan is just written all over his face.]

Better than nothing... Right.

To be honest, I never thought I'd see you again.

[Not that he's complaining or anything. She's the only person he feels he doesn't have to lie to or hide from. Which is ironic, when he thinks about it.

[He pauses, line-faced as he thinks about facing Anne from that time again.

[Yeah, he's plenty grateful, ah hah hah hah...]

Originally she was hooping for, um, what happened... on the boat. ["After you shot me," he means.] But looks like she's settled on a few days after I -- after we -- left that town.

[she can see it. Face privileges are in danger of being revoked]

Trying is always better than nothing, Pendleton. You are the most pessimistic son of a bitch, you know that?

[she doesn't really sound like she's insulting him, more like she's nagging him. It would probably be funny if she wasn't so trigger-happy in most situations. Her expression softens just slightly at that, though]

I never thought I'd see you again, either. I thought I'd be okay with that, but seeing you now... I'm glad. It's sort of nice, talking to someone who I don't have to feel crazy around, you know? Because you saw it all too. I can actually talk to you. It's not a constant struggle to... be normal, after all that.

[she grimaces slightly at the thought]

You'd be terrified I was going to kill you the whole time, wouldn't you? I guess maybe this way, it'll be easier to talk to each other. If anything's ever easy.

[she glances warily at him]

Mine's taking me from... after I killed Sewell.

[yep, she's just saying that out loud where there are hundreds of multifandom witnesses]

After all that's happened... Can you honestly blame me?

[Being pretty one of the most unlucky people, he doesn't have a whole lot to feel optimistic about. He can't even entirely expect sunshine and rainbows even after his escape, much as he'd like for it to be.]

Well, you won't have to worry about any of that while I'm around. Doubt it's gonna be normal, but nothing has been since...

...for awhile.

[His expression doesn't change, but the thought admittedly does make him a mite uncomfortable.]

I think I'd be pretty nervous being stuck in a space maze with someone who's more prone to pointing a gun at me, so... yeah.

[He gives her a passing glance.]

You gonna be okay with that?

I can't blame you, but it doesn't mean I have to like it. I know this world isn't exactly pretty, but you can't just go around looking at the worst in every situation.

[nag nag nag]

[he gets a small smile for that, though]

It's nice. Feels like I can breathe, for once. Not that anything about this is ideal or anything, but I can deal with it.

We can deal with it.

Yeah, I doubt either of us would enjoy that too much. Maybe this way... maybe things can get better?

[she honestly doubts that anything can be better after what they went through. At his question, she stops to think about it]

I don't think so. I don't know if I'll ever be okay with it. I don't regret it, but I realize it's not okay.

[she's not sure what else to say about it, because she doesn't want to go off on a rant at him. So she just gives him a standard Anne look, wondering what he thinks about all of that]

It's hard to hold out much faith in a situation when it usually does keep getting worse.

[Nag all you want, Anne. He does what he wants!

[Or, rather... what he doesn't what. Sometimes, it's a wonder how he's become such a glutton for punishment. Other than the obvious reasons, that is.]

Yeah, we... [God, it's so weird to say that out loud. He's perhaps gotten too used to riding this trainwreck monstrosity solo.] Well... Can't imagine how things can get any worse, can they?

[Awkward slight smile thing. Murphy, you know well what happened the last time you said something like that out loud. You're a stupid betch.

[He can't help but wonder about what she's said a little, how much is truth and how much might be a tough front. After all, for as much as he believed that Napier got what he deserved, even Murphy couldn't ever bring himself to revel in pride over torturing the bastard, once all was said and done. But then, he can't imagine that Anne would spend enough time with Sewell to hear him scream and beg for his life like Napier did. That's a nightmare that will always stick with him.]

No... it's not. But I'm sure you'll pull through it. Got no other choice.

Well with an attitude like that it's bound to. Jesus, Pendleton.

[she knows his pessimism isn't really his fault, but she can't help being irritated because she wishes the world hadn't dealt him the sort of hand that made him want to be so negative. Even though she can admit that some of it is his own fault. Anne isn't exactly happy sunshine either, but she's more realistic than pessimistic]

Careful, you'll jinx it.

[she doesn't really believe that; she's not a superstitious woman at all. But she says it anyway]

But between the two of us, I'm sure we can survive whatever happens. We'be been through worse. Whatever it is.

[there's that "we" word again, Murphy. Get used to it]

[she nods slowly at that, because he's right. She does have no other choice but to just keep pushing forward, to keep putting one foot in front of the other in a less literal sense]

Yeah. I always do. No matter what it is, I always seem to pull through it.

[she gives him a look]

You're the same way, aren't you?

Sorry.

[It's hard to say whether if he's saying it out of sarcasm, or something else. The state of his outlook on life is rarely anything but bleak and pessimistic, though it isn't fair to push that onto other people. Most of the time, he just brings it on himself.]

I don't think it matters, either way.

[Murphy isn't superstitious, either. He's just pretty sure that he naturally attracts bad luck like a moth to a flame.]

That's as good a goal as any. It'd be kinda anticlimactic, dying after everything that's happened.

[Oh dear. The more he hears it, the stranger it gets.

[He isn't sure how to answer that question at first, or if he even should answer at all. What a nasty slippery slope he's on.]

I... guess.

[Such brimming confidence in this one.]

[she doesn't feel like he's sorry, but she won't push it because she's tired of wanting to smack him]

Pretty much. I guess we'll have to just rely on each other to survive now and then. Which... honestly is probably what we should have been doing in the first place.

[she gives him another look]

You guess? Are you planning on not getting through this?

[your lack of confidence is killing her, Murphy]

((ooc; ffffffffffff sorry I've taken so long to tag. Things just got unexpectedly insane for a week))

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